No porn. I swear.

I owed everyone three posts this week, I had it in my head and by God I’m getting it done.

I should change the name of this blog to something having to do with the church because I talk about the church a lot now but oh man that is some good material. We were figuring out our stewardship campaign the other day and our priest (who is hilarious and really nice but only an interim priest while we are in the hiring process) asked if we could just send out a little card with “pay up” on it.

I think…no? But damn that would be good. I think a humorous stewardship campaign would totally make me pay more.

Better living through humor.

I went to post my blog last night on Facebook and for those of you that don’t know this, Facebook automatically gives you certain stats on your page without you asking for them. I don’t really notice them most of the time but occasionally something will pop out.

Last night I posted and my previous day’s blog~which normally would say something like “16 people reached” or “8 people reached” or something along those lines had decidedly different numbers.

My Sweet List numbers said, “492 people reached”

um…what?

So I popped back onto the list to see if I somehow linked it to porn by accident.

Nope. No porn. No explanation either. No idea. Nothing new happening over here.
So. weird.

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::waves to my little group of readers I have::
To the 492 of you that popped in…it was very nice to see you. 😎
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I lost my pants.  (I know you guys are thinking…THIS is why the 492 people came by. But no. This happened after. And there was no nudity. and the 492 people would have run screaming from the blog I promise).

It is easy to lose my pants because  everything I own is black, pretty sure we’ve talked about this before. So I try and find my leggings (because dress down Friday is stepped up when you aren’t even supposed to work on Friday) so I search the drawers, I search the laundry, I look upstairs and downstairs…

…hell I even looked in that drawer that holds those underthings-you-wear-to-weddings and a swimsuit.

I hate that drawer.

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No leggings.

But as I searched I came across a different pair I apparently stashed last year in a drawer I like to call “the place where all bad clothes go until they decide to behave themselves and fit again”.

Since I’m an organizer … it’s a small drawer.  Only a few expensive beloved pieces are in there. They don’t last. I tend to donate rather than save.

Some Nike magic leggings made their way into that drawer and lo and behold they fit. I am now wearing them.

After trying them on my suspicion is that they were too high waisted (a pox on the inventor of the high waisted anything) and so that’s a little unfriendly but I have pants and the universe and everyone that has to see me today is pretty grateful.

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No, I never found my other pants. It’s been that week.

But I got a run in this morning before work (super short, like two miles) and did about 30 pushups. Ha…quickies! …and that’s on about five hours of sleep (miracle of miracles) and tonight I get to pick up theboy for a weekend of JOY and FUN and gallavanting around the church!

yeah, I’m bringing him to the church.

Shut up. don’t judge me. I have stuff to get done. He’ll love it. Run around like a maniac. Play Minecraft. Eat snacks. Charm everyone and own the place.

That’s my plan anyway. It could go hopelessly awry. Kids.

There will be no running tomorrow (theboy) but hopefully Sunday because MY KID WILL BE HOME.

did I mention my kid will be home? MT says he’s my favorite but you and I both know…it depends on what time it is. Shaughnessy was definitely the favorite yesterday. I’ll tell you that story tomorrow.

God help me I’ll never get a hot shower again.

Gotta run. I have letters to print!

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Run on…

I had a plan.

My big plan was to do three posts this week.

As you can see…so far I’m totally on track with that. As long as it’s Wednesday. I mean, it’s Wednesday, right?

I know, it’s Thursday and I’m already off.
We had a funeral at church yesterday and we started the day with pretty much everything going wrong. The church seemed to be out of coffee, the cookie person didn’t bring the cookies. People arrived earlier than you can imagine was possible, someone arrived four hours late…missing the entire thing. The organist dropped her music in the middle of a quiet moment (totally unlike her) and our priest couldn’t find his carefully arranged sermon and had to wing it (also unlike him) only to find it right in front of him afterward. I mean. It was that day.

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Is Mercury in Retrograde? Are the planets out of whack? Is there a full moon?

What the hell?

I did a  lot of moving quickly trying to cover bases and making it look like we had it all under control. Coffee showed up. Cookies showed up. The service went fine and as those of us that have lost someone knows, we don’t really notice those things anyway. It just felt like an off day.

I’ve been working on these fires for weeks and they don’t seem to be getting any smaller. So I’ve been making a very concerted effort to leave work at a reasonable hour each day so I have time to get a workout done. It’s a management thing. I’m only on day two. I’m supposed to get off at 2:30 so making sure to leave by 4:30 at the latest is my big effort.

yeah….I know. I could try harder. But the damn fires.

