Revel it is…

We decided…about five minutes after posting my last blog post….to run the Revel Half Marathon.

Full disclosure we have totally been known to ditch a race or change our minds based on the weather, our training, wild ass plans to head out of town, etc. Neither of us has registered yet but we both have the weekend off and I have wanted to run the race for a few years.  She’s talking herself into it.

We’re mixing up our training with hiking so yeah…it’s totally under control.

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This morning I had 47 things to do and 12 minutes to do them and I’m making time for me. So I dressed to run and headed towards the door only to be met with…

Um…no..Dude. This MY run. We’re going to go LATER. Right now I have to run by myself. I only have a half an hour. Just enough for a quickie. I don’t have time…

he was persistent. Did i ever tell you I’m a sucker for those pretty little puppy eyes?




I WOULD leave him but then when I’m running I think…what if I don’t take him and something happens. He’s twelve years old. This may have been his last day to run  and I blew him off! Worst puppy mom EVER.

I get it. I may have slightly been conned by the cuteness but …

Malachi and I had a nice run this morning.

I had a very short time to do it so we cut it short and just ran about a mile. He not happy about the shortcut so he walked the second half in protest resulting in a 40 minute- half hour walk. Damn puppy.

It’s supposed to be pretty gorgeous so I’m going to run when I get off work.

Here’s a dilemma. You have two choices…
1. you have so much work you  work a little overtime every day for four days so you can have your day off Friday

2. You leave work on time every day and come in on your off Friday…

What would YOU do?

I chose option B…I’m still trying to decide if it was the better option but I”m so tired of working late I just wanted to go home.

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we’ll see how it goes tomorrow…dentist day, running day, work day. Gonna be a long day.



Monday I ran 3.5 miles and walked the dog. It was cold.
twenty pushups
twenty squats

Tuesday I just ran 2.5 miles because I was pretty sure I had the flu.
twenty pushups

Wednesday I didn’t have any time so I was a slacker. Does it count that I’m certain I got in 10,000 steps running all over the church and up and down the stairs? Yeah, I didn’t think so.

Today I started the day with the puppy. We’ll see about the rest of the day but I’m pretty set on running after work…#savemyself

Motivation Comes And Goes You need to learn to build habits.

Run on…

Sweet List!

1.   It’s February. and do you know what that means? That’s right. ❣
Valentine’s Day!! The perfect way to begin the month is with a Sweet List.

2.       Snow. We love it. Please send just a little more, please God, thanks! Yeah, I said that and then my dog and cat would not come back in. so right now my door is cracked open and my heat is on. You’re welcome, fellow Coloradon’s, I’m helping to heat the state. #ashamed #mycatwillstraightupfreeze #truestorymydogmighttoo #heskindofold 

3.       Watching ER after so many years, no surprise- it holds up.

4.       Walking Barr Lake with Michelle

5.       Thrift store shopping. I love it. I found the greatest pair of shoes (Franco Sarto for $6) and a beautiful handbag (Minchi ::swoon:: for $6) Best deal ever.

6. The Superb Owl- This story is hilarious because it is me. I type too fast. I would totally google the Superb Owl. And then be delighted with the results.
Also reddit can be counted on to have an awesome say on the matter.

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7. Firecracker Chicken. It is really as good as everyone says it is. MT ate it. MT loved it. It was amazing. I thank my friend Vanessa for this amazing dish that is gluten and soy free and is spicy but not too hot.

8.  pretzel yogurt crisps– these suckers are incredible. tiny and crispy and not too sweet. I LOVED them. So good.

9. When things work. #havefaith 

10. I’m getting my hair done today.  The last time totally made me cry because I have stupid Celiac hair which is thin and mouse brown and boring and I can’t do anything with it but I’m going to be happy about it this time. That’s me trying to cheerleader my way through this. Can’t you tell???

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I’m off on a run and also to run the dog because it’s not 12*.

Have a beautiful day!

Stay tuned..we’ve figured out what we’re going to do …now we have to make a plan. This was much harder than it’s ever been. I have theories about that but for now…

Makin’ a plan….

Always make time to run. Get outside, feel alive.

Run on…

Barr Lake hiking (okay not really hiking more like a really really long walk)

Saturday morning I met Michelle at her house so we could venture on out to Barr Lake for our “hike without a hike”. Saturday’s hike was just walking the entire way around Barr lake, which is 9 miles.

