What’s your secret

How much do we LOVE this??

Shalane Flanagan Wins the New York City Marathon

Yeah…best moment. Between her and Meb I just want to go run right this moment.  And they’re such good people they deserve every great thing life brings them.

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On Facebook I’m connected to a writer friend of mine.  He posed a question on his page…”what’s something you’ve done that you’re sure you’re the only one on my friends list that’s done it?”

Well…let me just say that reading the responses I’ve decided I’ve totally wasted my life.  You would not BELIEVE what people have done.

“Been on the cover of time magazine, dec.1969 issue for the takeover of Alcatraz nov 20, 1969. ~As a member og the group of native americans who took the island over around 3am nov. 20th, 1969.” ~ Geneva Seaboy
 I mean…come ON. That’s a beautiful part of history right there, People.

One lady babysat Jeffrey Dahmer when Dahmer was about 8 or 9 and the guy was 16. Apparently, he was nuts then, too. I won’t go into details.

Someone chatted with Jackie O while driving her on a short ride to a friend’s house. Said she was lovely and personable. (Swoon with jealousy)

There was a man that bartended at a university function and served a glass of water to the Dalai Lama.

There were crash landings, island strandings and movie star visits.  

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And of course, one guy who was probably having the same thought I was. He said, “Shot a man in Reno, just to watch him die.”

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yes…yes you are. sigh…I love Johnny Cash.

I do have a few stories (okay, maybe only one or two and they are not that exciting)…but mine I take to my grave. They are definitely not blog worthy. This takes the excitement away, I know. But rest assured…I didn’t shoot a man in Reno and I didn’t babysit any serial kill…oh wait. I did babysit for someone who murdered someone. huh. I forgot that.

Eh that was a long time ago.

And I have been to see the Dalai Lama but I didn’t serve him water, I just heard him speak and it was as amazing as you would imagine. But it was amazing for a few thousand people so…doesn’t qualify probably.  I’ll keep thinking.  Pretty sure my kids could answer this question in a HOT SECOND.

Someone mentioned the post has over 350 comments so far. It is ridiculously interesting but really it’s the concept. Who knew people had these secrets in their past?
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Michelle and I climbed Mt Falcon Castle Trail on Saturday. And it hurt. Not during the climbing but afterwards…yikes. Seriously everything hurt.

The last time we went hiking we went much further and I didn’t hurt at all but today was a milder hike and man, my whole body aches. Probably something I ate affecting me. My guess? Kettle Jalapeno chips. I know you guys think I’m nuts but I don’t feel good after I eat them. I bought them Friday, first time in months. I think I’m over them. Weird right? Don’t get too upset, I’m still all in for jalapenos. Just these chips are a no go.

According to All Trails, the Mt Falcon Castle Trail is 7.9 miles. I’m not sure how they came to that conclusion. We climbed from the East parking lot up to the castle. At the castle we still had plenty of energy and we felt like we wanted more so we headed towards the West parking lot about a quarter of a mile thinking we’d get a great view  and we were not wrong. We did get a great view…. but we also got like 20mph winds. It was insane. Still pretty though.

We flipped around after that and headed back. The entire time we were hiking we were rewarded with deer sightings. They were everywhere just hangin’ out and having breakfast. Very relaxed. We went ridiculously early so there was virtually no one on the trail but us. Nice and quiet.

It was a beautiful way to spend the morning. Michelle and I don’t get much time together so when she messages with a “wanna hike?” I always say ~hell yes~ because it’s one of the joyous things in the world and she agrees. Just to be outside.

It was really bright outside and we were wearing really really bright clothes. The deer were not afraid at any point because we were easily spotted ten miles away.
In the end we hiked 6.5 miles according to all of the technology we were wearing so I again am not sure how they came up with 7.9 but whatever. 6.5 miles was plenty. I hurt like I had run 18 miles in the middle of a snowstorm. That was Saturday and on Sunday I still felt it.
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Monday:

#myworkoutis
3 easy miles|
40 push ups
40 squats
2 minute plank

Let’s hope I find the perfect temperature window to get that workout done in.

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Run on…

Purple fingernails. Not so much.

Two weeks ago my son got married and today I have a totally great hair day and my makeup is perfect. I’m starting to lose faith in the universe. Just sayin’.

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Work yesterday was much better. I went in for a few hours and it was find but later I went back when the office was empty and I could actually think. It’s a small office and a LOT of people go through it. So in the quiet of the evening I “finished” the project I was working on. I know it’ll need some tweaking but I made great progress. And I found a box and put anything extraneous I could find in that box. Plastic filing do-hickeys that people buy because they’re “going to get organized”, three tape dispensers, 8 staplers and too many cords to count but no one knows what they’re for.  I couldn’t think straight with all that stuff. I still need to vacuum and clean the desk off. Then I’ll be better. Flowers maybe. The office needs flowers.

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Michelle and I took a long lunch yesterday and went hiking which is the best way to spend the afternoon in October in Colorado.  We got away with no snakes (no snakes!) and came in under 2 hours so we were able to stand at the car for awhile and be judgey inappropriate friends that share too much.  Yeah, we know. We’re probably going to hell. But I’m hoping I can build up enough good Karma I can win positive points back. I don’t suppose it actually works that way…
Pfft…I’ll be the one at the pearly gates and St Peter will be all “well if you were a little less JUDGEY …”
yeah yeah yeah.
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When I was a little kid there was a time I stood in a department store and declared, “haff yah eveh seen poiple UNDIES?” rather loud through out the store. I’ve always had a thing for purple. The darker the better. Preferably nearly black.
I had enough time to get to my nail appointment where my really awesome nail girl was totally happy to give me the “darkest purple she  could find” which…it turns out…

…isn’t that dark.