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I ran Tuesday morning and purposely took Wednesday off thinking I’d run every other day. That’s okay because it turned out  completely out of whack anyway.

Sean flies out today to Virginia to pick up MY BOY (waves to MT).  It’s his boy, too,  but I’m claiming him. Once he moves back here there’ll be plenty of opportunity for him to not be my favorite anymore.   We’re up and out early for the airport. The bonus? That means I have time to run later today! I don’t have to make dinner. I don’t have to feel guilty about staying up late (yep. all the time)…I just have to run and get my work done!

Me either, Rob

I haven’t had a serious strength training/incline/work my ass off kind of work out in weeks and I totally miss it. I’m hoping I can do the basics* for the week until Thanksgiving and then maybe after that I can start a real routine that won’t be so on the fly.

Nothing like starting a job at an Episcopal church right smack during the holidays. #Advent #Evensong #somanybulletins 

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The basics*

an easy run
some push ups (usually around 40)
squats please…usually 40 to 60
Give me a plank. Please remind me I have abs somewhere

The thing I’m neglecting more than anything is eating. I have got to remember to eat. I’m snacking more than anything. Fruit on the run. A piece of chicken if I get a chance but usually I just forget. Hopefully I can grab a protein bar if I remember.

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yum.

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Run on…

Sweet List <3

1.  a new haircut! Thank you Princess Anna! @annaloze I love her.

2. November is here. I’ve never been so happy for November. #longestyearever #flewby

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3. MT gets home THIS WEEK.  I’m so glad he’s happy. I love him happy.

4. My computer font has been totally screwed up for two weeks and it’s been impossible to see anything clearly on the screen. It’s been like looking at a really really bad photocopy.

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 I finally figured it out today, or my computer figured it out for me and notified me of a glitch. Was it waiting for something in particular? What happened today that said ~this is the day we’re going to let her off the hook. Today she gets her regular font back. I mean, it’s been fun but the torture should stop now.  I would like to know for the next time it decides to do this.
5. I think (I think…) I am mostly caught up at work. Which means I am not going into the week behind. I’ve been working behind for weeks and weeks and for someone who likes to be ahead of the game on everything, this is causing me to lose sleep.  I finally feel somewhat even. I have a huge pile of work to do but if I dive in headfirst I might get it done quick. Who knew churches had so much to do.
6.  Sean and I went hiking today and it was the best way to spend a Sunday. I just turned off my phone (okay, I didn’t really but I put it on low power and put it away in the backpack) and enjoyed the gorgeous day outside.  You would think with everyone in my family being tucked away neatly in their homes I would not be so paranoid about being reached but I just am. So until I’m not…I keep the phone on. Meanwhile, here is me killing time while Sean is Ingressing. A four mile hike for a quick two minute Ingress moment? Totally worth it. Plus he made me laugh the whole time so I’m all in for that kind of day. #Ingress #hikingcolorado #excusesexcuses 

7.  Tea of a Kind. Now…here’s the glitch. I bought the Pomegranate Acai White Tea and it’s so delicious. I loved it. The other flavor said it had caffeine right on the bottle and this one didn’t so I figured I was probably good. I can’t see caffeine anywhere on the bottle and I can’t find caffeine information anywhere. White Tea generally has quite a bit of caffeine so I’m not sure what’s up there. I only drank a little of it to make sure I don’t invite a migraine but the answer is still a mystery. If you can have caffeine though…this stuff is delicious.


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8.  Shalane Flanagan. I mean Seriously. She just inspires you to get your ass out the door and run. Between watching her win the NYCM and the postcard perfect weather of Colorado in November I am dying to be running pretty much all the time.

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9. The Manitou Incline is tentatively scheduled to open Dec 1st. Which means I have to get back to doing my incline work. My legs are definitely not in incline shape. Michelle’s totally are. And a great thank you to the hard workers who haul themselves up those stairs every day to work on the incline.  It is an incredible workout and it’s cold and wet and just a huge undertaking. Those of us that love the incline and Colorado’s great outdoors appreciate your efforts.

10. I went to TJ Maxx because I have no work pants. I found a few pair that I think will work really well (I’ll be honest, I didn’t try them all on) but I  happened upon the greatest t-shirt ever (when I was looking through t-shirts so I didn’t really “happen” on it), I mean I was looking in the t-shirt section.  For $6.99 my life has been made better. I want to go back and buy six more. Long, soft, fits well, good grey color. I just love it. Good quality t-shirts are hard to find! No, I didn’t really need a t-shirt but … that’s not the point.

