I told you I’d be back today. have faith.

In case you’re wondering…here’s what Andrea and I missed Monday.
::sob::
But Tori (Andrea’s super cute daughter) and the friend she grabbed at the last minute totally went and had an amazing time. Tori is my fill in whenever I can’t go somewhere. Like Peru. Or Hillary Clinton book signings.
Tori is living my life.

It is not fair.

I’ll get over it because I love her.

See? Hard not to love her.
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Doug Jones defeats Roy Moore.

Can we just scream in JOY over how proud we are of the black community of Alabama -specifically the black women of Alabama- for stepping out and voting?

As you can see…white women did not step up.

I’m going to tell you I don’t usually donate to political campaigns but I threw a little $15 at this one because I figured every dollar counts.

Some days I want to hide  in embarrassment lest someone think I might also be one of the stereotypes out there.  And then I go and walk into a Christian church, my gosh. I am THE stereotype. My age, I’m white, middle class, Christian. I mean stamp “Trump supporter” and “make America great again”  on my forehead and no one would be surprised except then I’d have to have you killed just for even considering that I would do that. Don’t even think that.

SOME of us do not fit the stereotype. Some of us, though not college graduates (give me time) are still educated. We are kind and we care about our world around us. It’s disheartening to know there are so many people in my demographic that think different and it has a direct impact on critical moving parts in our society. Our community, the environment, the financial stability of  the country just to name a few.

Tonight’s victory was well deserved, well earned and we needed it. We’re all tired. We were all getting so beaten down I’m not sure how many were willing to take to the streets time and again only to be proven the terrible were stronger. We needed this and it felt really good.

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I promised you happy information and here it is. We went hiking.

I went hiking on Saturday with the amazing and beautiful Miss Michelle. My hiking partner of the world. What will I do if she ever stops hiking with me? What will I do when her boys get big enough to take over for me? I will cry.

So we started at the NCAR which is the National Center for Atmospheric Research which sounds AMAZING but really was just the greatest parking lot for a trailhead because if you know Boulder you know the parking lots have like…9 spaces to 57 people that want to hike there.

So we parked and started on the Mesa trail, which was fine, just a trail. It was pretty in that -hello I’m gorgeous but I know it so whatever- way but then we veered off onto Fern Canyon because it’s my name and hello we HAD to do that.

Now, full disclosure, once I saw the beginning of it, I did hesitate. I was all for it but I was a little worried about what I signed Michelle up for because I will freakin’ do anything and she’s like…look…I have to go home eventually. And I just wanted a little hike. I didn’t sign up for Everest or anything.

But she said, “no. You wanted Fern Canyon because ‘It’s your name’ so we’re doing it”. You have to make sure and put a little bit of a mean girl twist on that when you say it. The little brat. Ugh. I do love her. And I laughed pretty hard when she said it.

Well, that trail turned out to be incredible. It was a hike in the truest sense of the word but incredible for sure. And it was stairs of rocks. It seemed like it was all stairs. It was so great! And beautiful…my gosh it was beautiful. I lost count of how many times I stopped to say “this may be one of my all time favorite trails ever”.

The caveat being…we had only a vague idea of where we were or how long the trail was or what it was like..if there was an end. If there wasn’t. It was wicked difficult. Fern Canyon leads to Bear Peak.

We did not make it to Bear Peak because it because it was wicked windy and I’m not kidding. Hard core wind and serious cold. We said…you know, not so much. So we came back. But I’m totally ready to do it again because it was the best time.  

“Fern Canyon (1.2 mi; 2,121 ft.) starts at the Mesa Trail 0.8 mi. south of the junction of the NCAR Trail. Climbs gently southward, then turns west to begin an unrelenting 1,700 ft. climb to end at the summit of Bear Peak, elevation 8,461 ft.”

I loved it.

Michelle and I looked hard at the map this morning and we came so close to the summit we need to go back. With nourishment. We were tired. But looking back and where were were…it’s worth the hike. Look how pretty!

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I am almost better. Each day I get a little better. Still not hungry. Still have a low grade fever. And I still feel pretty damn tired but I’m up and working.

I may…I MAY consider walking the dog today but I am not running anywhere. Maybe tomorrow. I am yawning as I type this.

Run on…

Brain fog is my excuse for all my mistakes. It’s mostly true.

Brain fog is my second most unfriendly symptom after getting glutened and yep, I’ve got it good.

A small sampling of how I’m doing with brain fog:
I was making a smoothie and I took the spinach out of the fridge to add to my mix only to realize I’d lost the smoothie. I looked all over for it and finally found it in the refrigerator.  I’d put an open Magic Bullet Smoothie half made in the fridge. Just..sittin’ there.