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sigh. Probably mine because I’m agreeable. She was so excited! She had the PERFECT color! I hated to say…yeah….
No. 

So I didn’t. I took it. And now my fingernails are “Halloween” purple which is a little brighter and “out there”. (play Twilight Zone music in your head as you read that)
I have purple nails. Me. Purple. French tip me. Boring me.
It’ll take some adjusting. At my age we aren’t supposed to hope time passes quickly but…
I am kind of hoping time passes quickly so I can get my nails redone. I’ll just get the color I had before it was SO pretty.
My advice for the day…choose your purple wisely.

Stupid purple.
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I’m reading John Green’s new book Turtles All the Way Down and I highly recommend it. Anxiety and mental illness are just never talked about enough. Dismissed with a “hope you feel better soon” or a sad face on Facebook, I see friends going through this all the time. Recognizing someone has issues of anxiety or mental illness is a simple matter of honoring who they are. After that basic human kindness usually follows. Usually.
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Today I am visiting my friend after work and if I don’t get a run done in the morning (which I probably won’t because I’ve been walking the dog in the morning) then I’ll get a run in later.  It’s beautiful outside and I want to enjoy this week as much as I can. It’s so late in the year you never know what the next week will bring.
#myworkoutwas
Hour and a half hike with Michelle
Walked the dog for two miles
for a total of 20,000+ steps
I miss strength.  Tomorrow….tomorrow I strength train.  #weakarms
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Run on…

What’s in a name?

I listen to Pod Save America. 
Four former aides to President Obama — Jon Favreau, Dan Pfeiffer, Jon Lovett, and Tommy Vietor — are joined by journalists, politicians, comedians, and activists for a freewheeling conversation about politics, the press and the challenges posed by the Trump presidency. ~source

What is Crooked?
In 2016, a sane conversation about politics was most needed but hardest to find. Cable news panels, you may have noticed, are not the best.
Twitter is a great place to slowly lose your mind. Everywhere, the work of excellent journalists competes with clickbait, fake news, and whatever Donald Trump is tweeting about. We need a better conversation about politics in this country. That’s why we launched Crooked Media — to talk about politics in a way that doesn’t make you want to throw your phone out the window – with shows and analysis and other forms of sweet, sweet content that inform, entertain, and inspire action. No, we’re not unbiased, we’re not always serious and we’re certainly not always right. But we promise a no-bullshit conversation about politics and culture where you can laugh, cry, scream, ridicule us daily, share your ideas, and hopefully decide that you want to help fix this mess too. That’s it. End of mission. ~source

It’s really good journalism. It’s straight forward and honest and it’s just what we need right now in the midst of all this political turmoil with Donald Trump having the meltdown he’s having.

Here’s the thing. One of the guys is named Dan Pfeiffer. When I went to school many years ago (not that many, be nice) that was the name of one of my best friends. He and my friend LeAnn and I…we were always together.
He was handsome and charming and had the most beautiful voice…oh it was incredible. He would sing and we would melt. What a darling man. I loved him.
Not like that, but like one of my dearest most wonderful friends. I really loved him.

He passed soon after I married and was stationed oversees, he was very young. So I always felt like..he was there..and then gone.
It’s crazy how much I think of him anyway but I think of him every time I listen to Pod Save America and hear Dan Pfeiffer.
It’s just a name and really, what’s in a name?
Everything is in a name because I hear it and I think of him.
I miss him.
Anyway, you should listen to this podcast because it’s very real and it’s very good.
*warning explicit language
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I started a new job today. You know how the first day of new jobs everyone is like…”how was your first day??” with all that joy and excitement.
I love joy. And I want joy and I want excitement.
I love working. Keeping busy, using my brain cells and feeling productive.
But I may be the minority that thinks the first day (the first week?) is pretty stressful.
New situations, new set ups, new computers, new everything and you have to figure out how their systems work. You have to be fit into their world, they don’t fit into yours.

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So I’m making notes and lists to help make the days go smoother and reminding myself that every job has been like this.  With my previous jobs… it took a bit to get better,  but it did eventually get there. And every job I’ve ever had I’ve felt like God led me to it. They all gave back to me in some way. I gained something from them.  I’m trusting I’m supposed to be at this job where I believe this place needs me.
It’s really just -first day nervous blues-. Anyone else have first day blues? Or are you guys all -first day excitement-?
Sean just sat with me and walked me through some basic computer fixes, things I should have remembered from my last job but let’s face it…too many years of migraines and I figure brain damage tosses out anything Outlook wants me to remember. Plus, my computer is Windows 10 and the church uses Windows 7 so…

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Okay…I have some idea. I just have to access those parts of the brain that used to work on Outlook. It’s there somewhere. 

I’ll also be dealing with cleaning and organizing around people who want to do it themselves but they haven’t up until now. So as I’m asking about things or wanting to make changes there may be control issues. Today there was a lot of shuffling and cleaning around me and watching over my shoulder.