We met at 8am and drove over there in one car because it’s a state park so there’s an entry fee. After years of not having cash, I make carrying it a priority. Only Saturday I found myself cashless and I felt like that person that always “forgets their wallet” when they go out to lunch. I can’t believe she puts up with me.

It was cold. Like seriously, People…it was cold. I don’t remember the temp but I think the high was like 50* or thereabouts so you can imagine at 8am it was probably like 28*? I was totally invested in running because I would warm up faster but Michelle was anti running. I think she knew we had nine miles to go and we needed to conserve out energy. She probably wasn’t really dressed for it, now that I think about it.  My legs get weary of walking and I need to try different muscles occasionally. Also..cold.

Michelle had two reasons to want to do the hike. She’s always wanted to walk the entire length of it but with two little boys it’s a bit too far. It’s kind of nice to check that box and say you did it. The second reason is the eagles.
Per the Colorado Parks & Wildlife website:

In 1977, this area was recognized as a valuable wildlife habitat and Barr Lake became a state park. Half of the lake was set aside as a wildlife refuge.
A pair of Bald Eagles has been observed in the refuge every year since 1986. Since that time, they have survived storms, the loss of a nesting tree, and even the disappearance of the male. After 3 years of failed attempts to raise young, the Bald Eagle pair was finally successful in 1989. As of 2005, the Barr Lake
eagle have produced 32 young. Twenty-nine of these survived to fledge. 

An eagle nest may be added to and reused for as long as 20 years, or a pair may use another nest site. With continued protection of their habitat, we can look forward to the presence of these birds and their young for many years to

The best viewing of the eagles’ nest is from the Gazebo, only a 1.3-mile walk south of the Nature Center into the wildlife refuge. The nest is approximately a quarter mile from the Gazebo and is easily seen with binoculars. The
Nature Center loans binoculars and features a display about eagles. The Nature Center is open Wednesday-Sunday. Call 303-659-6005 for specific

A few tips for eagle viewing:
• Bring binoculars or a spotting
scope for viewing the nest.
• Viewing is usually best during the
morning or evening hours, especially
on warm days when heat
waves can interfere with your
ability to see.
• The eagles are sensitive to
human activity. Please stay on
designated trails in the wildlife
refuge. Pets are not permitted

Unfortunately, we did not see eagles. The boardwalks, though, were gorgeous. I am a lover of boardwalks and will walk any and all I come across. That includes bridges, too. I love the whole experience of it.

At one point the trail goes right next to train tracks. Like…thisclose…
I love trains and had no problem with that. It was cool. I also promised Michelle I would not hop the train like I have always wanted to do and it’s on my bucket list of -things that are completely unreasonable but wouldn’t it be cool if you weren’t going to like…die or go to jail or something?-

The website shows you the amazing boardwalks and the gazebo.

We had a great time and my quads are like…whaat??

It felt amazing.

Sunday I had a pretty important meeting at work so I dealt with that and came home to sleep. I haven’t been sleeping well (I know, right? Worse than usual) and I think it’s a new Celiac thing. So I ended up spending about an hour last night doing yoga. I felt the stretch and strength was in order after the walk.

I’m getting out of work a little early today so I am hoping a short run this afternoon is in order. I’m aiming for 3-4 miles…I could really use it.


I straight up laughed out loud at this because that is my life. People be fast…I am slow.

Hilarious running memes for people who love and hate running!  #imslow

Run on…

extreme decorating.

I had a terrible computer unfriendly day and in  absolute frustration I broke down in tears, closed my computer with force (just a little force) and walked it off.

Except it’s like 20* outside and I was still in my work clothes so I walked it off by pacing back and forth from my kitchen to my living room in my heels. I really didn’t get that much exercise today since I have a ton of work to do so this was it and somehow I got 5000 steps in. Sean closed his office door and put his headphones in. It was either steps in the living room or throw the computer against the wall. I was pretty done with it.

It occurred to me I should write a blog (I know you guys are thinking…wait….you already write a blog. And it’s pretty iffy. Don’t quit your day job). Welll but THIS one would be  like…Hey. “I’m middle age- I use a computer and in my next life I want to be Sheryl Sandberg. Is the num lock on?”

I would rock this blog.