I was at work and went in to use the restroom. When I washed my hands I cheerfully dried them, tossed my keys in the trash and happily walked out of the restroom with the paper towel in my hand.  Yep. I had to go back in and dig through the trash for my keys. Yep. I then had to bathe in disinfectant while singing “gross gross GROSS”.

Yesterday I went to wash my hands (see how clean I am?) and after I shook them out I cheerfully reached for the lotion. And if you’re wondering, lotion does not dry your hands like a towel does not does it work effectively when mixed with water so what I got was a wet lotiony mix of yuck and I had to start again. #themeoftheday

Forgetting how to spell things is an occasional pop up, but not really important in the grand scheme thanks to auto correct.  Fortunately, knock on wood, nothing important gets left behind. I just do dumb “autopilot” things when I have it. I may never leave the house otherwise.

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In case you are following the saga of the missing leggings (I know, a riveting story but really, who loses PANTS?) They had fallen into a basket I keep in my bedroom for things like slippers, running shoes when I’m in a hurry and possibly a stuffy or two but I’m not admitting anything in print. Leggings found. My life can now move forward.

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I’m positive I’m not the only one who goes through spurts at work where you’re just swamped and life is all about work and nothing else for a period of time, right? People keep telling me to go home when I’m supposed to, don’t work those extra hours, stop working so hard-they can’t possibly expect you to get all that done, and so on. Including the people I work for. Go home. You are working too hard.

But I think they all expect the bulletin on Sunday.
And the Advent program for the special Evensong on Sunday.
And the Prayers of the People to be printed so the guy reading it has something to be read….on Sunday.
And the monthly newsletter so people know what their schedule is…for Sunday.

I mean if anything could be put off, I put it off. But some things just had to be done. Since I started the job in negative mode I had to catch up to get to current and I think…(I think!)…I’m there now. This week. Finally. If I didn’t just jinx myself.

It was a long, busy, exhausting month and I am totally grateful it’s done because I haven’t seen my husband in a month. And he’s cute. I like him.

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How disappointing was Angela Lansbury and her comments about sexual assault. Angela…we love you…what the hell? #heartbroken
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The tax bill. I feel like everyone is shouting “just wait until 2018” and I’m thinking 2018 is really just too late. The damage is done now. The damage is being done every single day and we can’t seem to stop the tide. I don’t even have the energy anymore to be mad.

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The things that people shout about and say, “he’s a madman! He’s out of control! Can you believe our leader said  that?”

Yep. I can. Because he was saying crazy things a year ago before he got elected. He’s always been crazy.

Three more years.

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Sean and I went to see Wonder last night. I’ll be honest, I only halfway wanted to see it. Everyone says how great it was, they sobbed the whole way through it, it was so great but sad and wonderful and so many tears! I wasn’t up to the tears. But apparently I have a cold dead heart because I got a little teary at the end and that’s it.

Still a really good movie. Good, clean and nobody got shot or blown up. I recommend.

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#myworkoutwas
Michelle and I connected on Saturday to go hiking in Castle Rock. We did the incline one time and then hiked about three miles. It was a gorgeous day and an easy time outside. Some hills but nothing serious because we’re both coming back from no hiking and no exercise and no muscles at all and what is wrong with us? Taking it easy was on the schedule and it was perfect.

Sunday I ran the dog for two miles and then cleaned my house top to bottom. It was quite terrible and needed floors and dusting and laundry and whatnot and then I put up my tree.  I had well over my steps at the end of the day.

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Run on…

Raise your hand if you know what spelt it.

So…Matt Lauer whoa.

Also, anyone else remember years ago when it was rumored he was supposed to be having a torrid affair with Natalie Morales? I remember thinking then…hmm…probably not but something seems up with him.

If only we could hold the president accountable and get him out that fast.

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So I know you are all holding your hands up right now. You can put them down now. All the blood is rushing to your elbow.

The other day I was scrolling for recipes for some clean eating. Sometimes Pinterest will take your “gluten free” recipe search and feed you “whole30” or “paleo” instead. I didn’t really notice through my own brain fog. So when I grabbed a lemon chicken recipe I didn’t even think about it. I stop at the store to grab some things I need and think…oh, I need spelt. I think the recipe calls for spelt.

I KNOW WHAT YOU’RE THINKING BUT I WAS NOT IN MY RIGHT MIND>

I mean, I know what spelt it, I KNOW!  I just…wasn’t thinking.

Swear to God I came home, made that damn meal, ATE IT, and five minutes later had a complete and absolute panic attack.

