post birthday/Christmas debriefing.

How’d you guys do? Did the celebratory events of the holiday season overwhelm you and leave you exhausted and unconscious on the couch at the end of the weekend or are you excitedly anticipating the upcoming festivities of the New Year?

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Yeah…exhausted here.

The weather turned which always makes my head implode so I drugged up and went to bed late Monday (otherwise known as Christmas) because there was so much baking, presents, eating, and laughing). I woke up in the night for a few more drugs and ended up sleeping in until…

are you ready??…
10:20 am. 

yup.

That’s like…lunch time.

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I felt like I slept in until Wednesday. I know. I was shocked, too. It’s not important except for the shock value so let’s recap the weekend, shall we?

Last week, did I mention this?, the lights went out on half my tree. My semi cheerful mood prevailed (I was determined to be positive throughout the season of insanity. My other mood is tears. I really didn’t want tears). I bought new lights and before I could put them on the tree, more lights went out.
Somewhere during that week the elastic that held my Christmas bear topper broke and he fell off the top. I tried hard to not look at that as a metaphor for my holidays.
Now the tree looked like a sad version of a candy cane.  Lights, no lights, lights, no lights, all stripe, no top. I sighed and started the process, quickly figuring out I’d have to undecorate a bit in order to do this -replace the lights- task. I’d say a half hour into it I furiously grabbed a laundry basket and took all the decorations off the tree. 

Naked tree for Christmas?

Yes, thank you. It’ll be fine. It’ll just be fine.  Things were going to get done.

At midnight on Christmas Eve I grocery shopped online and arranged it so I could pick them up that afternoon and be one less body in the store. #clicklist for the win.   I thought…

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I know…he’s gorgeous, right? I know. That smile is brilliant.

I went to Morning Prayer at 9,  theboy’s birthday party at noon, off to pick up the groceries at 3:30, back to the church to fix the computer for evening services and then home. At this point we figured out they had shorted us some bags at the store and guess what….

…the stores were all now closed.
I totally understand the need for everyone to be home with their own families on Christmas. I’ve worked enough retail that I fully support this. Except they shorted me my entire Christmas dinner and dessert supplies. Things were not looking good for the holiday. I decided not to worry and just keep powering through.

I searched on Pinterest for an alternate gluten free dessert I could come up with that used ingredients I already had and figured I’d have to make a different main dish. I could be creative and gluten free. Sure I could.
Between dessert, wrapping presents, straightening the house and cleaning bathrooms…(laundry, I obsess), and of course…”undecorating”, and of course my own lack of all things sleepy, I went to bed at 4:30 am Christmas morning.
When I woke up I looked stunning and ready to face the day! It was 8:30 and I had four hours of ROCKIN’ sleep.   I stayed in bed hoping for more that didn’t come and finally crawled out to prepare for the day. I got dressed and went to the computer….searching “stores open on Christmas”.

I’ve never been so happy to see Safeway.

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If you work at Safeway, THANK YOU. The store was packed with grateful people shopping. Some of them were just…shopping because they don’t celebrate and it was just Monday to them and some people, like me, needed a few things for dinner. There were a few people that were sick and grateful for the pharmaceuticals to ease their misery. Everyone looked happy including the employees so I hope they weren’t too miserable. In a perfect world no one would have to work on a holiday but I appreciate the store that stays open for those of us having imperfect holidays.

Dinner prepared, decorations mostly working, the house smells great (Scentsy Christmas cinnamon) and I am still awake. It’s progress!
Alex and Megan got there a little late but we did have a great time anyway. We totally missed MT, he’s out of town visiting a friend. I think, especially with theboy, we have to get things going earlier and we’ll practice that next year. We keep learning and we’ve always been kind of “we’ll work with what we’ve got” kind of people but with everyone and their schedules I think we just have to start setting a real schedule and going by it.

My gift giving skills were definitely off this year but I’m not worrying about it.  Everyone has an off year, right? I keep telling myself that. They were great with me, I got awesome gifts and I loved everything. I had so much fun I almost regret that we decided to draw names next year… 😀

The arctic showed up to Denver and I learned that my love of the number 13 does not extend to the temperature. It’s so freakin’ cold. I’ve been doing yoga. My body feels it when I do yoga and also when I don’t do it. I think part of it is the cold, part of it is the change in temperature and part of it is sleep changes. I’m very stiff and sore and I need lots of stretching in the morning. My head feels so much better after I get up and do some yoga. Morning migraines are very common if you suffer from migraines at all and learning when to medicate and when not to is pretty key.

the weekend is coming. The first. The beginning. The new year.

What are you thinking about? How are you feeling? I have a list (which I normally do not do) that I am working on with someone else because life is flying by and we have to #getitdone while we can.

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Brain fog is my excuse for all my mistakes. It’s mostly true.

Brain fog is my second most unfriendly symptom after getting glutened and yep, I’ve got it good.