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That is probably very true.
But I got a t-shirt that changed my life and no I want six more. #idontexaggerate #ifonlyjeansfitthatway

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Run on…

alarm bells

I was talking to Catherine yesterday morning (Sister Catherine) to find out where my niece was. I am trying to plan her wedding (B’s wedding) but you know, we don’t have 47 other things to do every single day or anything. I got something in the mail that I ordered for her and I had messaged her which usually results in instantaneous “that’s so CUTE!”.

I got nothin’

So I called Catherine and she said, “B went hunting. For four days.  With no water and no cell service.’

No.Way.

WHY??

That’s always my first question because I don’t see any reason why anyone would do that, right?

She said, “oh yeah. And it’s zero degrees outside”.

I’m like…”seriously? Why would anyone go out for four days. In Zero degree weather. Just to shoot a sweet little deer, cut it into pieces and drag it’s bloody carcass back out?”

You lost me at zero degree weather.

“It gets better”, she says, “she’s not just with the boy, she’s with the in-laws, too!”

Sweet Lord.

Catherine says, “I know, it’s like the movies The  Family Stone mashed up with Deliverance…”.

LOL…I died.

I grew up with my dad hunting and living on deer and elk meat so I know both lifestyles. Done responsibly and safely I don’t think anything is wrong with hunting. I just don’t wanna.

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So I’m ON the phone with Catherine and I put the key in the door to the church and as I walk in the door I hear an ominous beeping. 

Now you should know that I’ve asked them a million times (really about 10) about the alarm and each time I’ve been reassured I “don’t have to worry about that” as someone turns it off each morning at a specific time and back on each night at a specific time so I’m golden as my times are within those hours. I was given the code, to be clear, but I put it in the middle of 47 pages of notes of things they gave me that week of emergent information so…you can imagine as I walk in the door and the ominous beeping starts and I realize the alarm is going to go off ANY SECOND NOW I’m thinking…

holy freaking crap. 

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Also…

Well this isn’t good. 

So I rapidly hung up on my sister and scrambled to get the keys out to the inner office because yes, the alarms were now SCREAMING and I’m not kidding and the alarm pad is inside the office door which requires another key. I worked at a bank and these alarms were the loudest things I’ve ever heard.

I couldn’t think. I have five keys and they are all identical. I’m trying them all to figure out which is which and I can’t get the door open. When they aren’t screaming I can usually think but the noise is totally scrambling my brain.

By the time I got the door open the alarm company was calling so I rushed to answer it but the answering machine was still on so I was trying to answer it through the answering machine and I had to battle THAT.

They could tell that was happening so they called me again and verified I wasn’t being murdered somehow through the noise because I had to yell into the phone to be heard.

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I knew the fastest way to get the code would be a quick call so I called the Deacon.
She didn’t answer.
I called the priest.
He answered and didn’t remember it. He suggested our jr warden
He answered and said, “I think it’s this….
Oh.my.GOSH
Now…time is passing and the alarm has been SCREAMING this entire time.

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I reached over and hit the buttons and it goes off. Later I look at the emails (we get emails that verify it’s been turned off and what times)  and it had been going off for ten minutes. TEN MINUTES!

No wonder my head hurt

In case anyone is wondering…

I will never forget the code. Never.

thinkin’ of having it tattooed on my arm. #justincases

I’m thinking hazard pay at this point. #feelingstressed

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Today has a high of 55* and that’s a gorgeous day! I’m going to try and skip out of work early (i.e. ontime) so I can get a few errands done and get my run done in the afternoon so I’m not running on the treadmill.

#myworkoutis

3.5 miles with hills

20 pushups
40 squats
2 minute planks
balance ball ab work

It’s damn cold in the morning at 29*

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the only time I actually like the cold. Mostly. 😉

Run on…

The day the walls came tumbling down

My big plan was to work out right after work today. I slept pretty terrible last night and instead wandered the halls like a ghost searching aimlessly for the other side.

I toyed with going first thing this morning and the air suited my mood. It was cloudy and frosty and the perfect kind of morning but I figured my unrest would contribute to a rough run. So I would wait until after work. The weather was supposed to continue and it would be good.

Then this happened.

I was underneath that.