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Don’t judge me too harshly. I have a disease. Of the mind apparently.

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yeah…that’s me trying to convince myself.

I immediately took charcoal. Began drinking a ridiculous amount of lemon water and downed my probiotics early. So far I’m not as sick as I could be. But I’m not as healthy as I could be. So there you go.

I’m in the middle of cleansing my kitchen. I had to throw away three of my beloved red utensils. (I donated them)
Disinfect everything that touched just…anything.
And I’m seriously considering just starting fresh with new pans. They’re stainless steel so really a good dishwasher dose cleans them but I’m gunshy.

How can I be so on the ball in some ways and screw up so completely in others? Well Sherlock that is the big question.

Too much going on and brain fog. Believe it or not I’m not too hard on myself at this point. I’m just resigned that these things happen. I’m  going back to the beginning with very very basic whole foods. Nothing fancy.

No…walnut crusted pork tenderloin over here.

At least not today. Maybe next week when my stomach settles.
And the itching stops.
And the rash I’ve developed on my neck starts dissapating
And my voice is totally back to normal and not all gravely like I have a cold.
And my joints stop hurting.
And the list goes on.

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I ran the dog yesterday morning and this morning which is way more than I’ve done in the last three weeks. Also I’ve gotten more sleep in the last week than I have in the last three weeks.

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That’s all the workout I got in yesterday because Sean and I had a late errand that took us across Denver and got us home too late to do anything productive. But I feel good enough today (though tired) that I hope to get a run in tonight.

Michelle sent me this:
The Boulder Trails Challenge

I’m totally on board with that.

Also I’ve done a third of my squats today and zero strength for my arms so I have to get that done.

Trust me. I have to get that done.
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Side note because I always have to have a church story.

We rent out the building to different people and we have a huge Hispanic community in the area.  There’s a big Zumba class that’s mostly Hispanic. This morning one lady came in with her mom as I was letting a member of the Altar Guild in to straighten up the sanctuary. We keep the sanctuary closed and locked. Her mom was SO EXCITED at the thought the sanctuary was open that when I explained it was being cleaned up her face fell…I told her she could go in. What’s the harm, right?

That was a half hour ago. She is still in there. Just praying in the solitude of the quiet dark sanctuary.

I love my job.

In case you’re wondering how I can type this while I’m at work, it’s because I work far more than the 20 hours they pay me, they said I can set my own hours and it doesn’t take me that long to type this up.  I don’t do it every time, but this morning I was late so I decided to do it here.

The Altar Guild:
A volunteer group of the parish whose ministry is to care for the altar, vestments, vessels, and altar linens of the parish. Altar Guild members prepare the sanctuary for services, and clean up afterwards. Altar Guild members frequently supervise the decoration of the sanctuary of the parish with flowers. source

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We are having our rectory renovated. A rectory is a house the church owns that the rector lives in. It’s being renovated. I told my husband the man working over there was…very friendly. But my husband has been married to me for thirty years so I’m not as cute to him anymore. 😉

This morning he came right on over when I got to work, spent a good half hour chatting and then asked me out so… yeah. I called that one.

Life at the church.

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Run on…

Sweet List <3

1.  a new haircut! Thank you Princess Anna! @annaloze I love her.

2. November is here. I’ve never been so happy for November. #longestyearever #flewby

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3. MT gets home THIS WEEK.  I’m so glad he’s happy. I love him happy.

4. My computer font has been totally screwed up for two weeks and it’s been impossible to see anything clearly on the screen. It’s been like looking at a really really bad photocopy.

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 I finally figured it out today, or my computer figured it out for me and notified me of a glitch. Was it waiting for something in particular? What happened today that said ~this is the day we’re going to let her off the hook. Today she gets her regular font back. I mean, it’s been fun but the torture should stop now.  I would like to know for the next time it decides to do this.
5. I think (I think…) I am mostly caught up at work. Which means I am not going into the week behind. I’ve been working behind for weeks and weeks and for someone who likes to be ahead of the game on everything, this is causing me to lose sleep.  I finally feel somewhat even. I have a huge pile of work to do but if I dive in headfirst I might get it done quick. Who knew churches had so much to do.
6.  Sean and I went hiking today and it was the best way to spend a Sunday. I just turned off my phone (okay, I didn’t really but I put it on low power and put it away in the backpack) and enjoyed the gorgeous day outside.  You would think with everyone in my family being tucked away neatly in their homes I would not be so paranoid about being reached but I just am. So until I’m not…I keep the phone on. Meanwhile, here is me killing time while Sean is Ingressing. A four mile hike for a quick two minute Ingress moment? Totally worth it. Plus he made me laugh the whole time so I’m all in for that kind of day. #Ingress #hikingcolorado #excusesexcuses 

7.  Tea of a Kind. Now…here’s the glitch. I bought the Pomegranate Acai White Tea and it’s so delicious. I loved it. The other flavor said it had caffeine right on the bottle and this one didn’t so I figured I was probably good. I can’t see caffeine anywhere on the bottle and I can’t find caffeine information anywhere. White Tea generally has quite a bit of caffeine so I’m not sure what’s up there. I only drank a little of it to make sure I don’t invite a migraine but the answer is still a mystery. If you can have caffeine though…this stuff is delicious.