A small sampling of how I’m doing with brain fog:
I was making a smoothie and I took the spinach out of the fridge to add to my mix only to realize I’d lost the smoothie. I looked all over for it and finally found it in the refrigerator.  I’d put an open Magic Bullet Smoothie half made in the fridge. Just..sittin’ there.

I was at work and went in to use the restroom. When I washed my hands I cheerfully dried them, tossed my keys in the trash and happily walked out of the restroom with the paper towel in my hand.  Yep. I had to go back in and dig through the trash for my keys. Yep. I then had to bathe in disinfectant while singing “gross gross GROSS”.

Yesterday I went to wash my hands (see how clean I am?) and after I shook them out I cheerfully reached for the lotion. And if you’re wondering, lotion does not dry your hands like a towel does not does it work effectively when mixed with water so what I got was a wet lotiony mix of yuck and I had to start again. #themeoftheday

Forgetting how to spell things is an occasional pop up, but not really important in the grand scheme thanks to auto correct.  Fortunately, knock on wood, nothing important gets left behind. I just do dumb “autopilot” things when I have it. I may never leave the house otherwise.

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In case you are following the saga of the missing leggings (I know, a riveting story but really, who loses PANTS?) They had fallen into a basket I keep in my bedroom for things like slippers, running shoes when I’m in a hurry and possibly a stuffy or two but I’m not admitting anything in print. Leggings found. My life can now move forward.

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I’m positive I’m not the only one who goes through spurts at work where you’re just swamped and life is all about work and nothing else for a period of time, right? People keep telling me to go home when I’m supposed to, don’t work those extra hours, stop working so hard-they can’t possibly expect you to get all that done, and so on. Including the people I work for. Go home. You are working too hard.

But I think they all expect the bulletin on Sunday.
And the Advent program for the special Evensong on Sunday.
And the Prayers of the People to be printed so the guy reading it has something to be read….on Sunday.
And the monthly newsletter so people know what their schedule is…for Sunday.

I mean if anything could be put off, I put it off. But some things just had to be done. Since I started the job in negative mode I had to catch up to get to current and I think…(I think!)…I’m there now. This week. Finally. If I didn’t just jinx myself.

It was a long, busy, exhausting month and I am totally grateful it’s done because I haven’t seen my husband in a month. And he’s cute. I like him.

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How disappointing was Angela Lansbury and her comments about sexual assault. Angela…we love you…what the hell? #heartbroken
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The tax bill. I feel like everyone is shouting “just wait until 2018” and I’m thinking 2018 is really just too late. The damage is done now. The damage is being done every single day and we can’t seem to stop the tide. I don’t even have the energy anymore to be mad.

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The things that people shout about and say, “he’s a madman! He’s out of control! Can you believe our leader said  that?”

Yep. I can. Because he was saying crazy things a year ago before he got elected. He’s always been crazy.

Three more years.

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Sean and I went to see Wonder last night. I’ll be honest, I only halfway wanted to see it. Everyone says how great it was, they sobbed the whole way through it, it was so great but sad and wonderful and so many tears! I wasn’t up to the tears. But apparently I have a cold dead heart because I got a little teary at the end and that’s it.

Still a really good movie. Good, clean and nobody got shot or blown up. I recommend.

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#myworkoutwas
Michelle and I connected on Saturday to go hiking in Castle Rock. We did the incline one time and then hiked about three miles. It was a gorgeous day and an easy time outside. Some hills but nothing serious because we’re both coming back from no hiking and no exercise and no muscles at all and what is wrong with us? Taking it easy was on the schedule and it was perfect.

Sunday I ran the dog for two miles and then cleaned my house top to bottom. It was quite terrible and needed floors and dusting and laundry and whatnot and then I put up my tree.  I had well over my steps at the end of the day.

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Raise your hand if you know what spelt it.

So…Matt Lauer whoa.

Also, anyone else remember years ago when it was rumored he was supposed to be having a torrid affair with Natalie Morales? I remember thinking then…hmm…probably not but something seems up with him.

If only we could hold the president accountable and get him out that fast.

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So I know you are all holding your hands up right now. You can put them down now. All the blood is rushing to your elbow.

The other day I was scrolling for recipes for some clean eating. Sometimes Pinterest will take your “gluten free” recipe search and feed you “whole30” or “paleo” instead. I didn’t really notice through my own brain fog. So when I grabbed a lemon chicken recipe I didn’t even think about it. I stop at the store to grab some things I need and think…oh, I need spelt. I think the recipe calls for spelt.

I KNOW WHAT YOU’RE THINKING BUT I WAS NOT IN MY RIGHT MIND>

I mean, I know what spelt it, I KNOW!  I just…wasn’t thinking.

Swear to God I came home, made that damn meal, ATE IT, and five minutes later had a complete and absolute panic attack.

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Don’t judge me too harshly. I have a disease. Of the mind apparently.

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yeah…that’s me trying to convince myself.

I immediately took charcoal. Began drinking a ridiculous amount of lemon water and downed my probiotics early. So far I’m not as sick as I could be. But I’m not as healthy as I could be. So there you go.