I really like my co worker but I don’t do well when watched…I shut down and my brain refuses to work. My old supervisor will attest to that (hey Norma…kiss Margaux!).  Her and I will adjust with time, I think the first week is just tough (positive thinking..).

It’s been years of disarray (apparently three pianos…three that aren’t being used…anyone need a piano? what the hell do you do with used pianos?) so we have to let someone else in to think differently.  I think time will allow that.

And I need to reign in my personality. A lot.

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yeah…wish me luck there…
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My appointment was hilarious today. It was my six month thyroid appointment where we spent 20 minutes talking about weddings and 30 seconds saying “thyroid numbers are a little low but you look great so I’m leaving you there! see you in six months!”
I love her.
After I left I thought…I should message her and ask where she buys her gorgeous clothes.

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This morning I had a hangover from my migraine so I slept hard and I snapped crackled and popped.
I did yoga to work it out.
I wanted to run after work because oh my gosh this day was so beautiful but I had groceries to buy and dinner to make and after the appointment I just didn’t get things done the way I needed to. So tomorrow I will hopefully be on a better schedule.
I’m going to be super busy in the next few weeks,  I have several appointments mixed in with work but oh the weather. The weather!
I do love Colorado. 
Tomorrow I have plans to get a hike in after work and after my appointment.
Michelle!!
It may be my last midweek hike of the year.

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Run on…

Celiac and OCD. They aren’t as boring as they sound.

After all my high hopes to go running I got hit with a huge crash yesterday and all I wanted to do was sleep. I let it happen. I was super tired. I did get the house clean and the laundry done and several hours of work with the church which was a big step so I figure I made progress, right? Hm. I tell myself that anyway.
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A few reminders…
I am not a doctor. Please call a doctor for any medical needs and issues. This is based on my own medical history.

1 in 133 people has it or 1% of the population.

If you have Hypothyroidism you are five to eight times more likely to have Celiac disease.

It takes the average person 6 to 10 years to get a correct diagnosis.

My friend has been sick for years. Like miserable sick. Joints aching, feeling terrible everything hurts she can barely function some days sick. She  finally (finally!) got a diagnosis of Fibromyalgia but only because the 19 or so doctors (I’m not kidding) didn’t really know where to go with searching. She still hurts, by the way, but hey…she has a diagnosis, right? Her son and my son were in soccer when they were very very small and now my son is off in the Marines and hers is going to school and I chat with her occasionally to say hey.
I do my best to not automatically make everyone I talk to have Celiac disease but listening to her I couldn’t help but wonder. It’s far more common than anyone thinks. And I don’t assume anyone has it. But if you have even a few symptoms I think it’s worth the blood test because it’s a very inexpensive test and one can be Celiac and have no symptoms. It’s worth just to be sure. Everything she was saying was so familiar in one way or another and she just had so many issues.  I finally asked if she was Hypothyroid and she said yes…since just after her son was born. This is very common. Pregnancy often brings on thyroid issues. Well, that clinched it. With the thyroid and Celiac being so closely linked it was only logical she have the test to eliminate the option. I was frankly shocked no one had done it already. I had to be intrusive and push it on her.
I sent her the link to Glutendude’s symptom chart and asked her to count up how many of them she had.
She came back a few minutes later and said, “47”.
Yeah…I think you need a Celiac test. As luck would have it, she had a doctor appointment coming up so she sent her doctor a message and asked for a test.
Tonight she sent me the results.
She’s positive.
I seriously almost cried for her.
Celiac is very commonly misdiagnosed as Fibromyalgia because doctors do not know what it is. 
How many doctors she saw. How many times she was blown off, ignored, misdiagnosed and sent somewhere else because they had no clue. I can’t believe she finally has an answer. I’m ridiculously happy for her to know she can maybe feel better.
This isn’t to say her life is now going to be 100% perfect but this woman has been in misery. Her pain has been unbelievable. Hopefully she’ll finally get some relief.

This is 2017. As I said above, I couldn’t believe no one had already run the test on her.
Gluten free jokes are rampant on late night, in books, in songs and on television everywhere. I can get “gluten free” in restaurants (purportedly) and I can go to gluten free bakeries and restaurants that are exclusively gluten free and Celiac safe. Gluten free is NOT a secret thing. But 19 doctors and not one of them thought to run this test?  With her being Hypothyroid even?  It’s really a sad commentary on what we’re dealing with in the Celiac community. We always think it’s getting better and then something happens like this.

My own doctor even (who is no longer my doctor because he left but randomly I did like him) did not believe I had Celiac disease despite a positive blood test and a positive endoscopy. What.the.hell. He thought it was “trendy”.
I’m…sorry?

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yeah. That’s what I said.
Don’t make it so hard. The answer is there. Just because the rest of the world is being stupid doesn’t mean we have to be.  Fortunately my other doctors (yes, plural) respected the science and were grateful for an answer or I’d still be lost.
Fun fact: It was my suggestion to test me for Celiac.
We have to be our own advocates, especially in this age of skepticism and the internet when the doctors think we’re all just house wives sitting on our asses sitting at home googling Malaria.

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Somehow an eyeroll seems so inadequate. It can be infuriating to be treated this way. I just remember that I’m right. I prepare by being very confident, going in with documentation and intelligent questions and making sure I am as informed as I can be.
I could care about whether or not my doctor believed me but I didn’t because I knew and that was all that mattered.