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8.  Shalane Flanagan. I mean Seriously. She just inspires you to get your ass out the door and run. Between watching her win the NYCM and the postcard perfect weather of Colorado in November I am dying to be running pretty much all the time.

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9. The Manitou Incline is tentatively scheduled to open Dec 1st. Which means I have to get back to doing my incline work. My legs are definitely not in incline shape. Michelle’s totally are. And a great thank you to the hard workers who haul themselves up those stairs every day to work on the incline.  It is an incredible workout and it’s cold and wet and just a huge undertaking. Those of us that love the incline and Colorado’s great outdoors appreciate your efforts.

10. I went to TJ Maxx because I have no work pants. I found a few pair that I think will work really well (I’ll be honest, I didn’t try them all on) but I  happened upon the greatest t-shirt ever (when I was looking through t-shirts so I didn’t really “happen” on it), I mean I was looking in the t-shirt section.  For $6.99 my life has been made better. I want to go back and buy six more. Long, soft, fits well, good grey color. I just love it. Good quality t-shirts are hard to find! No, I didn’t really need a t-shirt but … that’s not the point.

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That is probably very true.
But I got a t-shirt that changed my life and no I want six more. #idontexaggerate #ifonlyjeansfitthatway

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Run on…

The day the walls came tumbling down

My big plan was to work out right after work today. I slept pretty terrible last night and instead wandered the halls like a ghost searching aimlessly for the other side.

I toyed with going first thing this morning and the air suited my mood. It was cloudy and frosty and the perfect kind of morning but I figured my unrest would contribute to a rough run. So I would wait until after work. The weather was supposed to continue and it would be good.

Then this happened.

I was underneath that.

I am totally fine. I was able to back out pretty quick as it was falling so my leg is bruised and after the adrenaline that had me shaking for about twenty minutes passed I realized I think it hit my head and my back hurts. As the day progressed my back hurt a little more but none of it was ~whoa you should SO go be checked out~. It was more…this is going to be a little achy later.

I’m definitely watching it and if it gets worse I’ll go in (That was for my mom).

They were VERY nice at work. Beyond nice. Asked me 427 times if I was okay. Insisted I get checked out. Checked on me multiple times a day. Really great.

The cabinet was ridiculously overfilled and apparently it wasn’t anchored into the wall.

PSA for the day. Use anchors.

Also, I got a papercut.

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Roll your eyes if you must but that sucker HURT.

They pulled out the whole office hutch contraption and replaced it with a floor file cabinet (gotta love churches. Someone is always donating furniture. We have rooms full of options downstairs. Anyone need a piano? We have three extra…). I got to organize the whole top drawer of that! It was pretty divine.

It took me two hours to clean up the mess and most of it I wasn’t cleaning, I was shoving stuff in a different drawer or a box until today. Some of it I did manage to organize and that was the best hour of my day.

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Since I was thisclose to running this morning I’m hoping to get it done tomorrow morning. Sean said, “in the snow?”

He’s just a little ray of sunshine now isn’t he? Way to rain on my parade.
Kinda literally.

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This past weekend Sean did a Goruck event.  This was twelve hard hours overnight (it started at 9pm!) and  15 intense miles that include hiking in the dark with headlamps. Only he lost his headlamp so he used the light of the moon and stood between other people and their headlamps. He did an amazing job and I’m ridiculously proud of him. He was keeping me posted through the night with an occasional text to let me know he was okay and I will admit I was so grateful for each one. This is a crazy event. He came home that night  exhausted and spent. The next morning he got up and went back to spend the day bike riding. The guy is a machine.

GORUCK Tough
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So we’ll just take yesterday’s #myworkoutis and we’ll swap it over to today.

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What’s your secret

How much do we LOVE this??

Shalane Flanagan Wins the New York City Marathon

Yeah…best moment. Between her and Meb I just want to go run right this moment.  And they’re such good people they deserve every great thing life brings them.