Someone was just asking on a Facebook for-sale post today if anyone had an old T-Mobile phone, flip or otherwise because they really just need a phone. I thought…oh yeah! I have my little red bar phone that I love so much! I should purge and get rid of it. I don’t need it. I should give it to someone who could really….

but wait… what if they bring those back and man I really love it. It’s a great little phone. I think mayyybe I’ll  keep it a little while longer. That’s coming from me…the organizing nut.

And there you have a perfect example of me and computers. I’m pretty forward thinking…totally willing to embrace technology but I love my old computer, too. It works just how I like it, it knows all my tricks and habits…

And does it come in red?

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That would be good, too…

I just sneezed eight times. EIGHT TIMES> What the hell, People?

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I’m pretty battered from my fall and I’m not up to doing anything. I’m not even up to yoga. I am hoping tomorrow the pain will finally be less. My bruises are many. They are very light in color  but swollen and painful. None of them seems worse than the other except the one on my hip which hurts if I stand up. or if I sit down. or if I switch positions. or maybe if I bend over to pick something up…or if I stretch to reach for something. sometimes I put my jacket on…

you get the drift. Everything hurts.

It works out well because I have five projects due and three days to do them so I don’t really have time anyway.

I really am hoping for time tomorrow. It’s been kind of nice out and tomorrow has a high of 58*! If I can sneak out of work early (i.e. the time I’m supposed to leave) I could totally get a good run in. That is the goal, People. That is the goal.

Start in the morning with a good yoga session and run the pup in the afternoon and then myself. This CAN be done. I have faith. Let’s hope my hip holds out.

I sound old.

I am not. I just fell off a stool and hit fourteen things on the way down.

Extreme decorating.

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I’m off to bed. Lots going on here…anyone else?

Hey Michelle…are we running a race or what?

You don't miss it until your body wont let you do it... run while you can!

Run on…

Guess what today is?

It’s my blog anniversary. Yep. I’ve been writing this blog for five years.

Five years. Some of those years have had a LOT of posts and some haven’t had quite as much…::cough cough thelastthreemonths::

But I’m still here and I’m just as interesting as I’ve always been!

I’m very sorry.

I love to write. I’m not particularly gifted at it but  I find  my fingers are constantly looking to be typing something. Inspiration comes at me the most when when I’m running and when I’m sitting in church which is totally okay. I checked with God and he cleared it. My priest rolls his eyes and everyone in the back row with me nods in appreciation.

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Writing. Sometimes it’s profound, sometimes it’s about those really cute shoes you saw and how you want to justify buying them or maybe…oh hell just buy them. Life is short. Also, eat cake. Sometimes insight  is given and sometimes you just shake your head and close the post because nothing on the page was interesting. We’ve all been there as readers and as writers. Writing is so personal. Whatever words you choose to use, they’re yours and I know that mine are mine. When I go back and read past posts I smile, I laugh, I cringe, I cry. It’s my history of the last five years.

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In the last five years my son finished his deployment and his duty in the Marines and came home. My other son joined the Marines and left. I lost Holly, the friend I made through tragedy. Her son joined the Marines with mine and hers didn’t come back. My grief for her loss was so heavy I contacted her and we began a close friendship of messages. Two years later I lost her from cancer which most certainly took over her body due to the weakened state of profound grief.
I watched my daughter and her husband become even more amazing, though I always knew this was possible.  She’s just that great.  My daughter worked in the governor’s office (I loved to tell people that) and then she went bigger and better and I asked if I could still say she worked in the governor’s office. She said no.

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Theboy is no longer a little toddler, he’s SEVEN.  I know, how crazy is that? He’s practically driving and has mastered the art of the sass and the eye roll. My first Marine son is married and going to college.  My last kid is thisclose to turning 21.
When I started this blog I ran 13 half marathons in 2013. I’ve been diagnosed with Celiac which answered many years of questions and I’ve had surgery. I’ve had a job I loved and I quit a job I loved. I started my own business and I closed my own business. I have another job I love and now…I am finally ready to run another race.