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The following is a video by John Green talking about his issues with Obsessive Compulsive Disorder and his new book, Turtles All the Way Down. I could really relate to his obsessive thought process. I struggle with the same thing and I have a difficult time controlling it for sure. Mine doesn’t work the exact same way his does, though as he is quick to say everyone’s does work different.  I don’t imagine poisoned food or anything. I just get a terrible thought in my head or a thought I can’t get out of my head (it’s never a good thought) and it’s there replaying like a bad movie over and over and over. Spiders? check. Those suckers are there. They’ll multiply. I’ll have one spider on the counter and pretty soon it’s the biggest spider or six spiders until the movie in my head makes them 100,000 spiders spreading everywhere. The movie I can’t stop.
If I do something embarrassing I’ll replay it over and over and over and over and I can’t stop the replay no matter how much I want to. I’ll be having a normal conversation with you but in the back of my head…replay.
I do have tricks to get past it but they aren’t gone, they’re filed. If the filing cabinet gets opened they’ll be pulled out at a later date. It’s super fun. So I’ll be reading this book because I think the subject is incredibly interesting and also because I love John Green.

If you need mental health services in the U.S., you can find help through SAMHSA     : https://findtreatment.samhsa.gov/ or call the National Suicide Prevention Lifeline: https://suicidepreventionlifeline.org/
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When someone unfriends you on FB but six months later they come out of hiding on Instagram (one post kind of people) to like one of your son’s wedding pictures.  I see you. And I don’t know what to do with you.

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I couldn’t have one without the other..so great.  Also, she unfriended me because I don’t like Trump.

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It’s possible it’s really late and I need more sleep because I’m out of control with the gifs. Moving on now.

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Run on…

Behind the scenes of a perfect day.

This was wedding weekend and I thought I’d take the opportunity to let you know about the behind the scenes fabulousness that was our life.

Where we stayed:
Months ago I found a VRBO (sean informed me this was “vacation Rental by Owner” which I officially did not know. Full disclosure I hadn’t ever bothered to look or even think about it because I didn’t care enough. But I do like knowing things so there you go). This was a house in Evergreen, CO at the top of a mountain…7000 ft and change if I remember correctly. There were two queen size beds…super comfortable… and two twin beds. These are homes people either buy and use as rentals or they are homes they use themselves and rent out when they aren’t using them. This is the case for this rental. It was fully stocked. Anything we could have wanted, the house was there. We did have a few tiny issues but they were so minor they were things we’d have problems with in our own house, you know?

1. A full length mirror.
2. The trash can in the kitchen has a terrible lid so it kept falling. You know you’d have this problem in your own house so you’d put that on your list. Get a new trash can.
3. The stairs going down to the house were a bit tall for my mom and sister so I might consider a ramp or something. I didn’t have a problem with them but someone older might.
4. Shaughnessy washed theboy’s shirt after the rehearsal dinner and it came out with rust from the washer. Sean was in town so he stopped and picked up another one from Target. That could have been bad but it was easily fixed.
5. The shower was #notmyfavorite

1675 sq ft.
one full bath, one half.
Average cost $180 a night (for that much space in Evergreen is crazy good)

Could those issues be any more minor? They were pretty minor. The woman who rented to us was so amazing. She was kind and helpful and very communicative. She let us go in early and when a gift was accidentally found to have been thrown out in the trash (still in box and everything) she dug through the trash (!) and is meeting me in town to deliver it. She’s quite wonderful. I gave her and the house a complete five stars and if I could give them more I would. She was great.
On VRBO she is Peace of Mind vacation rental #795862 and she has 66 reviews with a rating of 4.9 (six people rated her a 4 star but their ratings are all great..ha)
I would stay there again.
The view from the deck…photo credit by Shaughnessy


Yeah, it’s that beautiful. Anytime anyone thinks about moving away they just go to the mountains. It cures all that ails us.
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Shaughnessy and my mom have beautiful and adorable short cute hair that suits them so perfectly I’m incredibly jealous. Catherine has long lovely hair you can actually do something with. I have…hair. Celiac hair thankyouverymuch.

So I hired Hilarie Austin. She is also the photographer at Serendipity Photography by Hilarie Austin. Catherine’s hair turned out darling and I really loved it.  I’m sorry I currently don’t have photos. I have very difficult hair though and my favorite Princess Anna has frequently told me how awful it is (she says it with love and I don’t mind at all). My hair wasn’t long enough and it just wasn’t my favorite to begin with so it wasn’t Hilarie’s fault it was my hair’s fault. She did a beautiful job with what she had to work with. If I had it to do over again I would have left it down. I really wanted it down but the day before Evergreen had TERRIBLE wind and more wind was predicted.  I envisioned crazy wind photos. Well we were only in photos for about 3 minutes anyway and there was no wind at all that day so it wouldn’t have mattered. I’d rather have good hair. I was really self conscious of a tiny little head with stupid hair the whole night. I wanted to hide in a closet.  I should always go with my instincts. And with what Shaughnessy says. She suggested it when I said my head hurt. I should have listened.
Hilarie was darling. She was funny and nice and very very talented. I would totally hire her again. She did a great job on both of us.