I am totally fine. I was able to back out pretty quick as it was falling so my leg is bruised and after the adrenaline that had me shaking for about twenty minutes passed I realized I think it hit my head and my back hurts. As the day progressed my back hurt a little more but none of it was ~whoa you should SO go be checked out~. It was more…this is going to be a little achy later.

I’m definitely watching it and if it gets worse I’ll go in (That was for my mom).

They were VERY nice at work. Beyond nice. Asked me 427 times if I was okay. Insisted I get checked out. Checked on me multiple times a day. Really great.

The cabinet was ridiculously overfilled and apparently it wasn’t anchored into the wall.

PSA for the day. Use anchors.

Also, I got a papercut.

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Roll your eyes if you must but that sucker HURT.

They pulled out the whole office hutch contraption and replaced it with a floor file cabinet (gotta love churches. Someone is always donating furniture. We have rooms full of options downstairs. Anyone need a piano? We have three extra…). I got to organize the whole top drawer of that! It was pretty divine.

It took me two hours to clean up the mess and most of it I wasn’t cleaning, I was shoving stuff in a different drawer or a box until today. Some of it I did manage to organize and that was the best hour of my day.

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Since I was thisclose to running this morning I’m hoping to get it done tomorrow morning. Sean said, “in the snow?”

He’s just a little ray of sunshine now isn’t he? Way to rain on my parade.
Kinda literally.

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This past weekend Sean did a Goruck event.  This was twelve hard hours overnight (it started at 9pm!) and  15 intense miles that include hiking in the dark with headlamps. Only he lost his headlamp so he used the light of the moon and stood between other people and their headlamps. He did an amazing job and I’m ridiculously proud of him. He was keeping me posted through the night with an occasional text to let me know he was okay and I will admit I was so grateful for each one. This is a crazy event. He came home that night  exhausted and spent. The next morning he got up and went back to spend the day bike riding. The guy is a machine.

GORUCK Tough
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So we’ll just take yesterday’s #myworkoutis and we’ll swap it over to today.

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Run on…

What’s your secret

How much do we LOVE this??

Shalane Flanagan Wins the New York City Marathon

Yeah…best moment. Between her and Meb I just want to go run right this moment.  And they’re such good people they deserve every great thing life brings them.

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On Facebook I’m connected to a writer friend of mine.  He posed a question on his page…”what’s something you’ve done that you’re sure you’re the only one on my friends list that’s done it?”

Well…let me just say that reading the responses I’ve decided I’ve totally wasted my life.  You would not BELIEVE what people have done.

“Been on the cover of time magazine, dec.1969 issue for the takeover of Alcatraz nov 20, 1969. ~As a member og the group of native americans who took the island over around 3am nov. 20th, 1969.” ~ Geneva Seaboy
 I mean…come ON. That’s a beautiful part of history right there, People.

One lady babysat Jeffrey Dahmer when Dahmer was about 8 or 9 and the guy was 16. Apparently, he was nuts then, too. I won’t go into details.

Someone chatted with Jackie O while driving her on a short ride to a friend’s house. Said she was lovely and personable. (Swoon with jealousy)

There was a man that bartended at a university function and served a glass of water to the Dalai Lama.

There were crash landings, island strandings and movie star visits.  

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And of course, one guy who was probably having the same thought I was. He said, “Shot a man in Reno, just to watch him die.”

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yes…yes you are. sigh…I love Johnny Cash.

I do have a few stories (okay, maybe only one or two and they are not that exciting)…but mine I take to my grave. They are definitely not blog worthy. This takes the excitement away, I know. But rest assured…I didn’t shoot a man in Reno and I didn’t babysit any serial kill…oh wait. I did babysit for someone who murdered someone. huh. I forgot that.

Eh that was a long time ago.

And I have been to see the Dalai Lama but I didn’t serve him water, I just heard him speak and it was as amazing as you would imagine. But it was amazing for a few thousand people so…doesn’t qualify probably.  I’ll keep thinking.  Pretty sure my kids could answer this question in a HOT SECOND.

Someone mentioned the post has over 350 comments so far. It is ridiculously interesting but really it’s the concept. Who knew people had these secrets in their past?
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Michelle and I climbed Mt Falcon Castle Trail on Saturday. And it hurt. Not during the climbing but afterwards…yikes. Seriously everything hurt.