I’m in the middle of cleansing my kitchen. I had to throw away three of my beloved red utensils. (I donated them)
Disinfect everything that touched just…anything.
And I’m seriously considering just starting fresh with new pans. They’re stainless steel so really a good dishwasher dose cleans them but I’m gunshy.

How can I be so on the ball in some ways and screw up so completely in others? Well Sherlock that is the big question.

Too much going on and brain fog. Believe it or not I’m not too hard on myself at this point. I’m just resigned that these things happen. I’m  going back to the beginning with very very basic whole foods. Nothing fancy.

No…walnut crusted pork tenderloin over here.

At least not today. Maybe next week when my stomach settles.
And the itching stops.
And the rash I’ve developed on my neck starts dissapating
And my voice is totally back to normal and not all gravely like I have a cold.
And my joints stop hurting.
And the list goes on.

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I ran the dog yesterday morning and this morning which is way more than I’ve done in the last three weeks. Also I’ve gotten more sleep in the last week than I have in the last three weeks.

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That’s all the workout I got in yesterday because Sean and I had a late errand that took us across Denver and got us home too late to do anything productive. But I feel good enough today (though tired) that I hope to get a run in tonight.

Michelle sent me this:
The Boulder Trails Challenge

I’m totally on board with that.

Also I’ve done a third of my squats today and zero strength for my arms so I have to get that done.

Trust me. I have to get that done.
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Side note because I always have to have a church story.

We rent out the building to different people and we have a huge Hispanic community in the area.  There’s a big Zumba class that’s mostly Hispanic. This morning one lady came in with her mom as I was letting a member of the Altar Guild in to straighten up the sanctuary. We keep the sanctuary closed and locked. Her mom was SO EXCITED at the thought the sanctuary was open that when I explained it was being cleaned up her face fell…I told her she could go in. What’s the harm, right?

That was a half hour ago. She is still in there. Just praying in the solitude of the quiet dark sanctuary.

I love my job.

In case you’re wondering how I can type this while I’m at work, it’s because I work far more than the 20 hours they pay me, they said I can set my own hours and it doesn’t take me that long to type this up.  I don’t do it every time, but this morning I was late so I decided to do it here.

The Altar Guild:
A volunteer group of the parish whose ministry is to care for the altar, vestments, vessels, and altar linens of the parish. Altar Guild members prepare the sanctuary for services, and clean up afterwards. Altar Guild members frequently supervise the decoration of the sanctuary of the parish with flowers. source

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We are having our rectory renovated. A rectory is a house the church owns that the rector lives in. It’s being renovated. I told my husband the man working over there was…very friendly. But my husband has been married to me for thirty years so I’m not as cute to him anymore. 😉

This morning he came right on over when I got to work, spent a good half hour chatting and then asked me out so… yeah. I called that one.

Life at the church.

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the real world.

I called my sister to check in and she had spent the day in the car running errands which we’ve all done and it’s no fun at all. Traffic and frustration, sitting down all day and just generally feeling like you’re getting nothing done but being in the car. It wasn’t a terrible day, she’ll live. It just wasn’t her favorite. I would have been near tears. I can’t stand being in the car all day. It makes me itchy to move. But the worst part was the first thing she said to me was…I’m sorry about your purple fingernails.

She said she was sorry I had purple fingernails.

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It definitely makes you feel thisbig (you have to put your fingers together really tiny to make that visual work…).

I don’t talk to her every day so I thought I would explain that I may have purple fingernails but that’s not my life. I mean…I have real life issues that I just don’t post about because people happy posts. They like happy stuff. I know. You’re thinking…are you kidding? You write about happy stuff?
Hey now. Watch that attitude.

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Here’s a quick look at the top things on my mind #rightthissecond because that’s how my head works. It’s never one thing. Remember, there’s an equal number of happy thing on my mind so it’s not just these things. These are just real life.
Yes, my son got married (pretty happy and exciting!) but this payday my budget is so freaking tight because I basically bought a car for that rehearsal dinner.
I love my 2005 Jeep Liberty so much I intend to drive it until it dies right there on the street. I needed an inspection for this year’s registration so I did a search to aid the passing of said inspection because I’m apparently leaking fluids that I can’t identify since I don’t see leaks and I assume I’m burning oil (going through oil and my last mechanic told me I had many leaks). That CAN’T pass, right? I put just the right amount of gas in (not too much, not too little, Goldilocks) and I drove on the interstate to get it nice and warmed up and I got the oil changed the day before and I swear to God above I prayed the whole time it was getting inspected because I can’t replace a car right now and I can’t pay to get it fixed. It passed.

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I started a new business nearly a year ago that is succeeding beautifully at failing. Because I am an overachiever and hey…we all have to be good at something. But damn it looks good while it’s doing it. But I love it so much I’m determined. I actually had a friend ask me the other day, “and what is that…other thing…you have…that…business thing…you have?? I don’t really know what it is…” And thus you have the crux of THAT problem. My business has a giant identity problem.