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For our makeup I hired Ally Wright Triolo. She is also on Instagram at @beautynouveaux .

She did a really beautiful job coming in with suitcases and airbrush plug-in things, brushes and tools and seriously…that girl had stuff. She was not messing around. She was so fun and man we really lucked out with great people that day.

And oh…the eyelashes.

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Our “getting ready” day was so fun. It was relaxing and laid back…talking and laughing and eating pizza and drinking beer.
Okay, I didn’t do either of those things. But it was there.

The day was really just the perfect way to relax before a big event.

The guys were also VERY stressed and began getting ready hours before the event…


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Shaughnessy and I went for a run that morning….you should know we were at the TOP of the mountain. The top. The…top. Really.
The driveway starts out like this….



Terrible, right? Really not pretty at all.
And the road continues with the fall leaves, babbling brooks, deer nibbling at the side of the road…it’s incredible.
Here’s a sign on the way up the mountain to give you an idea of the road…



It’s pretty freakin’ steep and windy.  So we innocently ran down the mountain completely besotted with runner’s bliss. In the back of my head I knew we’d have to go up and it would not be good but…the down was just so great. So I encouraged the bad behavior.

It was windy and steep and the most beautiful fall mountain road you’ve ever seen.


Photos all by Shaughnessy

We walked back up. There was no running up that mountain.

Shaughnessy may have been able to run it but I totally walked. Although I was texting for part of it and I can’t concentrate and run at the same time (wedding day stuff) and also talking so I definitely had no air.

I’m going to say it ranks as one of my favorite runs ever. It was so good. I loved the weekend for those little moments. There were butterflies and leaves flying and birds chirping and deer nibbling and it was like a Disney movie. Shaughnessy said she was “Snow Whiting it”. Ain’t that the truth. What a perfect day.  It was short run….like two miles total I think? Short and sweet.

And there you have our day.
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Run on…

Wedding weekend!

My son got married this weekend.  They were so beautiful  and the wedding was just what they wanted. There were beautiful bridesmaids and the little girls….the absolute cutest.  The groomsmen were handsome and I was so glad to see them! Some of them are like my own kids (okay really just one…shout out to Corey Joe but Mike is a really close second. I do love him). There was a horse drawn carriage (he didn’t really have to go very far so…) but he was there and a bagpiper with quite a lot of personality and it was all really beautiful. 

I have hardly ANY pictures.  And every photo I have I totally stole it. I will share the few that I do have though…


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Then there is my incredible daughter because seriously look at this:

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I know, right? You have no idea how freaking smart she is. She’s crazy smart.
My mom took a ton of pictures. I just am a giant fail. That’s what I should have been doing!  My mom and my sister, Catherine, they looked SO GOOD> I had the photographer take photos but I never step in when there is a photographer so I didn’t take photos over her.
The flower girls…yeah, they were pretty adorable.


photo credit: one of their parents. Nichole I suspect. I stole it from her FB
And Grandma Dot saved the day with a photo of theboy…



yeah…he was totally that cute. The bow tie was killer. He has that swoopy wavy hair that women love but everyone that has it hates.  He’s my favorite.

Can we talk about how perfect the weather was? It was the clearest day ever. The sun was bright and warm and it was gorgeous. It was Evergreen so it got cold pretty quick and that was no joke for all the girls in short skirts and my mom. She’s easily cold, like me. I had a jacket with me and it went well with the dress so it worked to wear it. Thank the Lord. I would have died in the cold. My poor mom kept going to the car. She was pretty cold.
Let’s face it. The important part, the wedding, the weather cooperated for that.

These kind of events, my husband and I decided, expect joy and love and the stuff your most favorite wedding movies are made of. I think a key ingredient to that component is…interestingly enough…alcohol. Because it was all there. The beautiful people, your best friends, your family, great food and dancing. But I have such anxiety in those tight spaces and I can’t hear well and I can’t talk to people and it’s difficult to travel from one space to the other and I can’t drink to relax so I can’t even really think well (hence the no pictures) and so I was…quite anxious with all those people and I didn’t know most of them and talking to anyone was difficult. Theboy reached meltdown phase right after the toasts when he figured out he drank all his juice and there wasn’t anymore. He was done and loudly proclaimed it. I felt SO bad. But once he left my table I don’t sit still well so I was a ball of energy needing to expel it.

My daughter has recommended I get an edible the next time and trust me, it’s crossed my mind. It’s a fleeting thought. Why leave Sean out in the cold. He can’t have one for his job and he’s in the same boat as me. We are apparently not good at these events. To be clear, it’s not the event, it’s totally us.  Also, I felt very out of my own skin in what I was wearing and how my hair was and everything. I wasn’t very confident. I didn’t feel very comfortable and that makes me feel conspicuous.

Which brings up the whole … how many men do we know that were borderline inappropriate with us and that was pretty uncomfortable…
Shaughnessy and I batted that conversation around for awhile.

Melanie, Megan’s mom, bought Sean and I gluten free cupcakes…I love that. So great. My mom had already bought me SIX cupcakes so…
we won’t talk about how many cupcakes I’ve eaten this weekend.   If there was ever a weekend to indulge it would be wedding weekend. So much deliciousness.

I’ve thrown a wedding. It’s an incredible amount of work. She did a wonderful job. I’ve been that stressed. I was her. Mine had issues. Hers had issues. They all have issues. None of them matter because everyone had a wonderful time and it was memorable and beautiful and and just what Alex and Megan wanted.