The last time we went hiking we went much further and I didn’t hurt at all but today was a milder hike and man, my whole body aches. Probably something I ate affecting me. My guess? Kettle Jalapeno chips. I know you guys think I’m nuts but I don’t feel good after I eat them. I bought them Friday, first time in months. I think I’m over them. Weird right? Don’t get too upset, I’m still all in for jalapenos. Just these chips are a no go.

According to All Trails, the Mt Falcon Castle Trail is 7.9 miles. I’m not sure how they came to that conclusion. We climbed from the East parking lot up to the castle. At the castle we still had plenty of energy and we felt like we wanted more so we headed towards the West parking lot about a quarter of a mile thinking we’d get a great view  and we were not wrong. We did get a great view…. but we also got like 20mph winds. It was insane. Still pretty though.

We flipped around after that and headed back. The entire time we were hiking we were rewarded with deer sightings. They were everywhere just hangin’ out and having breakfast. Very relaxed. We went ridiculously early so there was virtually no one on the trail but us. Nice and quiet.

It was a beautiful way to spend the morning. Michelle and I don’t get much time together so when she messages with a “wanna hike?” I always say ~hell yes~ because it’s one of the joyous things in the world and she agrees. Just to be outside.

It was really bright outside and we were wearing really really bright clothes. The deer were not afraid at any point because we were easily spotted ten miles away.
In the end we hiked 6.5 miles according to all of the technology we were wearing so I again am not sure how they came up with 7.9 but whatever. 6.5 miles was plenty. I hurt like I had run 18 miles in the middle of a snowstorm. That was Saturday and on Sunday I still felt it.
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Monday:

#myworkoutis
3 easy miles|
40 push ups
40 squats
2 minute plank

Let’s hope I find the perfect temperature window to get that workout done in.

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It's only cold if you're standing still. Check out my post - Five Cold Weather Running Tips.

Run on…

I am an imperfect person

Do you watch Grey’s Anatomy? I remember one of the nurses on that show saying, “I am an imperfect person”.

These last two weeks at work I have demonstrated that many times over. I hope they still let me come back because I really like this job. I’ve been told over and over again “that was my favorite job” by people that held this position or similar in the past and in my short time here I can see why already.

My first staff meeting started with a minute of quiet time and then a prayer. It was glorious. What staff meeting do you know starts with that? The office work is just office work, though I’m much better with Excel than Microsoft Publisher (getting better now, thankyouverymuch), and I can count money better than I can create well…pretty much anything in Publisher but hey like I say, figuring it out.
I organize in my sleep and working on that kind of stuff makes me quite happy.  I’m supposed to work 20 hours a week. I find myself putting in 40 hours pretty easily.  Staff come and go throughout the  day and people wander in looking for food, clothes,  and money for medicine.  For prayers when they’re sick in the hospital and phone calls looking for support groups. Sometimes they ask for a priest and sometimes they just talk to me. One person called for a priest but called back four times and said talking to me was really helpful.  Being in the hospital alone must be the loneliest time and talking seemed to help. It doesn’t bother me at all and I was able to work while talking. In the afternoon most people leave for the day and I get the building to myself to work in the quiet and the dark and it’s so peaceful and lovely I can’t tell you how perfect it is.
This is not a bad problem to have when you get to help people in need. Seriously. This is a really lovely job. And sometime soon I’ll figure out all the little nuances and I’ll be much better at it. Now if only I could learn Spanish. #lifegoals #helpmerosettastone 

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I’m doing much better today after yesterday’s Botox. I did have some residuals today. I have some bruising on my forehead and the back of my head I can feel. I tend to get that every time but it can flare a migraine up. I just took some Excedrin and then later a Cambia and I feel much better.

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I’ve opened five packages of Trick or Treat Dots and they’re all green and yellow. What the hell..Dots?  Five packages and they all have ONE red Dot in them. That is totally wrong. I don’t want the green or yellow or orange. I don’t want them Sam I am.

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I think between the stress of the last two weeks and the migraine of the last week I’ve lost 10 pounds but because I’m me I’m pretty sure…

I’ve gained five.

I’m not going to weigh myself to find out.
Who does THAT?

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My imagination will do juust fine thankyou.

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Sean is gone for the majority of the weekend so I get to do whatever I want and that includes not eating if I don’t want to. Or scrambled eggs if I want to. Or whatever.

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Tonight I really want to put on my sweats and eat ice cream. BUT…I’m going to walk my dog and go for a run. Because I haven’t run in forever. I miss it.