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Running has and always will be my favorite thing. I don’t have option B. I just want to be running. When I’m out of shape I just trudge through it looking for the brilliant light that says you’re there…you’re finally in the sweet spot. There are times it comes along slower than others but it always shows up like the most faithful of friends and it is just for me.
My mom always says in her next life she’ll be…-insert whatever she’s thinking of at the moment~. It usually has to do with being taller and skinnier.  I joke about that often, in my next life I’m going to be brilliant, a rocket scientist. A size 2 rocket scientist. Hey, it’s my fantasy.  I’m always grateful God gave me running. No matter how fast or slow I’m moving… in my next life I am for sure…a runner

A rocket scientist size 2 runner.

consider this. • f. scott fitzgerald

Run on…


I suppose we needed the moisture. Isn’t that what they say?

I bought new jeans and I was so excited by how comfortable they are I immediately headed out for a second pair. They’re a lovely straight leg, size eight, but the problem is they have enough stretch that a second person can share the jeans with me after about 15 minutes.  I’m not kidding when I say holy wow there’s a lot of stretch in these jeans. A ridiculous amount.  My logical self said, “self…buy the size 6’s.”. I looked it up and it looks like they have 3% Elastane. What is Elastane? Whatever it is it’s very stretchy.  So I logically bought the size 6’s but don’t worry. My brain wasn’t in any way allowing myself to actually THINK I wear a size 6. Pretty dead on a size 10 still. Stupid sizing.

Well. The size 6’s? yeah…they … kind of fit  but… not. They fit  but did not then stretch out to be magic size 8’s. They just fit. So they kind of feel tight. Uncomfortably tight. I wore them an entire day…still tight.

In case you’re wondering, yep. Same style. Just in the 6’s. So frustrating. The 8’s?…SO BIG.

I give up. Mom jeans it is.

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Sometimes I write small notes to keep track of  interesting little facts (i.e. things that happen to me that aren’t actually interesting but I don’t have a life so you get to hear about them anyway) that I might want to tell you about later. I found this written down on a slip of paper…”I had to use scissors to open my juice”. I have no idea what this means. I don’t drink juice. Why would I use scissors to open the mythological juice that I don’t drink? Is this a Celiac thing? I really have no idea at all. But it was apparently worth noting…

It’s been two days. I still have no clue. The puzzle hater in me hopes I figure it out soon.

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I’ve started every morning with yoga for a half an hour and this is especially good for my head and shoulder. Not dandruff, just headaches and shoulder aches. I sleep stupid. But oh the yoga stretches feel SO GOOD.

I need to expand my yogaing. There’s a term for that but I’m not looking it up. I have a pretty basic routine that keeps me very busy for 30 minutes but I’d like to add some different moves without actually getting into crow post. I don’t really have any interest in crow post.  I will straight up hurt myself doing that. Can’t you see me totally tipping forward? Me, too. Thanksthough…

You want yoga as well? :p

I ran yesterday for a quick two miles and it was divine…DIVINE. This was on the heels of my yoga so my day was pretty freaking great. I haven’t been sleeping and I’ve had some things on my mind so I really needed to get out and get running.

Today I headed right out of work while I was still light out so I could get another run in and it RAINED.

I will run in snow but rain in 40 degrees is just not even funny,

So no.

Just yoga today.

10 yoga quotes that will make your life more awesome - Happier.... *** Take a look at more by going to the picture link

Run on…

A bonus mini post. Because this is my day.

I am generally a very positive person with a twist of realist. I’m not hearts and flowers although I do really LIKE flowers I just don’t think everything is all kitten and rainbows.

I switched cliché’s on you but you get the gist.

I wanted to run this morning but I have something on my mind so I just stared at the ceiling a lot.

Eventually I got out of bed.  I have to, right, as I tell my husband (who makes far more money than I do) someone has to bring home the paycheck.

He is mildly amused by the overused joke but mostly it probably reminds him that he has to continue to go to work and could I please get a real job and actually bring home a real paycheck so he can retire?

My point from way way earlier in the post being…I will try and see the positive here but this has been a rough morning and it’s 9:30.

I’m standing in the bathroom with a towel on my head and I reach for the comb and the comb slips and falls behind the toilet.

Now I have to burn the comb.

Then the towel fell off my head onto the toilet. Not really loving the towel right now either. I guess my hair is dry enough….

Through circumstances that aren’t important even to this post, I left a half hour later than I wanted to and finally got to work. I’m still early but I wanted to be earlier. I got here and opened my bags to unload files, keys, pens and such to find I had left my iPad at home. No music today I guess. My computer doesn’t have a speaker so I put on my iPad and listen.

