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#savethebunnies – anybody want a cat? He’s SUPER friendly.

Don’t worry. I’m keeping him. I just need therapy. 
I started the day at 4am
when I woke up with a bad dream. Kind of normal for me so I laid there processing. As I hung out thinking about going back to sleep it occurred to me I wasn’t being disturbed by a four legged cat who insisted on having breakfast.

Where was Skosh?

Skosh has missed us recently so we’ve been keeping an eye on him.

I got up and scoured the house only to come to the realization he must have escaped last night and I locked him out! I immediately panicked and opened the door to call him. Nothing.

Then I couldn’t go back to bed. I sat on the deck with a couch pillow and a throw just waiting to see if he’d show up. Usually if he’s out all night (it’s rare, not unheard of but rare) he’s waiting at the door like…what the hell…you totally locked me out! This morning he wasn’t doing that. He was just not there.

Malachi and I sat on the deck together waiting until finally one of the times I called him brought him running.

What a relief to hear his little bell…. It was so sweet, that sound! As he came running around the corner full speed so full of excitement he…

…well…he dropped the bunny he had in his mouth so he could come in the house and eat the breakfast I actually buy him.

I completely freaked. Damn cat. All love and concern completely gone. Now I had zero love.
The bunny appeared to still be alive and completely terrified.
At this point I needed Happy or Hungry to draw  cartoon of this morning because that’s really the only way to do it justice.
Malachi is on one side of the deck. I’ve closed Skosh inside the house. I’m holding Malachi off the bunny with the couch pillow as I try and call Sean on the phone to come help me rescue the bunny while trying to make sure the bunny is okay. This required some yoga.  I can’t open the door because Skosh wants to come back out and eat the bunny. Sean is sleeping.  I finally open the door and hold Skosh off with the couch pillow while threatening Malachi who is weighing his options and I yell at Sean to please wake up…come to the deck and bring a towel and I’m really sorry I’m waking him up at 5:30am like this.

Turns out our front screen door has a hole in it and Skosh escaped that way. It’s getting repaired today. Meanwhile, Sean drove off to work with the bunny wrapped in a towel so he could take it to the greenbelt at the park and it would have a better chance.

I love him so much. I cannot tell you how much I love him.  Nothing warms your heart as much as seeing a grown man wrap a tiny bunny in a towel and drive off in an attempt to save it. I’ve heard too many grown men tell me they’re nasty rodents and just shoot ’em. I’ll keep mine. He’s got the best heart. Meanwhile…
I have a cat available if anyone wants him…
Nicest cat EVER. Sweet. Loveable. Gets along great with other animals…
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#savethebunnies  #unfriendly #thatdamncat

Since it was GORGEOUS out it was the perfect running day. The perfect workout day. The perfect ~must go to the incline day~ which means it totally did not get done in any way at all. 

I know. You guys are all really disappointed in me. But in fact I got SO MUCH DONE yesterday I feel incredibly accomplished. I kicked some serious ass. AND…at the end of the day I ended up talking to a friend/business associate and she was also the perfect person to rejuvenate my spirit. I’ve been feeling very deflated lately and I have so much to do I really needed a pick me up.

God totally read that and sent her straight to me.
I have so much to do in the next three months   and I feel like time is totally FLYING by. So I’m trying not to panic too much and I’m going to try again today to get to the incline. I don’t feel too bad about missing it because hauling my bag out from camping really killed my back and it still hurts like a son of a gun so resting another day won’t kill me. I’ll bet money it’ll hurt another couple of days.

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I get it. It was one small bag. But it wasn’t a backpack. It was a stupid little duffel which was totally the wrong kind of bag to carry and I had to carry it quite a ways in the wrong position. It was awkward. It was uncomfortable. I am now paying for it.
This morning:

I know, it sounds like a lot but that’s my goal

Also…dress and shoe shopping. Wish me luck.

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Let’s talk shorts.

Sean and I just got back from Virginia where we went to visit our sweet youngest kid, MT…a Marine who loves to be called a kid, while he’s at school. He got a “96” which is 96 hours off. He asked for “special lib” which is special liberty, so he wouldn’t have to hang out on base the entire time and we went and did our own thing.
How cute is he?

I have much to talk about but it’ll take me a bit and since I’m sitting in the airport.

Instead I’m going to share my “prep” for the trip which entertained me for sure, if only me.

Okay, I’m really only going to share my hunt for shorts.

I needed shorts. Nothing fits me, I’m shaped weird.

I have a short waist.
Truthfully I have no waist.
I have runner’s thighs (not elite runners…sadly). They are thick and always have been.
I have a bum.
Places I need work… (all of the above)
I need to whittle in that little waist…
those thighs could use some …fine tuning…
And the bum. Oh the bum. Well let’s not go there.

What I need:
I prefer a low rise but not too low and I can handle a mid rise but not too mid. (could I be any pickier?).  I have a scar smack across the middle of my stomach that looks like a centipede that is from an emergency appendectomy during my last pregnancy, at least one Marine ago.  But when pants rest on it, it’s very itchy and sore. So I prefer low rise. One of my sisters once told me she loved low rise, the lower the better because then she could get a smaller size! Good Lord the things you remember.