I was thinking about it during the great migraine and I thought how much I don’t care about intervals and hill training and so on and if I could just go for a quick run to satisfy my running cravings I’d be so happy.

I’m a simple girl. I’d take a little run around the park if that’s all I could do. Or two or three. I could do two or three runs around the park. The route we take is two miles around the park. That’s the perfect run if you do it two or three times! Just enough to satisfy!
It’s a quickie!

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I was telling my mom that the person who knows all the goings on at the church and how to do everything is leaving. That’s not stressful at all. I won’t have the slightest idea what I’m doing. She had mentioned Advent and I got this blank look on my face.

My mom said, “you know what Advent is. It’s the beginning of the church year calendar. I learned that in confirmation class”.

Huh. Well I took a super accelerated confirmation class because they wanted us to be confirmed by the bishop and he was coming soon so it was ~learn it all fast~. Since I’m ADHD anyway it was more along the lines of… This is confirmation class and here is where you’ll learn the…
huh…I love the library in the church. It’s so relaxing in here and the fireplace and look at all the books. I’d LOVE to get at all those books. I wonder if we can check those out? ~mind wanders to the 14 things I have to do for the kids that day and the next aaand…we’re out for the next session~
92% sure my lamaze was the same way. I went through it with my poor mom who  probably really wanted to concentrate and have a solid bonding experience with me and instead she got crazy brain me. We did okay but it was not my favorite. I try to excuse myself because I was legitimately the only 20 year old in the lamaze class. It was embarrassing. I took lamaze when I was pregnant with Shaughnessy.
Isn’t Shaughnessy just FABULOUS? I love her. She’s so smart and …smart…and beautiful, too and whatever I love her.

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It’s weird the things I have retained versus the things I haven’t. I have a freakish memory for the churches schedule, even the parts I’m not involved in but the Episcopal church as a whole…I draw a blank. Maybe I’ll study up this weekend. Ha.

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I thought I’d register for the one race for sure, the Revel half in Evergreen, but Miss Andrea has bad knees and says no way. So she wants to do something else. She’s also VERY SLOW about choosing her races.

I have no patience. I’m like every other runner out there and will choose in the middle of the night when I see someone else ran one, then I google then I get excited and I register.  It’s a problem.

We as runners have an affliction.

I’m going to be honest and say I’ve been a little scared. Not a lot because running has never scared me before so I’d say I’m a…4…maybe a 5. I haven’t run a race in so long (thank you stupid illness/surgery that took over my life) that I’m nervous and it’s holding me back. I’ve run up to five miles and then I get stuck and that’s as far as I’ve gone.  I’ve been hiking more than running and I have to push through it but still, it’s all in my head. I can  feel that because my runs all feel great. I feel really strong. It was just such a hard year last year and into this year I needed to mentally heal as much as physically and learn to trust that I can actually do it.

So out the door I go again. I’ve never been a fan of 5k’s but I might think about 10k’s.

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Michelle likes 5k’s and doesn’t like longer runs. How did we become friends?

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Run on…

too many grocery stores.

The beginning of the week at work is crunch time. So I stayed late to try and get stuff done but my head is at maximum pain level right now (Botox on Wednesday) so I left and went to get groceries.
The refrigerator is glowing with it’s emptiness.

So I stopped at the commissary, the military grocery store we have access to due to Sean’s 20 year service in the Air Force.
I love our military benefits and am immensely grateful for them. Sean was 10 years active duty and 10 years reserve duty so we only have partial benefits but they are still a lot of benefits and we use them.  The commissary, though, is not my favorite.  I always end up leaving with a long list I couldn’t get because they’re out. It’s beyond frustrating because who has time to run to different stores? This is the time that people are ordering and having groceries delivered and I’m running to multiple stores. It’s quite ridiculous. They carry 10 different kinds of beans but they’re out of 8 kinds. they carry 4 different kinds of frozen potatoes we can eat but they’re out of 3 versions.  By the time I leave all the options I’ve come up with for dinner are out and my head is done. I buy Sean a pizza and decide to go to the other store tomorrow.

Every time I feel guilty for not utilizing enough of my military benefits that are so good for us I’m going to remember this because what it saves me in money it loses me in time.

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My request for video help yesterday came through in droves and now I have people lining up to help me!

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Yeah…that didn’t happen.