I know what you are all thinking…that much quiet sounds divine. But in fact it can be a little too quiet sometimes and just a little music helps.

Then I opened my other bag. Last night I asked Sean to bring me a soda and I usually drink just a little at a time so I brought it in to work.

Spilled in my purse.

I now have the cleanest money ever. My list of the day…pretty wet and irreparable. Starting again.

I cleaned it up and opened my little mini bottle of water but it was SUPERFULL and it spilled all over my jeans and I am now wearing wet jeans from thigh to knee.

wet. jeans.

9:30 People. 9:30.

I’m  a little afraid.

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Maybe I shouldn’t drive today.

I definitely shouldn’t operate large machinery….

maybe that’s just under the influence. hm.

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Run on…

but really…be careful.

is racing a dying trend?

or is it, you know…slowing down?
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And what contributes to the slow down?
I took a good look at this and came up with the following conclusions simply from my own experiences and also my Facebook feed which no longer is flooded with racing results.  In no particular order:

1. Running #alltheraces leads to over training and that leads to injuries. Better to wisely choose a few beloved races and train for those with happy results than hit as many as you can and end up injured  with a DNF.

2. The cost of races has soared and it’s smarter to pick and choose. One little 10k can be $65 (gasp), the cost of a marathon can be unbelievable.

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3. Running friends are often virtual and not IRL leading to destination races. When you factor in the cost of the travel involved, the rooms, food, etc…it becomes fairly prohibitive (money, time, training) to realistically run every race you really have your heart set on. Choose wisely, Friend.

4. There is a 5k every weekend but the half marathon appears to be the new baby. It gives you the most bang for your buck. The excitement of distance without the cost of the marathon. A happy medium. A compromise.  Perhaps narrowing the field is what’s happening?

5.  Burn out. Too much running and eventually it became just too much running. Orange Theory has never looked so great.

6. Everyone else was doing it.  Then you figured out it wasn’t your style. Maybe it’s boring (who really wants to run 18 mile training runs?) or it’s hard (it really is) or it’s just not really giving you back what you thought it would.  I personally have a hard time believing this one as I think running is the answer for everyone (sarcasm font) but there’s always the possibility someone doesn’t connect with running.

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7. Ultras have led to trail running and eventually to hiking. People reached for the stars with marathons and once they got there they said…but wait…there’s the more. The ultimate. the highest mountain. Training for an ultra took them off the streets and onto the trails and the love of trail running became a reality. Hiking was a natural fit from there and really once you’re there it’s hard to go back. I like both…I’m a city runner who loves hiking. The best of both worlds.

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8. People started running to lose weight and when that didn’t happen well…
and so it goes. 
When you get into those longer distances you really aren’t going to lose weight, you may actually gain weight. Extra calories consumed (you may not need as many as you think), building muscle from training,  storing glycogen, there are several reasons for the weight gain and it’s more common than not.  Not having all the information, it can be frustrating to not get the results you thought you would get so…you stop.

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These are all really valid reasons and this is a totally unscientific post. I didn’t poll anyone and I just did a little reading but mostly I took information from friends I know virtually and it’s all observations I’ve made over the last year. That’s really about all the validity I have for it.

I see friends running races but not as many. I see friends running trail races. I see friends running lower mileage. I have a friend doing a half ironman and another doing a 100 mile trail race. So some people just keep right on going and some are like…you know..I think I’m good.


Money going other places.


what do you think?

I’ve noticed I’m pretty tired. I’m not lacking energy but I want to sleep. I get off early today (4!) so I’m going to run. Then I’m going to sleep.

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Run on.

Run on.

Two days before Christmas!

So how is your Christmas going?

My Christmas tree lights went out. But only half of the tree so that should be fun to fix.

And a significant portion of my gifts are not showing up. My favorite is one I ordered for my husband which I’m certain will show up in a box labeled exactly what it is. But I ordered it quite a while ago and it’s been in Denver for most of this week. They sent me an email early this week saying, “it’ll be delivered by 8 o’clock tonight!”