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I have a great new job that is part time and it is giving me some pretty awesome validation because they love and appreciate me there.  Moving on… my husband said (totally paraphrasing) ~it’s too bad. Any money you actually make will be gone to taxes so you may as well not. I mean, I know you like it so…I guess you can for that…you know…because you like it…”. Pretty sure there was a virtual pat on the head there but I can’t guarantee it. In case you’re wondering, yep. He’s still my favorite. Shocking, I know. He’s really nice and he’s cute and I get to brag about “my husband is sooo smart… ” I’m shallow like that.
I figured out a few weeks ago that my OCD is strong enough it overrides my need to run. I have to get things done or I can’t concentrate on even getting out the door. So my run goes to the wayside. Do I prefer that? Nope. I’d way rather run but it is what it is. So when I have a lot of balls in the air, I don’t find the time to get it done. On the rare occasion I’m able to push through it’s pretty amazing and I celebrate those times.
I’m helping plan a wedding with my  sister Catherine (who I love and adore over most anyone in the world) and her daughter “B”. I’m pretty sure I’m making my sister crazy totally by accident.   I was talking to her just today and said something about both B and I talking to the same person and that person doesn’t have time to answer both of us and Catherine said that person should have replied to both of us. Then the lightbulb. I should have courtesy copied B on the correspondence and from now on I will. I don’t think about that because B doesn’t love email but it’s really just courtesy (it’s built right into the name!) and I don’t know why that didn’t occur to me before now because that’s something I would do. Anyway, thinking smarter.  It’s innovation. Sister Catherine sounded irritated. Whatever, we’re moving on.

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I have a pile of things I have to sell since the wedding. Formal gown, pretty awesome floral bouquets, table numbers…things like that.  Selling things is hit and miss. Sometimes you’re hot. Sometimes…things just don’t go. I suspect it’s going to be that way.  And until they sell they take over my living room as a constant reminder of what I have to get done and also because I have nowhere else to put them.
I can…without any thought whatsoever...throw out ten massive things that have to be repaired/replaced/renovated (I just needed another “r” word) and any one of them could go at any time. I predict Christmas.

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I JUST remembered I have to buy a plane ticket…I shoulda married a pilot. Or a mechanic. Yeah. A mechanic. ~as I say this I remember my amazing, kind, wonderful, thoughtful husband left his work today to come to mine (he makes like more than four times what I do so that’s money well spent) to do a quick computer thing and spent four hours there fixing the problem. Four hours. It was crazy. My IT guy is pretty awesome.
And if we’re rounding it to an easy 10 things…I hated my hair so much at the wedding. So much. And I’m pretty sure every picture of me will look really really bad. Like..I’m going to hate them. And everyone will say, “you hate all pictures of yourself.” No I don’t. I really like the one up here on the right. And the one in my about page. And I have some family pictures I like. And photos with Sean. I like some photos. But I won’t go into details because I just know I won’t like it. And I’m pretty sure I’ll get a big ol’ family photo for Christmas I’ll have to display and act like I love and if I never see it again I don’t care. Plus my husband’s step mom brought her camera to the wedding and people always think you’ll love all photos of your family without thinking if everyone likes the pictures. And sometimes they just don’t! Photos should be screened by the family before being reproduced and passed around to everyone which I think is really really rude or being posted and tagged in front of everyone. That’s happened to me before.  Be thoughtful. My generous tip of the day.  And no, I’m not just being paranoid, I’m saying this about everyone who had their picture taken that day because I know every person in my family and I know how they all feel about photos and it’s courtesy to think beyond yourself.
No Mom, I don’t need therapy.

So yeah…sometimes I just want to think about … geez don’t you hate it when you get your nails done and they’re PURPLE?  

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It just gives me something to laugh about, that’s all. Purple fingernails. 😎

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I got my steps in (I know, you’re kind of unimpressed but again, I was at work for so long and we had no food we were starving so…that’s where it went. My time I mean).
60 squats
60 push ups

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Celiac and OCD. They aren’t as boring as they sound.

After all my high hopes to go running I got hit with a huge crash yesterday and all I wanted to do was sleep. I let it happen. I was super tired. I did get the house clean and the laundry done and several hours of work with the church which was a big step so I figure I made progress, right? Hm. I tell myself that anyway.
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A few reminders…
I am not a doctor. Please call a doctor for any medical needs and issues. This is based on my own medical history.

1 in 133 people has it or 1% of the population.

If you have Hypothyroidism you are five to eight times more likely to have Celiac disease.

It takes the average person 6 to 10 years to get a correct diagnosis.