It was a longshot. So hopefully today or tomorrow I can start the studying and figure out if I have any idea what I’m doing. My favorite child (MT, remember? He reminds me every time he talks to me that he’s my favorite) has mentioned he might know someone and if he really does he might actually be my favorite.
It’s a revolving door.
I told theboy that his mom was my favorite and he burst into tears. He’s used to being the favorite. Gonna be a sad day when anyone else has a baby. I’ve definitely set myself up there, haven’t I?

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I’m thinking I’m going to do the Revel Half marathon in Evergreen Colorado. It’s June 2nd. Andrea was looking for a race then and I steered her to this one and it’s one we’ve been looking at for a long time. Shaughnessy ran it a few years ago and loved it. I missed running races so much that I’d like to say I’m aiming for that. I always struggle with goal races out loud because I get injured, I have a family emergency, I have to have surgery, really there’s a number of things that happen but I figure what the hell. I can at least think about it and in my head keep it there. It’s popular so I’m going to keep a close eye on it. Kat and Kristen want to do a race, too so we are looking at one we can destination to so I may do that. Too many options. We were looking at one in California but I don’t know if we still are…I’ll be honest…that one looks amazing but it requires camping. hahahhaha. I’m going to have to think about that one. CAMPING.
Before a race. Hmm
Thoughts? Has anyone else done this before?
It might not be so bad. I’d have to travel with my camping gear.  That sounds like a good time.

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The commissary has very limited specialty ice cream. I noticed they had my soy ice cream but only chocolate flavors. So I grabbed this:

This is a big fat nope. 
Just…no.
Anyone ever had ice milk?
That’s what it tasted like. Flavored ice milk. I took two bites and it was …hard to take the second bite. So bad. And if anyone is asking, I didn’t buy it for the big fat “35 calories” on the front. They just don’t offer a whole lot there that’s gluten free, especially in a small container. So I tried it. And salted caramel is a decent flavor. But…again…
nope. I do not recommend this.
But I really REALLY wanted ice cream tonight. When my head is this bad I really want comfort food. Easy comfort food so I tried.
I ended up having scrambled eggs and sausage.
Breakfast food is pretty good!
Not as easy as opening a container but still pretty good.
Not as pretty as those fancy blogs that post their food all the time and they look like …well whatever. They look delicious and fabulous.
But damn I love scrambled eggs.
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#myworkoutwas
Dude. I went to bed. My head was bad.
I may just stick with yoga again today just to relax and breathe in preparation for Wednesday. It’s really hard to get Botox with a migraine already.

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Run on…

Did I or didn’t I?

I did.
I found the birth certificate. I know you guys were pretty tense waiting for that answer.

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In case everyone is thinking, “but you’re so organized? and…you’re an organizer!” I just have to say this…
Even someone really organized isn’t perfect and we lose things. And we make mistakes and here’s where I went wrong. 
I gather paperwork together that needs to be filed and I take it up all at once about once a week. The two certificates (Alex has two separate forms…) must have been at the bottom and I just missed that they were there. I always keep those forms in the safe but since I didn’t see them I just automatically put the papers in the “to be filed” file. This is something I go through every few months and properly sort but at least here it’s in the filing cabinet. Well when I put them in that file, apparently those two forms slid into the file next to the “to be filed” file, my mortgage file. I don’t know about you guys but I get my mortgage statements electronically. So the mortgage statements in that file  are several years old (probably six or seven) and in the short line to be shredded) and looking in there would probably not have happened anytime soon.
And thus the problem.
I didn’t even care that it was a mistake or even that it was my mistake. I was so grateful I found it I just walked upstairs and showed Sean. No singing or dancing,  just relief. And then I made eyeballs for the Halloween party.

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Eyeballs which I totally forgot to take photos of and they were cute. But cuter still were the billions of kids (total exaggeration but probably 20 easily) that showed up in costume to Shaughnessy and Adam’s Halloween party. SO CUTE. There were probably 8 ninjas (popular costume this year), several little princesses, one especially cute cowgirl, a grown dinosaur (he was hilarious), a cupcake eating Mario and his brother the Ghostbuster…it was all so fun. I could look at kids in costumes all day long. They were all adorable.
Shaughnessy and Adam hired a magician who was  funny as hell and I only watched her for about ten minutes. She performed for 45! She was great and totally worth it. They had such a big group of people (kids and grown ups) they ended up having the magician outside and it was also about 45* and evening so my body said “hell no”. Too damn cold. I joke but I am always colder when it’s cold and hotter when it’s hot. So I stayed inside but my feet were so cold I couldn’t warm them up. My feet continued to hurt all through the evening and into today. More evidence I am not normal.
Eh…I have other qualities.