That was like…Tuesday. Now it’s Saturday and they’re like…”delayed”. Delayed. Why? I don’t get it.

i’ve Ordered multiple things from Amazon that are just…not showing up. They were due here the 23rd or sooner and Amazon is sending me happy news that they’ll be here the the 26th! With a smiley face. Because somehow that’s happy news.
I am not getting upset because life has too much other stuff happening. Presents are presents and this is the holidays. This will just stretch the holidays out.

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My husband has given up trying to fix my iPad problems. Poor guy. I’ve worn him down. Most IT people are challenged by new and interesting computer issues but not my husband. He’s so confused by whatever the hell I throw at him he no longer cares. He’s all..yeah. I don’t know. Sorry.

Stupid iPad.

My sister Catherine (#sistercatherine) has been having thyroid problems (because why not) and in an effort to fix them herself (health insurance is not her friend) she started taking Kelp. The result is that her hair is ridiculously curly. It’s pretty curly. What the hell? Though no one in her own house noticed (she’s invisible to her family. Aren’t we all?) the rest of the world is like…”whoa! Great hair!” Thank you Kelp. However, she needs to have an accurate blood test so I made her go off of the kelp and the result is…less curly hair thus confirming our suspicion that it is in fact…the kelp. How CRAZY is that??

I pay a fortune to have hair that is…acceptable. And she takes kelp and gets great hair. #sojealous

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I went to the post office to mail a few cards to my waste disposal guys with their Christmas tips. Yes, I tip them because they work ridiculously hard and my life would be very difficult without them doing the great job they do. One of the envelopes came open and I went back to the window to ask the super nice guy for a piece of tape and he looked and me and said, “lick it!”

Um. I can’t.

He said again, “just lick it!”

Again…I can’t. I’m Celiac. There’s gluten in envelopes. I can’t.

It’s at this point he just handed me a glue stick and went back to his customers….kind of like…yeah. I don’t have time for THAT. I’m over you now.

Dude. #Celiacproblems  You think it’s hard for you? I had to ask you for tape to seal an envelope because there’s gluten in the damn thing. #mylife

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I’ve been doing yoga to get me through the week but today I went for a run after I finished yoga because I just needed to. And yes, I have 184 things to do but I just needed to get out on the streets. To be fair I waited until the temperature was over *30. Still, I was pretty excited to get out there.

My office is closed this week but I’m still working. I wonder if they’ll pay me? I’m so ready for Advent to be over. I did tell that to my priest and wondered if God would strike me down. He said when I least expect it so I think I need to look over my shoulder for awhile.  Once the madness passes I will have a  chance to actually get the rhythm of the office and then my blogging, work and my business can actually possibly be done. And most important, running. Right now I haven’t had time to sleep. It’s been crazy and I’ve missed blogging and running so very much.

3 miles of a very slow run but I loved loved loved it.
30 minutes of yoga and my legs loved that, too
2 minute plank
20 push ups (my body forgot how to do push ups)

You can change run to any training session!! Still true. All of it.
Run on…

I’m finally caught up. running again.

Not only have I not posted in days and days, I didn’t even remember I had a blog.

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I’m not sure where my brain is these days.

When my house becomes chaos my brain really just shuts down and it takes all my concentration to focus on doing the things I absolutely have to focus on,  like the job they pay me for. So I prioritize subconsciously.

The result is that deadlines are met but everything else is utter chaos. I was talking to Shaughnessy the other day about Christmas and shopping and she said, unconcerned, “it’ll come together”. And I was so envious of that laid back ability to just know that it would all come together. It helps that she has Adam to help her and I think he legitimately puts in his share with things like housework and shopping and cooking- general home and family care.

Backwards or not, I take the bulk of that at my house. We’ve been discussing that over the last few weeks because Sean and MT both live with me and there hasn’t been any space to walk in the house due to everything I’m working on.  I exaggerate slightly but not much.

There were decorations everywhere, the tree was technically up… but not decorated in the slightest. For two weeks. Just…up. The pine garland took up the bulk of the square footage that I like to call the family room and there were rubbermaids stacked on my treadmill.

Yeah. That’s how you know it’s bad.

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Upstairs I had piles of gifts to be mailed separated out into -this person- and -that person- and so on.  Mix that in with package after package arriving in the mail, some Christmas related and some not. I ordered a calendar for work (it’s still in my car, super helpful, right?) and it’s HUGE. Really tall because it’s three months worth and it’s vertical. The box it came in, though, is twice it’s size. Plus lots of wrapping you know, in case my calendar breaks.  That whole thing is an unholy mess. Boxes, stuffing, gifts piled everywhere. It’s ridiculous.