My friend has been sick for years. Like miserable sick. Joints aching, feeling terrible everything hurts she can barely function some days sick. She  finally (finally!) got a diagnosis of Fibromyalgia but only because the 19 or so doctors (I’m not kidding) didn’t really know where to go with searching. She still hurts, by the way, but hey…she has a diagnosis, right? Her son and my son were in soccer when they were very very small and now my son is off in the Marines and hers is going to school and I chat with her occasionally to say hey.
I do my best to not automatically make everyone I talk to have Celiac disease but listening to her I couldn’t help but wonder. It’s far more common than anyone thinks. And I don’t assume anyone has it. But if you have even a few symptoms I think it’s worth the blood test because it’s a very inexpensive test and one can be Celiac and have no symptoms. It’s worth just to be sure. Everything she was saying was so familiar in one way or another and she just had so many issues.  I finally asked if she was Hypothyroid and she said yes…since just after her son was born. This is very common. Pregnancy often brings on thyroid issues. Well, that clinched it. With the thyroid and Celiac being so closely linked it was only logical she have the test to eliminate the option. I was frankly shocked no one had done it already. I had to be intrusive and push it on her.
I sent her the link to Glutendude’s symptom chart and asked her to count up how many of them she had.
She came back a few minutes later and said, “47”.
Yeah…I think you need a Celiac test. As luck would have it, she had a doctor appointment coming up so she sent her doctor a message and asked for a test.
Tonight she sent me the results.
She’s positive.
I seriously almost cried for her.
Celiac is very commonly misdiagnosed as Fibromyalgia because doctors do not know what it is. 
How many doctors she saw. How many times she was blown off, ignored, misdiagnosed and sent somewhere else because they had no clue. I can’t believe she finally has an answer. I’m ridiculously happy for her to know she can maybe feel better.
This isn’t to say her life is now going to be 100% perfect but this woman has been in misery. Her pain has been unbelievable. Hopefully she’ll finally get some relief.

This is 2017. As I said above, I couldn’t believe no one had already run the test on her.
Gluten free jokes are rampant on late night, in books, in songs and on television everywhere. I can get “gluten free” in restaurants (purportedly) and I can go to gluten free bakeries and restaurants that are exclusively gluten free and Celiac safe. Gluten free is NOT a secret thing. But 19 doctors and not one of them thought to run this test?  With her being Hypothyroid even?  It’s really a sad commentary on what we’re dealing with in the Celiac community. We always think it’s getting better and then something happens like this.

My own doctor even (who is no longer my doctor because he left but randomly I did like him) did not believe I had Celiac disease despite a positive blood test and a positive endoscopy. What.the.hell. He thought it was “trendy”.
I’m…sorry?

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yeah. That’s what I said.
Don’t make it so hard. The answer is there. Just because the rest of the world is being stupid doesn’t mean we have to be.  Fortunately my other doctors (yes, plural) respected the science and were grateful for an answer or I’d still be lost.
Fun fact: It was my suggestion to test me for Celiac.
We have to be our own advocates, especially in this age of skepticism and the internet when the doctors think we’re all just house wives sitting on our asses sitting at home googling Malaria.

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Somehow an eyeroll seems so inadequate. It can be infuriating to be treated this way. I just remember that I’m right. I prepare by being very confident, going in with documentation and intelligent questions and making sure I am as informed as I can be.
I could care about whether or not my doctor believed me but I didn’t because I knew and that was all that mattered.

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The following is a video by John Green talking about his issues with Obsessive Compulsive Disorder and his new book, Turtles All the Way Down. I could really relate to his obsessive thought process. I struggle with the same thing and I have a difficult time controlling it for sure. Mine doesn’t work the exact same way his does, though as he is quick to say everyone’s does work different.  I don’t imagine poisoned food or anything. I just get a terrible thought in my head or a thought I can’t get out of my head (it’s never a good thought) and it’s there replaying like a bad movie over and over and over. Spiders? check. Those suckers are there. They’ll multiply. I’ll have one spider on the counter and pretty soon it’s the biggest spider or six spiders until the movie in my head makes them 100,000 spiders spreading everywhere. The movie I can’t stop.
If I do something embarrassing I’ll replay it over and over and over and over and I can’t stop the replay no matter how much I want to. I’ll be having a normal conversation with you but in the back of my head…replay.
I do have tricks to get past it but they aren’t gone, they’re filed. If the filing cabinet gets opened they’ll be pulled out at a later date. It’s super fun. So I’ll be reading this book because I think the subject is incredibly interesting and also because I love John Green.

If you need mental health services in the U.S., you can find help through SAMHSA     : https://findtreatment.samhsa.gov/ or call the National Suicide Prevention Lifeline: https://suicidepreventionlifeline.org/
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When someone unfriends you on FB but six months later they come out of hiding on Instagram (one post kind of people) to like one of your son’s wedding pictures.  I see you. And I don’t know what to do with you.

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I couldn’t have one without the other..so great.  Also, she unfriended me because I don’t like Trump.

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It’s possible it’s really late and I need more sleep because I’m out of control with the gifs. Moving on now.

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the quick and dirty.

Quick and dirty update on me  and then we’re moving on.
This has been the best round of Botox yet. They said it would continue to improve as time went on and they weren’t kidding. I had one seriously bad migraine and that was it. Otherwise I’ve mostly managed with Excedrin and barely needed it. My skin is a little tender today. That tells me I’m thinking about getting a migraine but I’m managing it so there you go.