So I needed shorts. I’m stuck somewhere between an 8 and a 10 because of the no waist and the bum thing. It’s quite sad. So I shop and I shop and I shop (oh my Lord the stores I went to) and I even tried clothes ON. I never do that. I buy things, bring them home, if they don’t fit I return them. Unfortunately I’m having such a devil of a time I would have lived at the store. So I started trying them on.
I shopped at:
Goodwill (success! Two pair!)
TJMaxx (so much love…my perfect shorts)
ARC Thrift store
A couple other thrift stores…
Old Navy
Nordstrom Rack
And probably a few other random stores I can’t remember.

So here’s the deal…as you can see I had great success at the thrift store and at TJMaxx. At TJMaxx I found a pair of American Eagle shorts that were so freakin’ comfortable I could hardly stand it they felt like pajamas. I was on a mission. Off I went to two more stores to find them but no…I had bought the only pair in existence. So I dove in and headed to American Eagle…the teeny bopper store. The store for children. The store for young people who wear no clothes. The store that sells a “sweater” that is in fact…a tiny halter top type thing.
I walked in the door and was immediately assaulted by someone asking if they could help me and I showed them my shorts and said I must have more. She pointed to the display in front of me and said these were the same shorts. I bought two pair immediately.
When I got home, however, I discovered they were totally NOT the same shorts.
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Not gonna lie, I was sad.
So I hopped online and found what I was looking for.
Now at this point I only have about five days before we’re leaving for our trip and I’m getting pretty nervous. So I ponder my choices and sweat about it for a while (overnight-truth be told) and finally bite the bullet and hit the “overnight” button which is in fact…$20 extra. I had free shipping so it just made it $20. I KNOW> JUST.
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I gasped, too. I’ve NEVER spent that on shipping before but I was pretty worried.
l bought them on Sunday which would deliver them to me on Tuesday. I used a card I used to have attached to PayPal but just the week before it had been hacked. Since I’m constantly online I had caught it very quickly and they had cancelled the transactions and issued me a new card. This is important later.

Tuesday came and went. Wednesday it crosses my mind…huh…where’s my shorts?
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I hop online to chat with them and I get Aric. Aric says “yes!” He sees my order! It absolutely will be delivered in ONE BUSINESS DAY! As soon as the payment is verified.
Um….what Aric?
As soon as we have processed and verified the payment we will “totally ship your items to you in one business day!”
Seriously…what Aric? What does that mean? He just kept repeating it. I finally asked for a supervisor which he would NOT GIVE ME> Because he wanted to see my HEAD EXPLODE with frustration.
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l started screen shotting his conversation and then I TOLD him I was screen shotting his conversation and I INSISTED on speaking to a supervisor and also I got on the phone to the customer service people who were really REALLY nice.

I got Matt. I told Aric and the supervisor he had finally produced that I was done with them and had moved on. I told Matt what had happened and that~ Dude..I need my shorts. He laughed and said, “let’s find them!”
He immediately figured out that my new card had not been verified on PayPal yet so they weren’t shipping the items because they thought the payment was hinky.  I gave him a different payment. Thanked him profusely. Asked him why they didn’t CALL ME. He said yep…they should have. That was totally the problem. Also, he said Aric had attitude and that was not okay. He was REALLY sorry and took half the cost off (free shorts!) And gave me free overnight shipping!

Matt does customer service right. We like Matt.
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Also, I had a lovely chat with him and know most of his life story.  (Hey Matt!)

This turned out to be a really good experience and I am glad I did it. Yes, I have American Eagle shorts but I love them so who cares. I have three pair. One pair of white (I love them) one pair of black (I love them) and one pair of khaki and they’re not bad. They go with everything but they aren’t the most flattering color on me so I’ll wear them but they won’t be my first choice. But they fit great and that is definitely the most important thing.
We had the best time in Virginia with MT so tomorrow I’ll tell you guys all about it.
Meanwhile I’ll d a HIIT workout today or some strength because it’s been days without strength and I long to remember what muscles are again.
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Seek Ye First… there’s the lesson

My day started yesterday with my house flooding.

It ended with my water heating dying.

Everything in between was just as amazing including a spider (no, he wasn’t small) actually crawling across my keyboard.

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I was going to go for a run but insanity (life) intervened and I had to wait until evening. Evening came and it became one thing after another and then when my sanity was actually at risk the winds were 17mph.

I decided I better not.

Was I bummed?
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Was I messaging someone about the best kind of drink to have?

Hell I was sitting in the parking lot of the liquor store discussing the benefits of Rum and Coke with my brother in law via email. I can always count on his dark sense of humor to make me laugh. And also to guide me to the best alcohol. When I told him I was looking for alcohol, knowing me so well you would expect him to say …don’t do it …it’s not good for you. Instead he said, “I like Rum.” And we went from there.  I didn’t end up caving though because I didn’t have the emotional energy to google what was gluten free and what wasn’t.
In all fairness the liquor store parking lot was the same parking lot as the grocery store but I was still thinkin’ about it. I can’t be bothered to drink. It’s too damn much work and not nearly as much fun as people talk about.