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My mom always said to use what you’ve got.

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Shaughnessy was a flapper (and beautiful of course) and Adam was Dracula because he is always Dracula. It’s his signature costume and it’s awesome.   Sean and I were Little Red Riding Hood and Sean dressed up as The Wolf! He was awesome. His costume was so great. I’ll try and get someone to send me a photo.
I was the same thing last year and I wanted to be something different this year but I ran out of time. I love the idea of Little Red Riding Hood but then when I’m there I just feel like I’m someone wearing a red cape and carrying a basket. Sean said that about his hat last year so maybe it’s just us! haha.
We need help wrapping our heads around what we want to be.  Next year, think ahead (anyone holding their breath for that?)

 

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We’ll see.
I was really hoping for photos but I’ll see if I can get some for tomorrow because dang they looked good. SO good.
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I’m working on a BIG project for my job at the church (did I mention I got a job at my church?) as the office administrator. I need to know how to edit video. Anyone have any good tips? Easy software they love…free or cheap? So far the project  has gone GREAT and also…had some glitches that aren’t terrible but we can work with them. I’ll show you the first one when I finish so you can see what it is but then you’ll probably go..yeah, this is boring. But hey…at least you’ll  know what it is.

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#myworkoutwas

I did LOTS of yoga both days. I spent the weekend stretching it OUT. I feel so much better I can’t even tell you. I should have run but really just wanted to do yoga because I’ve felt pretty terrible so I honored that and worked on it.

Today I feel kind of the same but it’s a lovely 33* for a high so I might run. It’s really strange not having anything to train for or anything to do. I might have to change that just so I have #goals.  I don’t usually need them to work hard on my running but what the hell, maybe I’m just unfocused right now since I have so much other stuff going on.

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I’m working on it.

Run on…

I am at a loss but I’ll keep going.

I’m off today and I slept. As long as I could. This morning the temperature is 27*. That’s just wrong. It was 83* on Wednesday. So it’s cold. I am relaxing while I work. Did I mention the sun is shining GLORIOUSLY and it’s so beautiful it looks like it’s 70*.
It lies.

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My morning consisted of sweats, laundry, floors, dishes and some computer work and then getting my nails done because when my nails start coming apart it’s crisis mode and those suckers have to get done or they’ll peel down to nothing and become very bad.

After that I’m going to head over to Miss Shaughnessy’s house to help with party stuff. They are having their “annual Halloween Bash” which officially became annual this year.

Oh what did I do yesterday?…
tore the house apart, thankyouverymuch. I have paperwork on every surface of my house. All over the floor in the spare room. All over the couch and the floor of the family room. The living room has papers on the floor, the couches and the coffee table and my bedroom has paperwork on the desk under the television.
Alex is attempting to go on his honeymoon and his birth certificate has gone AWOL. It’s gone. Disappeared. Nowhere to be found. He insists I have it but I have zero clue where it would be. I keep those things in the fire safe and it’s not there. So….now I’m frantically tearing the house apart. He’s rather halfheartedly looking on his end because he believes I have it.
Alex was born in Germany when we were stationed there so his birth certificate replacement requires a LOT more than the average person. It requires an affidavit and a notary and sending money to Washington DC and then waiting patiently (hello, they’ve already paid money, they have tickets) It’s a pain and takes time. Did I mention he needs a new passport? Here’s his old passport…it expired, oh..I don’t know…a few years ago….




Just a little overdue for a new one.
But the emergency here is the birth certificate.  Feel free to pray on this for me. We could use all the help we can get.
Right now I’m attempting my ~think about something else. clean the house. Focus on work. Plan other things. ~ And it’ll come to you.

It’s very hard to do that. Also, going through all this stuff is really hard and I’m cleaning again. I know. AGAIN.

All I can think about is if I die tomorrow my poor kids have to deal with all of this.

I just don’t want to leave it for them. If I leave them four bookshelves of books they can haul it off to Goodwill or portion it out to friends but boxes of emotional paperwork? pfft…that’s just no good.

It’s really important that we think about this stuff before our stuff takes over our entire house  and we just keep right on moving forward oblivious to the impact our lives will have on other people.

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So I’m searching, cleaning and also become completely overwhelmed and slightly unglued.

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I’m going to try and get a run in later but I’m going to do a mini strength this morning.

Some squats, push ups and planks.
I miss working out!

I have to go, super late.

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Run on…