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I have not been eating well all weekend and it shows in the fact that I’ve been sick.  I lost my dinner on Friday and every day since. Today I am determined to make it through the day. Eating clean is really important to maintaining my carefully balanced stomach.  My morning today was hot water and lemon (thank you Lord for good things like this!) I’m usually incredibly careful but it was wedding weekend and we were traveling and chaos ensued. And let’s face it, we can have a routine all we want but sometimes we go off the rails. It happens.

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When you talk to someone about something that is on your mind and they come completely unglued about your obsessive behavior and proceed to tell you how nuts you are. Because hey…I didn’t already know that based on the constant movie reel in my head.

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She’s probably wishing she had right about now. ::eyeroll::

I have finally finished putting away the weekend wedding stuff.  Okay, mostly. How nuts is that? There was so.much.stuff. Rehearsal dinner stuff. Food and pans and snacks. Clothes for the weekend and clothes for the wedding. Jewelry and shoes, make up and flowers. So many flowers. I’ve never been happier for the trash guy to get here. If I see another formal gown I might scream. I might just take them to the consignment store.  I need my house back. So much stuff.

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In a classic case of ~can you believe today’s news~ I don’t know if I should be more horrified by the wildfires in California or the years of disgusting abuse by Harvey Weinstein. And Donna Karan…hello??  What the hell? She had to apologize of course. There was no coming back from that.

Here’s a link to helping out for the fires. The losses are so devastating.

Eminem at the HipHop awards. He does not mess around.

Anyone heard anything on Puerto Rico????

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I didn’t do anything yesterday for exercise. Nothing. Nada. Zilch.  Zero. And I felt it. So today I’m going to run because I think I need some quiet time to zen out.
Winter is so close (we’ve already had snow!) so I am going to try and enjoy some fall leaf running while I can.

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Run on…

It might have been. Maybe.

I’m not sure there is anything as perfect as running in the rain in the quietest part of the day.

What day is this? Thursday? I lose track of what day you guys are reading. So Tuesday night apparently I did not sleep well. I was restless. I didn’t really realize this but Sean told me I was restless and when I woke up I didn’t feel like I slept much. My usual routine is to go straight downstairs and take meds, drink my lemon water, start my emails, etc.

On this particular morning I headed to the linen closet and started cleaning it. About halfway through I moved to the spare room. Sean finally mentioned that I didn’t sleep well and he wondered, joking, if I dreamed about needing to clean the linen closet but actually what probably happened was my crazy ass feeling of total chaos right now with rehearsal dinner things that need to be finished off, church website updates I need to follow up on, my nieces wedding on my mind, so many upcoming birthdays, Christmas is around the corner, my husband so needs a vacation, my poor dog is allergic to something, and apparently I’m feeling out of control because whenever I start to feel like this I need to clean and organize.

That’s just what I do.

I’ve had a pretty significant list of errands to get done for the last two days and on day one I pretty much blew it off getting only the mandatory two or three things done and then coming home. Yesterday, though, I thought…I need to clean so man I cleaned. The linen closet, the spare bedroom, my master closet, the main livingroom, the cupboard in the kitchen that’s been bothering me, and the garage. I did it all. Then I took a load to Goodwill. When I was done I ran all my errands.

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Sean came home to one of his favorite dinners and freaked out. He thought he was in the Twilight Zone.

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But no. It was real life. Me feeding him dinner at a reasonable hour and having it ready when he actually got home.
For the record that’s not really my fault. He comes in the door at all hours so I usually don’t start supper until he gets  home. It’s very usual for him to come home at 7pm.
I topped it off with the most perfect run and I think it might have been a perfect day. I think it might have been.
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Remember last week I wrote 730 South was closing? Sean and I really struggle to find restaurants that are safe for me to eat at and this was such a wonderful place we feel the loss pretty significantly.
Yesterday I read online that Beau Jo’s, a local  pizza place, has closed. They offer gluten free and their servers are always well informed. We always feel welcome there and it’s always a great experience.
I actually started to cry. It’s getting harder and harder.
We had this great breakfast place called LePeep. It was family owned and it was our favorite. They closed but they are a franchise so we chose another one and we started going there. The beauty of LePeep is the vice president or the HR person or someone up in an executive position is Celiac so they take it very seriously.
Or so we thought.
Here we are at the new restaurant and I order an omelet and I tell the server I’m Celiac and he doesn’t understand what I’m saying. So I repeat it and he asks what that is. When I explain what it is he’s so happy to know the actual name of the disease and understand, it was great to educate someone but what the hell? I immediately wanted to leave because if they don’t know what it is how the hell are they going to serve me a gluten free meal?
So. yeah.
That’s restaurant #3.
I’m stepping up my cooking game.

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Netflix is dropping Friday Night Lights after October 1st so if you need a fix better get it now…
I’ve watched the series twice (was it three times? I can’t remember) and I could pretty easily watch it again because it’s that good. Do they ever bring things back? I miss it already. I do not appreciate it when things are not available at the touch of a button.