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On Facebook I’m connected to a writer friend of mine.  He posed a question on his page…”what’s something you’ve done that you’re sure you’re the only one on my friends list that’s done it?”

Well…let me just say that reading the responses I’ve decided I’ve totally wasted my life.  You would not BELIEVE what people have done.

“Been on the cover of time magazine, dec.1969 issue for the takeover of Alcatraz nov 20, 1969. ~As a member og the group of native americans who took the island over around 3am nov. 20th, 1969.” ~ Geneva Seaboy
 I mean…come ON. That’s a beautiful part of history right there, People.

One lady babysat Jeffrey Dahmer when Dahmer was about 8 or 9 and the guy was 16. Apparently, he was nuts then, too. I won’t go into details.

Someone chatted with Jackie O while driving her on a short ride to a friend’s house. Said she was lovely and personable. (Swoon with jealousy)

There was a man that bartended at a university function and served a glass of water to the Dalai Lama.

There were crash landings, island strandings and movie star visits.  

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And of course, one guy who was probably having the same thought I was. He said, “Shot a man in Reno, just to watch him die.”

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yes…yes you are. sigh…I love Johnny Cash.

I do have a few stories (okay, maybe only one or two and they are not that exciting)…but mine I take to my grave. They are definitely not blog worthy. This takes the excitement away, I know. But rest assured…I didn’t shoot a man in Reno and I didn’t babysit any serial kill…oh wait. I did babysit for someone who murdered someone. huh. I forgot that.

Eh that was a long time ago.

And I have been to see the Dalai Lama but I didn’t serve him water, I just heard him speak and it was as amazing as you would imagine. But it was amazing for a few thousand people so…doesn’t qualify probably.  I’ll keep thinking.  Pretty sure my kids could answer this question in a HOT SECOND.

Someone mentioned the post has over 350 comments so far. It is ridiculously interesting but really it’s the concept. Who knew people had these secrets in their past?
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Michelle and I climbed Mt Falcon Castle Trail on Saturday. And it hurt. Not during the climbing but afterwards…yikes. Seriously everything hurt.

The last time we went hiking we went much further and I didn’t hurt at all but today was a milder hike and man, my whole body aches. Probably something I ate affecting me. My guess? Kettle Jalapeno chips. I know you guys think I’m nuts but I don’t feel good after I eat them. I bought them Friday, first time in months. I think I’m over them. Weird right? Don’t get too upset, I’m still all in for jalapenos. Just these chips are a no go.

According to All Trails, the Mt Falcon Castle Trail is 7.9 miles. I’m not sure how they came to that conclusion. We climbed from the East parking lot up to the castle. At the castle we still had plenty of energy and we felt like we wanted more so we headed towards the West parking lot about a quarter of a mile thinking we’d get a great view  and we were not wrong. We did get a great view…. but we also got like 20mph winds. It was insane. Still pretty though.

We flipped around after that and headed back. The entire time we were hiking we were rewarded with deer sightings. They were everywhere just hangin’ out and having breakfast. Very relaxed. We went ridiculously early so there was virtually no one on the trail but us. Nice and quiet.

It was a beautiful way to spend the morning. Michelle and I don’t get much time together so when she messages with a “wanna hike?” I always say ~hell yes~ because it’s one of the joyous things in the world and she agrees. Just to be outside.

It was really bright outside and we were wearing really really bright clothes. The deer were not afraid at any point because we were easily spotted ten miles away.
In the end we hiked 6.5 miles according to all of the technology we were wearing so I again am not sure how they came up with 7.9 but whatever. 6.5 miles was plenty. I hurt like I had run 18 miles in the middle of a snowstorm. That was Saturday and on Sunday I still felt it.
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Monday:

#myworkoutis
3 easy miles|
40 push ups
40 squats
2 minute plank

Let’s hope I find the perfect temperature window to get that workout done in.

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South Mesa Trail~ we almost didn’t make it back

So, I’ve been gone. I have started a post twice but that’s as far as I got. Even as I type I’m nearly asleep at the computer so I may have try again in the morning. I’m pretty tired. I’ve just been too freakin’ busy and I’m really sorry.

On Sunday Michelle and Sean and I went hiking in a little place called South Mesa Trail in Boulder. Michelle asked if we wanted to take a trail hike and the place is supposed to be haunted.  Murders and such, right?

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Well, hell…I’m always up for an adventure. Count me in!
We had planned on doing four miles…maybe five. A nice moderate Sunday morning hike just hangin’ out and having a good time.

Oh what fools we were.

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Michelle had looked at the map. Sean had glanced at the map. I don’t look at maps if I’m with them because why? They’ve totally got this.