Alex Michael had to speak at both the rehearsal and at the wedding and he’s so well spoken he did a beautiful job.  He’s charming, funny and gracious.  I’ve lost count of the number of people that have told me what a wonderful man I have for a son. People tell me that about my kids so much and I never, ever get tired of hearing it. I’m just so beyond grateful because I know I only had a small part in it. They’re just such great people I’m the one that is so lucky to be a part of their lives (thought I’d say blessed there, didn’t you?  hashtag blessed! <say with a very sweet voice  LOL I can hear Shaughnessy’s voice and I am out loud laughing.)
See? I get to be their mom.  Doesn’t get better than that.

Running talk probably will resume tomorrow…thanks for being patient!

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Run on…

 

all the stairs would be better without this terrible air…

  • Thursday I finished my crazy errands and then I told myself…I must nap.  I set my phone for an hour and totally crashed. I slept until I wasn’t nauseous anymore. That ended up being an hour and a half.
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    By the time I woke up I had to be a grown up and figure out dinner.
    If I were rich I’d so have a chef.  That would be my splurge.
  • I have a friend in Florida and a friend in St Thomas. It took awhile to hear from her but we finally did get the okay from my friend in St Thomas. The island was hit so hard the news was reporting concern for life was their highest priority. I’m over this whole hurricane thing. Climate change. Could we wrap our head around that please? She reported the hurricane was “terrifying”. She lost her entire roof. When they came out after (she has two kids…a teenager and a six year old) the power lines were in the street, the trees were down and there were refrigerators in the street. It was crazy. We’re really grateful she’s okay but there’s another one thinking about a follow up so we’re watching close.
    #hurricaneeverything
  • I have an acquaintance who decided to have a conversation on her page asking for education about Dreamers. She’s incredibly conservative. Her and her friends were quite judgmental and seemed to have one thing on their mind throughout the conversation. They seemed more upset about the legality of everything than whether or not these people were put in a situation they have no control over and are just trying to stay in the only life they’ve ever known. One of her friends seemed offended at the term “dreamers” like who are they to dream? We all have dreams for our kids…and so on… My reasonable darling friend popped on to say…no. dream. It’s an acronym.  I don’t think they read. I think they just hear Fox news and get mad. #dreamers #DACA #bekind 
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  • When you have a good hair day and you don’t want to run… #goodhairday
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  • Yesterday I went  to Shrine of Cabrini with my friend and climbed the stairs~twice~in the terrible awful very bad smokey air. It was bad. I have good strong lungs, I can’t imagine how people are breathing in this with damaged lungs or asthma. My head started to really hurt by this evening and I totally blame the smoke. It’s feeling better but I credit the really expensive drugs. #allthestairs #prayerandexercise 
    We went to Morrison for Mexican food where she spent the lunch hour harassing me and laughing at me because I have a ridiculous amount of energy and she said she was laughing at my facial expressions. I don’t know what that meant but I’m going with good because that’s all I’ve got.  Lunch was awesome except our server forgot we existed~twice~.  TWICE. I’m usually fairly memorable so…that was bad.  I ate my weight in chips and salsa. The whole meal. Just kept eating. It’s okay. You can judge me. I totally don’t mind. #dontjudgeme #Ineedmorechips
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  • Thursday’s workout:
    I walked the dog for 2.5 miles
    I did my yoga
    30 pushups
    30 squats
    Friday’s workout:
    2.5 miles
    climbed Shrine of Cabrini twice
  • I am meeting another friend today and after that Sean and I are going to try and spend an hour or two together. He has some studying to do. I have work to do. I think we’re just looking for some down time. So much stress, he’s pretty worn out. Also…my yard needs to be mowed SO MUCH. That’s getting done for sure.
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    Run on…

When your dog looks sad.