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On another note, can I ask what the hell is up with rude drivers? We have a crosswalk that has a light smack in the middle of this crazy busy street and I don’t like to push the light because it’s really REALLY long. I don’t want to hold people up so I don’t push the light. I just wait for traffic to slow and I run across at my leisure. It works well. But once in a while when I do it the cars that are coming up on the crosswalk will speed up just to be asses.

This makes me want to push the light every.damn.time.

But I don’t. Because I’m not going to punish everyone for a few jerks.
Jerks.
Hey…did I tell you guys my kid is getting married in like…10 days?
Did I tell you guys I get to see MT in like 9 days? He’s my favorite. At least that’s what he tells me every time I talk to him.

#myworkoutwas
3.5 miles in the rain which was awesome and I wanna do it again right now but duh it’s late and dark so no.
65 pushups
60 squats without weights because the weights were upstairs. I really have to remember to go get the weights. 


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Run on…

Who’s the crazy one?

I think we have the kinks figured out. There are still glitches which bug Sean but we have workarounds and I’m goin’ with it. It was bugging me enough yesterday that I put stickies on his computer basically begging him to fix it. The guy is super busy so he really doesn’t have time to be doing this stuff but it’s the -slightly too technical- stuff that I just don’t know enough about.

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Anybody else’s allergies going INSANE?  oh my gosh fall allergies. Who knew. I have had the itchiest nose today. I’m on two antihistamines to help with the itching and still I look like I’m picking my nose constantly.  Because I’m picking my nose constantly. Quite the lady right here. It just itches so much.

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Anybody else fall on the floor laughing when they read that Kim Jong Un called Trump “mentally deranged”? I mean…that’s what we’re reduced to.
I get it. I should be totally stressed, worried, freaking out.
oh yeah, I’m doing all of that, too. But come on. It’s pretty bad when even North Korea recognizes he’s crazy. NORTH.KOREA.
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I ran about fourteen errands…
Okay, not really fourteen. But I left the house really late and still ran like…nine errands in a very short time so that’s pretty good. But I was really sick yesterday and I’m not sure why. My stomach was BAD all day long.  I don’t think I’ve been glutened but I have eaten some new things in the last day.  Stomach issues are not my usual symptom so I’m a little unhappy. Maybe I’m just legitimately sick. ha. That would be strange. We really wanted to go to 730 South for dinner (just a few days before it’s closed!) but there was no way. By the time Sean came home I just needed to go lie down. I felt a little better after that but dinner was out.
Maybe we’ll do lunch today.
When I ran yesterday it was hot and windy. What is THAT about? The trees are actually turning those lovely fall colors and I’m thinking…where is my lovely fall weather?
I demand fall…
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#myworkoutwas
3.5 mile run
SIXTY pushups (I will not be able to do anything for days…DOMS for days)
Sixty squats but not with weights because I was too lazy to run upstairs and get them. Yes, I know how that sounds.

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I’m finishing up The Keepers on Netflix. I started it and got distracted because that’s who I am.  It’s so incredibly painful to watch but these women are so brave to come forward with what happened to them. It’s an incredible story and I feel like I’m reading  a book I can’t put down.
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Short and sweet today. I’m super late.  Places to go. People to see.
None of that is true. But I do have things I have GOT to get done.
In a perfect world I might go hiking today. It’s my big plan. I suppose it depends on how I feel. And time.

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Yes!!! Love that we live right on the mountain so we can walk out our front door and start an adventure!
Run on…

Anyone remember Honey Buns? Talk about food and the mind does wander…

  • I went with my mom to San Francisco years ago when I was  a young teenager. We got Honey Buns at the grocery store on the corner and thought we’d died and gone to heaven. I could have eaten the whole box. I can’t see a Honey Bun in the store now without thinking of that time with my mom, hangin’ in San Francisco at my grandparents house just eatin’ Honey Buns. #memories #mommemories
  • I’m going to skip right over where I’ve been this busy weekend and say I’ve slowed down from going 159 mph to going probably 90 or so which to me is better. The weather gave me a killer migraine Saturday but on the bright side…THE WEATHER! I think it was building for a few days. It happens and I recovered.
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    it’s just around the corner, Baby, I can feel it. 
    It was 50* this morning. So beautiful. 
  • The Cincinnati Enquirer did an amazing spread on the current epidemic of heroin use that has taken over the country. It’s called Seven days of Heroin. I highly recommend this  impressive piece of reporting. Calling it “in depth” would be an understatement.