Except they didn’t.
We knew there were a few side trails that would cut us short and we’d end up back at the trailhead after just a mile or so. And we knew there was a really LONG hike that was like…11 miles. But somewhere in there was the 5 miler if we just stuck to the plan.
So we walked a lot of uphills.  A nice trail with uphills that crossed a creek, passed the short cuts and did everything it was supposed to. And then it started getting more technical. And we were really climbing. I kept thinking we should be turning or something but…still climbing and seriously more technical.
I mean…it was definitely hiking.
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But it quickly became bouldering. We were scrambling and bouldering and it was crazy because I love that kind of hiking but I’d rather be more prepared for it. In my head I was thinking…we’re on the 11 mile trail. I just know we are.
It was at the point that I took this picture that Michelle said, “this kind of hiking is how people get lost.”
I turned away from taking the picture and this is what I saw, ”

There are TWO PEOPLE in that picture but they LEFT ME. It took 30 seconds to snap those photos (the only photos I took, mind you, since the Andrettis were in such a freakin’ hurry. Seriously, her shirt is screaming red so if you don’t see her it’s because she abandoned me in my hour of need.
SO WRONG. You can bet I harassed her about that.
We kept on moving and climbing and scrambling and so on and I was lamenting the fact we’d seen no one else and half the time we couldn’t see the trail and spent a few seconds stopping and looking or having to backtrack when blessed me….someone came up behind us.
I asked her if she’d done the trail before and she said she had. She asked what we were looking for and Michelle told her the trailhead at Eldorado and she said, “ohhhhhh” in a very doomsday moan.
I don’t know…for some reason we just didn’t take that as a good sign.

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She told us we were definitely on the 11 mile hike. She advised continuing but we voted going back because the devil you know and all that.

It was way easier going back though my right knee had been giving me trouble for several weeks already and in the last week was so angry it’s been going out on me. I know I need some yoga and strength work with it but hiking did it no good. The stomping down the rocks on it was very hard on it. I’m not running on it. I’m going to be icing it and resting it and giving it a break for another few days but then I’ll see what it can take. When you don’t use it you lose it and I know that’s contributing to it now.

We were so tired and spent and exhausted we didn’t even take a little group picture, how dumb is that?

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All three of us were so sick of nature and the same stupid views we just wanted to leave (it’s okay, feelings are temporary). We went home to try and rest before Shaughnessy’s birthday dinner that night. It was a long day. Okay, Sean rested because his day was particular difficult. He’d been carrying weights for some training he is doing for an event and man…the extra miles and unexpected terrain definitely kicked his ass a bit. I just got in the shower and hung out there. It was delicious and I would like to be there now. #alwayscold.
We really did love the trail but yeah…probably the one we were supposed to be on.
The end result was this…what was going to get us, the ghost of the murdered victim? Or the hike up the wrong damn killer trail? Obviously the hike= and none of us were goin’ out that way for sure. We’re from Colorado. We have standards to maintain (I talk big…we pretty much really hated nature at that point).
We hiked 6.5 miles. Not that far over what we started out asking for but there was some tough climbing there.  Glad to be done with that, at least for now.
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Thanks for stickin’ around. I am attempting to be on the ball. I may be sleeping on it but I’m on it.

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Run on…

Purple fingernails. Not so much.

Two weeks ago my son got married and today I have a totally great hair day and my makeup is perfect. I’m starting to lose faith in the universe. Just sayin’.

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Work yesterday was much better. I went in for a few hours and it was find but later I went back when the office was empty and I could actually think. It’s a small office and a LOT of people go through it. So in the quiet of the evening I “finished” the project I was working on. I know it’ll need some tweaking but I made great progress. And I found a box and put anything extraneous I could find in that box. Plastic filing do-hickeys that people buy because they’re “going to get organized”, three tape dispensers, 8 staplers and too many cords to count but no one knows what they’re for.  I couldn’t think straight with all that stuff. I still need to vacuum and clean the desk off. Then I’ll be better. Flowers maybe. The office needs flowers.

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Michelle and I took a long lunch yesterday and went hiking which is the best way to spend the afternoon in October in Colorado.  We got away with no snakes (no snakes!) and came in under 2 hours so we were able to stand at the car for awhile and be judgey inappropriate friends that share too much.  Yeah, we know. We’re probably going to hell. But I’m hoping I can build up enough good Karma I can win positive points back. I don’t suppose it actually works that way…
Pfft…I’ll be the one at the pearly gates and St Peter will be all “well if you were a little less JUDGEY …”
yeah yeah yeah.
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When I was a little kid there was a time I stood in a department store and declared, “haff yah eveh seen poiple UNDIES?” rather loud through out the store. I’ve always had a thing for purple. The darker the better. Preferably nearly black.
I had enough time to get to my nail appointment where my really awesome nail girl was totally happy to give me the “darkest purple she  could find” which…it turns out…

…isn’t that dark.