I’m doing a Giving Tree project at church and I’ve had to wrap some people’s gifts for them, which I cheerfully do. But wrapping paper, bows, tape, scissors, gift boxes. All over my desk, the table, the counter.

Christmas cards, don’t forget the Christmas cards. Had a lovely pile of those going for awhile. Finally gave up about halfway through the list. The remains of that are still stacked up along with stickers and lists and so on.

Oh, you thought surely I had to be done by now, right? Don’t forget returns because of this Giving Tree issue or that thing that didn’t work out. SO many gifts in my return pile.

I have a pretty small house, People. You can imagine the chaos. And in the midst of it I fell to tears twice (maybe three times but who’s counting) and this usually happens about midnight or one in the morning when I’m just so exhausted I can’t keep going but there is so much to do. It’s at this point my husband will say, “how can I help?” And I’ll tell him…please help me finish the x or y. I have to complete something because my brain isn’t working like this.

We go to bed, we get up, he goes to work and it all starts again because he forgot. And all I can think of is how can you forget??  But he does because he thinks different than I do and his brain doesn’t shut down when things are all over the house. I own that and I wouldn’t want to put that on him.  So I work to decide what is important and what can realistically be let go.

Like the Christmas cards, I am choosing what I’m willing to do.

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The tree is done but it’s not the best most beautiful tree you’ve ever seen in the world. It’s pretty enough and sometime this week I’ll fix the teddy bear topper because he fell off somewhere behind the tree and I would bet money his little elastic holder-onner-thing is broken.

The decorations are definitely not my best effort. Most have been put back in the bins and the bins put away until January. At this late date I just can’t justify the time. There is evergreen and lights and that’s all we need.

The Christmas card list was split with people who must have one and people I’ve sent one to in the past. The must haves got a card.

Out of the eight packages I have to mail, I put four together last night and asked Sean to mail them. He said he’d do it this morning. I’m finding alternate ideas for two of them and two packages will be late.

It’s more important to spend time with my husband, I haven’t seen him in so long, and of course,  MT. He is leaving tomorrow and won’t be here for Christmas. Perfect decorations are not important.

I went to bed at 2am again. But this time I had those pkgs done, things were cleaned up and I had found order to my house. I cannot tell you how much better I feel.

I went to work an hour and a half early today so I could meet someone and spent a long 9 hour day getting all the Christmas work done…or most of it. Four bulletins…one day. It’s a record for me. So much printing.

All of this prep was so I could take tomorrow off to go hiking with Michelle and she can’t go. But I’m going anyway because it’s a day off. It’s getting cold here (20* on Saturday, rumor has it) so I’m hiking while I can.

Yes, I have shopping to do.

Yes, I have wrapping to do.

Yes, I have work to do in my office.

But I am taking the day off.  I’ve been so busy I haven’t run in a week. I miss it, I crave it and I’m taking every advantage I have to run now that I’m ahead.

I’d like to be that person that puts myself first so I can take care of everyone else better but my OCD doesn’t know how to do that.


Let’s have an honest conversation about Botox.

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I know, you’re all thinking -we are talked to DEATH about Botox.

But no. There’s more.

When you get Botox in your forehead it controls the muscles in your eyelids. It can give you droopy eyes. This is temporary with the Botox shots, it’ll wear off as your shots wear off but if you keep getting them it can continue and get worse.

It’s not fun.

I’ve developed this little treat.

My eyes are very heavy and it feels like I have to hold them open. If you look at photos of me, my eyes are tiny little slits. It’s really attractive-bringing sexy back-.

There are two options for treating this. One is eye drops that strengthen your eye muscles encouraging your eyes to be stronger and more open. The other is no Botox shots.

Pretty encouraging news, right?

So my doctor called me back and said we would totally rethink my treatment and he would have to stop giving me the shots near my eyebrows. He sounded bummed. Well the shots in my eyebrows keep me from flirting at strangers so who knows what we’ll do now but at least he has an idea of what we’re doing. He also reassured me it would wear off.

Three months can’t pass fast enough. My eyes are tired. And I look weird.
Still worth it? Sure. Yep. Few migraines, lower pain level? Of course.

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un on…