    The Enquirer sent more than 60 reporters, photographers and videographers into their communities to chronicle an ordinary week in this extraordinary time~source

  • Honey Bunchies Gourmet Honey Bar  are my newest delicious snack find. Has anyone ever had a Salted Nut Roll?  I don’t know what they did but these Honey Bunchies seriously taste just like  a Salted Nut Roll. They are so amazing I could eat ten of them. Okay, I’ll be honest, I really couldn’t. Truth be told I ate the whole thing but I should have parceled it out and eaten just half at a time. They have 8 all natural ingredients, 230 calories  a bar, gluten free, soy free, grain free and It’s like a giant caramel roll. Serious delicious. I loved it immediately. I paid $1.99 at Safeway.
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  • Who is the Enemy Here?
    A beautiful and haunting article of photographs Time magazine has gathered from various photographers who covered the Vietnam war and the photographs that moved them most. They are really quite moving. My best suggestion is to actually read about the photograph and not just skim the pictures. The photos are obviously stand alone worthy but the personal stories attached bring a light to them we haven’t seen before.
  • “mini cupcakes? As in the  mini version of regular cupcakes? Which is already a mini version of CAKE? Honestly, where does it end with you people??” ~Kevin from The Office making a really really great point. We feel your pain, Kevin.
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  • The Vietnam War– A film by Ken Burns and Lynn Novick  on PBS
    You just have to watch it. You should be able to stream it online.
  • These 2 London museums viciously battled for supremacy on Twitter
    Twitter user asks a question…who reigns supreme? And the battle begins. It’s pretty great.
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  • I did HIIT over the weekend and as much as I love it my legs surely do feel it. The day feels so good (high of 82* so I’ll take it) but I’m going to go down to the incline this evening I think so I can climb and run at the same time. I’m definitely feeling a little off from several weeks of being too busy to incline.
    I did walk the dog, though, and he’s pretty happy now and sleepin’ away. Must be rough.
  • We lost our internet for a ridiculous amount of time so I’m hotspotting it now so I can finish this. Then I’m going to run my errands and make progress on life and if it’s not back by tonight we’ll have to burn the house down. Or go to a motel or something. Yes, I could read a book but Netflix. 
    Who knew I could make progress on life so easily?
    I’m thisclose People. Thisclose.
  • There’s a lot of information in this post. It was a reading/watching weekend while I worked. Good stuff though.
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    Keep working hard…
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    Run on…

What kind of a driver are you? I’m pretty patient but there are these three things…

  • Starting my day with hot water with a lemon slice is my favorite thing to do. It makes me feel amazing and I swear I feel so much better when I do this.
    11 benefits of lemon water you didn’t know about
  • Are you a road rager? I am not. However…these are three things that bug me about driving. First you should know…I’m a really patient driver. So it’s not like I thought…I’ve got a LIST of things that bug me about driving (RAGE)…no. That’s totally not true.  I just kind of encountered two of them on the same day and thought…yeah. these three things would probably be irritating.
          1. When you’re driving and someone drives just UNDER the speed limit. What is that about? Why? You’re allowed the speed limit and truth be told even a few more. Go the few more! Be wild! If it’s 40…do 42! Maybe 43! Do not drive 35 or 36 in a 40, it just makes us all nuts.
         2. When someone waves you to go first but they’re annoyed with you. ?? What? Why? thanks? I kind of don’t WANT your favor now. How exactly did I annoy you by just SITTING here waiting for you to go first when it was your right of way and then you get irritated because you let me go first. I got nothin’.  That really bothers me and the irritation totally negates the kind gesture. Sorry People!
         3. When you’re in the far left straight lane (now try and follow me here…) and there’s a turn lane next to you with an island next to them. The person in FRONT of you for some reason leaves like…two car spaces open without pulling forward (to what…save it for a friend?) and because they don’t pull forward, YOU can’t pull forward so all the people that need to pull into the turn lane can’t get into it. So the turn lane light turns green and then red and they all watch it and miss it…all because weird guy won’t freakin’ pull forward. You honk…you pull really close to him and stalk his bumper but nothing. Seriously Dude. What the hell?
    Do any of these things make me yell at people? No but I will occasionally talk to them and say, “why? why do you do this? I don’t understand you.”  So far, no one has answered.
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  • Taylor Swift!  Taylor Swift gets a giant ~hell yes~ from all of us for how she handled this whole situation with the groping DJ. She had absolute grace from the beginning to the end and what a great outcome that the jury came back in her favor. Although I don’t see how they could have done anything different. The evidence was so terribly against him, the pervert.
  • So I’m leaving the country next week for approximately… 47 hours (how crazy is that?) to do some family history investigating with my mom. I did a little ~do I take my running gear or don’t I~ with myself today. I ALWAYS take my running stuff. I never ever EVER don’t take it. And the chance to run in another country is pretty awesome. I love running in new places and a new country would be so cool. We lived in Germany for six years so I’m not new to the international scene but I’ve always liked the idea of adding places to the list. If I thought I could get a run in that morning before I left I’d leave it at home but not being able to is a true let down. So both days with nothing…I’m leaning towards taking the running stuff. Just so you know, as I wrote this paragraph I changed my mind twice.
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  • It poured rain with wild wind so I did not get to run. Even Sean was bummed for me. Every day…hope for tomorrow.  I always say a little rain is good, pouring rain is just inconvenient.  It’s a nice way to end the day though.  Theboy and I hung out at home except for a few small things. We’ll talk about what we did tomorrow.

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