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sigh. Probably mine because I’m agreeable. She was so excited! She had the PERFECT color! I hated to say…yeah….
No. 

So I didn’t. I took it. And now my fingernails are “Halloween” purple which is a little brighter and “out there”. (play Twilight Zone music in your head as you read that)
I have purple nails. Me. Purple. French tip me. Boring me.
It’ll take some adjusting. At my age we aren’t supposed to hope time passes quickly but…
I am kind of hoping time passes quickly so I can get my nails redone. I’ll just get the color I had before it was SO pretty.
My advice for the day…choose your purple wisely.

Stupid purple.
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I’m reading John Green’s new book Turtles All the Way Down and I highly recommend it. Anxiety and mental illness are just never talked about enough. Dismissed with a “hope you feel better soon” or a sad face on Facebook, I see friends going through this all the time. Recognizing someone has issues of anxiety or mental illness is a simple matter of honoring who they are. After that basic human kindness usually follows. Usually.
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Today I am visiting my friend after work and if I don’t get a run done in the morning (which I probably won’t because I’ve been walking the dog in the morning) then I’ll get a run in later.  It’s beautiful outside and I want to enjoy this week as much as I can. It’s so late in the year you never know what the next week will bring.
#myworkoutwas
Hour and a half hike with Michelle
Walked the dog for two miles
for a total of 20,000+ steps
I miss strength.  Tomorrow….tomorrow I strength train.  #weakarms
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Run on…

What’s in a name?

I listen to Pod Save America. 
Four former aides to President Obama — Jon Favreau, Dan Pfeiffer, Jon Lovett, and Tommy Vietor — are joined by journalists, politicians, comedians, and activists for a freewheeling conversation about politics, the press and the challenges posed by the Trump presidency. ~source

What is Crooked?
In 2016, a sane conversation about politics was most needed but hardest to find. Cable news panels, you may have noticed, are not the best.
Twitter is a great place to slowly lose your mind. Everywhere, the work of excellent journalists competes with clickbait, fake news, and whatever Donald Trump is tweeting about. We need a better conversation about politics in this country. That’s why we launched Crooked Media — to talk about politics in a way that doesn’t make you want to throw your phone out the window – with shows and analysis and other forms of sweet, sweet content that inform, entertain, and inspire action. No, we’re not unbiased, we’re not always serious and we’re certainly not always right. But we promise a no-bullshit conversation about politics and culture where you can laugh, cry, scream, ridicule us daily, share your ideas, and hopefully decide that you want to help fix this mess too. That’s it. End of mission. ~source

It’s really good journalism. It’s straight forward and honest and it’s just what we need right now in the midst of all this political turmoil with Donald Trump having the meltdown he’s having.

Here’s the thing. One of the guys is named Dan Pfeiffer. When I went to school many years ago (not that many, be nice) that was the name of one of my best friends. He and my friend LeAnn and I…we were always together.
He was handsome and charming and had the most beautiful voice…oh it was incredible. He would sing and we would melt. What a darling man. I loved him.
Not like that, but like one of my dearest most wonderful friends. I really loved him.

He passed soon after I married and was stationed oversees, he was very young. So I always felt like..he was there..and then gone.
It’s crazy how much I think of him anyway but I think of him every time I listen to Pod Save America and hear Dan Pfeiffer.
It’s just a name and really, what’s in a name?
Everything is in a name because I hear it and I think of him.
I miss him.
Anyway, you should listen to this podcast because it’s very real and it’s very good.
*warning explicit language
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I started a new job today. You know how the first day of new jobs everyone is like…”how was your first day??” with all that joy and excitement.
I love joy. And I want joy and I want excitement.
I love working. Keeping busy, using my brain cells and feeling productive.
But I may be the minority that thinks the first day (the first week?) is pretty stressful.
New situations, new set ups, new computers, new everything and you have to figure out how their systems work. You have to be fit into their world, they don’t fit into yours.