  • First of all…yep. My comments are still messed up. If you want to comment you have to be looking at the individual post and not the stream of all the posts. I hope that’s clear. We’re still working on that. Which means we just have so much going on we can’t put longer than 3 minutes into it and we can’t find it in 3 minutes. Instead I have this stupid “last five comments” thing actually TWICE at the end. So frustrating. My tech guy has a life beyond me. That’s just wrong.
  • I think my dog is depressed.  Is there anything as sad as when your dog looks sad? I don’t know if he doesn’t feel good or if the neighbor dogs are depressing him. I emailed the vet this morning and we’re looking at our options. Our walk this morning, which was taking a brisk 40 minutes took well over an hour this morning.
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  • I went to get my tattoo worked on this afternoon. I know some of you MAY remember a mere three years ago (can it be that long?) that I got the tattoo but it’s faded really bad and you’re apparently supposed to get a touch up.
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    So I went back around a month ago to make the appointment and learned SO MUCH that I really didn’t want to know.
    They had no idea who it was that did the work. Like…NO ONE had heard of her (the owner wasn’t there, I’m sure he heard of her). They looked at it and said WHOA did she screw that up. Did it hurt like a son of a reallybadword? And I said  ~why yes, Yes it did~. And they said that was because she did it really wrong. She went in way too deep and that’s why it’s faded and it has all this scar tissue and whatnot. The guy that helped me was super nice and said he’d do the work for free (yes, I’m tipping him generously).  He said, “fair warning, when you go over tattoos like this…it’s usually far more painful than the first time”.
    Great. huh. We can all expect throwing up and passing out.
    So I went back today and for 80% of it I handled it pretty well. I even told him the pain was nothing in comparison. It was so much better than the last time I can’t even tell you. They were shocked. I told him it was AWFUL last time. I will say by the end it was a little rough. I was pretty exhausted and getting woozy so he stopped. We made another appointment to finish up in about a month and a half.
    He’s really nice and I may have him do more work for me later. They looked at it again when I went in and just couldn’t believe how much she’d screwed it up. I told him I don’t know anything. I did a LOT of research, I read a LOT of reviews, and I talked to Dave, the owner.  I came in trusting the shop. He said it’s really hard to get good tattoo artists and you sometimes don’t know they’re not great until they screw somebody up because they have a portfolio and a license so you have to just trust them based on that. Not a shock, though, that they gave her to the suburban chick who wouldn’t know anything.
    He also said it’s surprising I came in trusting them, most people come in acting like they know so much more than the tattoo artist.  I told him I’m very knowledgeable in some things but that’s not one of them so I had to trust the owner to assign me someone he thought would do a good job. It’s disappointing this happened. Fortunately Van is fixing it and also, it’s not the end of the world. I’m not dying or anything.
    Here it is three years ago. I really liked it but it faded SO much it was a very very light gray. The guy that’s working on it is making some tweaks. Do I like it. I don’t know. Do I care? Eh. I really like how delicate it was so I may be a little disappointed.  I don’t know if I will like it as much but he’s very good so I’ll just let it go. I don’t see it so whatever.  #somanyfreckles #thanksdaddy  #thesunhelpedtoo
  • When you have an iphone AND an ipad and EVERYTHING RINGS. I never know where to go. You should see me run around the house when I’ve left my phone in my bag and it rings. Stupid Apple.
  • I got my run in last night and it was glorious. I totally walked a few times but I didn’t care because it was cool and beautiful. Today I was going to head out but I ended up messaging my friend for too long and it was HOT 🔥 so I opted to walk Malachi.  He was excited! and then he was not.
    The high for the day is 82* so you know I’m a wuss. I’m going to run later when it’s cooler. This morning it was 50*. It was COLD…. ❄ and I LOVED IT SO MUCH. I love fall.
    I know, that’s a snowflake. But it was cold, didn’t you get that? It was seriously cold.
  • Today I am having lunch with Miss Andrea because she’s going to Peru this week and besides being super jealous I haven’t seen her in like  a month. I’m having Andrea withdrawal. Yes, I talk to her all the time but I need to see her cute face. And she’s leaving for THREE WEEKS.
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  • Yesterday’s workout was:
    3.5 mile run
    39 pushups (three sets of 13 …  😎 )
    30 little squats without weights because I was in a hurry and I was multi tasking making dinner
    2 minute plank
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    Run on…

Ten quick and dirty facts about Celiac. Also, you don’t see me….I’m not here.

I hope you guys aren’t too overwhelmed with “Celiac” information because I’m going to throw you a little more. We’re going to do Ten Facts of Celiac Disease.  Too much information can be overwhelming but a “ten facts” list is quick and dirty. Here we go…
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  • Celiac Disease is an inherited disease.
  • Celiac tends to remain dormant but can be triggered or “woken up” after childbirth, surgery or a traumatic event of some sort
  • You can test negative and still test positive at a later date
  • The average age to be diagnosed is 40-60 years old
  • Celiac disease is an autoimmune disease, not an allergy
  • Celiac is very connected to thyroid disorders. If you have a thyroid disorder you should be tested for Celiac. It’s a very simple blood test.
  • If you have Celiac you have a much higher risk of having another autoimmune disorder disorder (I have Raynaud’s also)
  • approximately 1% of the population has Celiac disease
  • It’s possible to have Celiac and be non-symptomatic.
  • Here is an infographic from Gluten Dude showing a long list of symptoms compiled from his many readers
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    Saturday I met Michelle at Red Rocks so we could run the stairs but when we got there they were having yoga on the rocks. Which sounds delightful but instead it was..nope…you don’t get to come in. So we did a little three mile hike instead. We were slightly winded but mostly because we were hot. No stairs…no real workout.

    You know you didn’t get workout in when you are still sporting your hairdresser hair at the beginning AND the end of your workout…
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    (the following was typed before I left)
    So after coming home (pretty exhausted from several days of no sleep) I slept for two hours. I was so tired I was afraid I wouldn’t wake up until tomorrow…no joke it was a dead ass sleep…
    I hopped up and ran some errands and then Sean and I went to the incline so I could get some stairs in. My legs were SHAKING. Note to self…work out more often.
    Sean spent the day working his ass off riding his bike so he did the incline once and then sat and watched. I did way less than he did for the day so I did it three times. Who knows what I’ll get done this weekend. I need my exercise! Final decision, taking my running stuff. 
    Now I’m frantically trying to get stuff done before I have to be up in three hours to fly internationally….
    The last time I flew internationally it was overseas from Germany. That was a long time ago. I won’t get all sappy on you but I miss Germany.
    I hope I remember to take all the important stuff like…you know, my ID and stuff. underwear. toothbrush. YOU KNOW.
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    Remember... you don't have to run... you get to run!
    Run on….