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So I’m making notes and lists to help make the days go smoother and reminding myself that every job has been like this.  With my previous jobs… it took a bit to get better,  but it did eventually get there. And every job I’ve ever had I’ve felt like God led me to it. They all gave back to me in some way. I gained something from them.  I’m trusting I’m supposed to be at this job where I believe this place needs me.
It’s really just -first day nervous blues-. Anyone else have first day blues? Or are you guys all -first day excitement-?
Sean just sat with me and walked me through some basic computer fixes, things I should have remembered from my last job but let’s face it…too many years of migraines and I figure brain damage tosses out anything Outlook wants me to remember. Plus, my computer is Windows 10 and the church uses Windows 7 so…

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Okay…I have some idea. I just have to access those parts of the brain that used to work on Outlook. It’s there somewhere. 

I’ll also be dealing with cleaning and organizing around people who want to do it themselves but they haven’t up until now. So as I’m asking about things or wanting to make changes there may be control issues. Today there was a lot of shuffling and cleaning around me and watching over my shoulder.

I really like my co worker but I don’t do well when watched…I shut down and my brain refuses to work. My old supervisor will attest to that (hey Norma…kiss Margaux!).  Her and I will adjust with time, I think the first week is just tough (positive thinking..).

It’s been years of disarray (apparently three pianos…three that aren’t being used…anyone need a piano? what the hell do you do with used pianos?) so we have to let someone else in to think differently.  I think time will allow that.

And I need to reign in my personality. A lot.

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yeah…wish me luck there…
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My appointment was hilarious today. It was my six month thyroid appointment where we spent 20 minutes talking about weddings and 30 seconds saying “thyroid numbers are a little low but you look great so I’m leaving you there! see you in six months!”
I love her.
After I left I thought…I should message her and ask where she buys her gorgeous clothes.

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This morning I had a hangover from my migraine so I slept hard and I snapped crackled and popped.
I did yoga to work it out.
I wanted to run after work because oh my gosh this day was so beautiful but I had groceries to buy and dinner to make and after the appointment I just didn’t get things done the way I needed to. So tomorrow I will hopefully be on a better schedule.
I’m going to be super busy in the next few weeks,  I have several appointments mixed in with work but oh the weather. The weather!
I do love Colorado. 
Tomorrow I have plans to get a hike in after work and after my appointment.
Michelle!!
It may be my last midweek hike of the year.

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Run on…

Who’s the crazy one?

I think we have the kinks figured out. There are still glitches which bug Sean but we have workarounds and I’m goin’ with it. It was bugging me enough yesterday that I put stickies on his computer basically begging him to fix it. The guy is super busy so he really doesn’t have time to be doing this stuff but it’s the -slightly too technical- stuff that I just don’t know enough about.

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Anybody else’s allergies going INSANE?  oh my gosh fall allergies. Who knew. I have had the itchiest nose today. I’m on two antihistamines to help with the itching and still I look like I’m picking my nose constantly.  Because I’m picking my nose constantly. Quite the lady right here. It just itches so much.

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Anybody else fall on the floor laughing when they read that Kim Jong Un called Trump “mentally deranged”? I mean…that’s what we’re reduced to.
I get it. I should be totally stressed, worried, freaking out.
oh yeah, I’m doing all of that, too. But come on. It’s pretty bad when even North Korea recognizes he’s crazy. NORTH.KOREA.
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I ran about fourteen errands…
Okay, not really fourteen. But I left the house really late and still ran like…nine errands in a very short time so that’s pretty good. But I was really sick yesterday and I’m not sure why. My stomach was BAD all day long.  I don’t think I’ve been glutened but I have eaten some new things in the last day.  Stomach issues are not my usual symptom so I’m a little unhappy. Maybe I’m just legitimately sick. ha. That would be strange. We really wanted to go to 730 South for dinner (just a few days before it’s closed!) but there was no way. By the time Sean came home I just needed to go lie down. I felt a little better after that but dinner was out.
Maybe we’ll do lunch today.
When I ran yesterday it was hot and windy. What is THAT about? The trees are actually turning those lovely fall colors and I’m thinking…where is my lovely fall weather?
I demand fall…
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#myworkoutwas
3.5 mile run
SIXTY pushups (I will not be able to do anything for days…DOMS for days)
Sixty squats but not with weights because I was too lazy to run upstairs and get them. Yes, I know how that sounds.

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I’m finishing up The Keepers on Netflix. I started it and got distracted because that’s who I am.  It’s so incredibly painful to watch but these women are so brave to come forward with what happened to them. It’s an incredible story and I feel like I’m reading  a book I can’t put down.
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Short and sweet today. I’m super late.  Places to go. People to see.
None of that is true. But I do have things I have GOT to get done.
In a perfect world I might go hiking today. It’s my big plan. I suppose it depends on how I feel. And time.

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Yes!!! Love that we live right on the mountain so we can walk out our front door and start an adventure!
Run on…