What it’s really like eating out as a Celiac.

The nightmare in Charlottesville is terrible and I feel like that’s such an understatement. My heart goes out to Heather Heyer’s family and all those who were injured in what is a huge stain on our country. It’s so shameful. These nazis and our president who took his own sweet time with his address…(it came out today..sadly). It was all just really really bad. As you can see I am not great with the words today.
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So…I went to the land of no internet for a few days…the land of MT (#thestatenotthekid) and I had an amazing time and I had a frustrating time. Mostly great though! (if only the weekend had stayed that good, right? ~giant shadow over the country)

My sister is the superintendent for the art department for the state fair. She works INCREDIBLY hard. It’s ridiculous how hard she works. She is up at ridiculous hours and goes to bed at ridiculous hours…in other words she’s keeping my hours but for valid reasons and not because she’s a chronic insomniac.  (you can find her work here…Fairy Ring Beads and Things) All of this while in a constant motion of creating her own beads and jewelry that are in demand almost daily. I don’t know how she does it, she’s the busiest person I know. Fair week. Her daughter is getting married next year right after the fair, I’m not sure if that will be the year she breaks or the year she gets her wonder woman costume because she really is a superhero.
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Warning, this is long. You can skim. ha… Or skip the whole thing! Tomorrow’s should be better…yeah, I can’t promise that. In my head it always is but then I get obsessed with topics like this an I write a book.

MT needs to step up and get some gluten free places to eat.  I made due with what they had and was pretty happy. I know for a fact a lot of strict Celiac’s would not have done what I did. I ate out every meal (really just three because I don’t eat much) and it was at the same place every time…Red Robin. We have zero to zero choices in Billings for gluten free. I always get a salad (and sometimes french fries) and I always give them a lovely and very polite talk about what I have while also pleading with them to be especially careful.

Someone close to me told me it’s no fun going out to eat with someone who won’t eat and just orders a glass of water with lemon but I have to counter that with it’s not really fun having this disease and I’m doing the best I can. It’s difficult being the person who can’t eat anything and feeling the pressure to eat just so someone else doesn’t have to eat alone.

I was diagnosed with Celiac disease three years ago and once that happened the days of going out to eat to enjoy a meal with family or friends really became completely unrealistic. This doesn’t mean I don’t go out.  It means my intentions are decidedly different and the philosophy eat to live don’t live to eat  (either Socrates or Benjamin Franklin…no one seems to be able to decide) is my new way of living.  I go with the thought that I am blessed to have the opportunity to spend time with these people and I get to enjoy the company I’m with and really that’s what I’m in it for. I’m excited to be there with my family and friends and great conversation.  I carry protein bars with me, I grab bananas and fruit and I eat things that are easy and fast.

In the midst of  the day to day normalcy, however,  of “let’s grab lunch” and “where can you eat”, the lines become blurred.  I of all people know how frustrating it is to do the restaurant search and in their zeal they can forget that the most important thing here is that I take care of myself.

It’s stressful to me.

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Most of the blogs on Celiac are dedicated serious gluten free bloggers who mostly cook and eat gluten free at home and seldom eat out. They are careful and very strict. They exercise, they take care of themselves and a lot of them are on other restrictions like no soy or no dairy and they eat paleo or they eat all organic. These are people who take what they put into their body very seriously. One blogger in particular is so careful about his vacations he hires a chef.

These are not people that eat at Red Robin. They don’t eat at PF Chang’s and they don’t eat at chain restaurants in general.  They call the chef of expensive restaurants ahead of time and have conversations to reassure their meal will in fact be safe to eat or they eat at exclusively gluten free restaurants. If that’s available. NO MEAL will EVER be easy again.

I know people that carry a cooler in their car and travel with their own food. They refuse to ever eat at a restaurant because realistically it’s just.not.safe. and this is the best way for them to stay healthy.

On the other hand, I know Celiacs who go to your average wing restaurant (or really any restaurant that jumped on the bandwagon and threw a “gluten free” label on a couple food items) and just ask for “gluten free”.
There’s nothing safe about walking into just any restaurant and asking for gluten free and calling it good. Most of the time cross contamination will be extensive and you are definitely not safe. I think 50% of gluten free has to be cross contamination from other foods, utensils and the general kitchen area,  servers who uninformed, and serving dishes that can be cleaned but not deemed safe for Celiacs. These are people who haven’t been taught how to eat Celiac safe and I’d bet they aren’t safe in their own kitchens from lack of information.

We can all blame our GI doctors for this since we all got the same diagnosis. “You’re Celiac. Just eat a gluten free diet and you’ll be fine.” Yes…those exact words. But we all know there is so much more to it than that.

Gluten Dude was just writing about a most wicked of sickness he got and he couldn’t imagine how he’d been glutened. Of course, anything is possible, however the best line I have heard yet is when he wrote, “I think having an autoimmune disease means your body is in fighting mode much of the time.”
Yes.  Right there.  And you just have to figure out how to handle it in a way that works for you. Some part of me almost always feels out of balance, I just have to roll with it because that’s life.  I manage my own self. That’s the big thing with me.
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In a perfect world I will get to run tonight…(cross your fingers!! I have theboy all week for #babecamp so it’s a busy busy week)
You get what you work for quote

Run on and be healthy.