I think I handle most stress pretty well. I know right now you’re thinking…sure you do.
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I’m a ~power through it~ kind of person. I may rant later but what are husbands and girlfriends for? I can usually laugh it off, make a joke here or there. Be practical and say this is what we do and we just have to get through it.


I have a lot going on. I carry a lot of emotion, spirituality and intelligence all bundled up in one hot passionate mess.

When I think about how much I have going on and how I’m handling it I want to think I should grow the hell up and what’s my problem. And the other part of me says I’ve just snapped. I handled it and I handled it and I handled it and now I’m just done and rather than scream at the world and tell people exactly what I’m thinking, I choose to have a complete meltdown and process it.

Give, and it will be given to you. A good measure, pressed down, shaken together and running over, will be poured into your lap. For with the measure you use, it will be measured to you.” ~Luke 6:38 NIV

(side note: my post has now been written twice and disappeared twice. Heavy sigh. Moving forward)

I took Skosh to the vet this morning where our wonderful doctor said, “he’s the picture of health! He looks WONDERFUL!” It was pretty great news. And then I gave him $200. ( I had to pick up meds for the dog, too, sadly)

On the way to the vet though, the cat was crazy ass on speed stressed and all over the place.  For lack of anything to do for him (he doesn’t like the cat carrier after last year’s injury that had him at the vet every 3 days for a month) I started singing the first song that came to me. It was a hymn my dad used to sing called Seek Ye First. Here is a random person singing it.

I sang it very quietly and he laid down and practically fell asleep. Also, hey God, are you trying to tell me something?
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I did some strength training this morning. I’ll do more tonight and then I’ll run. Hopefully the wind goes home and doesn’t come back to stay. I don’t want it.
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After a day like yesterday running doesn’t always help. We like to think all of our problems are fixed by a good run.
Telling someone your problems and getting a lot of advice you really didn’t want and definitely didn’t ask for…that doesn’t help for sure.

What helps is time with real actual problem solving.  Talking to someone who makes a real honest legitimate effort to listen to you, to not judge you and to not offer unsolicited, mean spirited advice to you. Whether that is through a strong sane calm friend or therapy.    And I think learning to work within your emotional and spiritual limitations recognizing we all  have limitations. The point where we finally say we’re done and we aren’t going to not take care of ourselves anymore.
I believe there has to be a way to be a kind, generous person and also take care of yourself. To give and give lovingly with an unselfish heart.

Sometimes life is heavy. My usually joyful heart (ridiculously happy actually) is a little heavy right now. In a day or two I’ll be better. I get to see MT #thekidnotthestate

Remember…#bejoyful #bekind 

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At the beep the time will be…

  • Remember when you were a kid and you could call for the time and temperature? No?  huh. Okay, well ask your mother. She’ll tell you when SHE was a kid you used to be able to call on the phone for the time and temperature. It was VERY popular and kids loved to do it because calling on the phone was cool and we didn’t have anytone else to call. They still have one that’s in use as a 24 hour clock that called UTC which is “Coordinated Universal Time” (randomly mixed up initials, right?) and it’s the same time as Greenwich Mean Time. They said they still get on average 2000 calls a day and people use it during daylight savings and to synchronize clocks and watches and for the calibration of stopwatches and timers.
  • This is a great article on what to do if you lose your passport.
    It’s not something we ever think would happen to us, and in the case of the person in the article I thought..yeah..I would never do THAT…but nevertheless accidents happen and situations happen and I like the tips to handle exactly what to do if it does come up. I appreciated the organization of it.
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  • 11 Expensive Habits That Are A Total Waste Of Money I’m not sure they’re all great money savers but some of them are definitely worth making a concerted effort on.
  • 100 things to do in the Centennial State- I though this was a great list of things to do for Colorado but you could totally tailor it for your state and what a fun way to get through a summer!
  •  What Happened Today at the 2017 USA Outdoor Track & Field Championships Reading about these amazing women and how hard they worked for this race was really inspiring and though this kind of article doesn’t usually make me want to run (it usually just makes me incredibly proud of them) this one totally made me want to run. I’ll never be a world champion but to continue to show championship running and inspiration with the issues they have reminds me to get off my ass and out the door. From Gabe Grunewald (whose name reminds me of Harry Potter so I just love her more and more) who is undergoing chemotherapy to Alysia Montaño who is five months pregnant (seriously…five months pregnant!). Unbelievable. These women are so inspiring you really can’t say ~but I’m really tired. Damn it’s been a long day. I’m not really up to a run today~.
    Oh the irony…I specifically waited until this evening because I KNEW it would be a beautiful evening to run. And then I got so caught up in all I had to do and I was on a roll plus…my basement is trying to flood…so I didn’t run. and I really really wanted to! But no.
    I’m a little ashamed after that last awesome point.
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    To be fair..I’m stupid busy this week. I’ve been at the computer most of the day. Also doing laundry, doing the floors, and dealing with the ~I really want to flood~ basement.
    I ran Friday and Saturday for about 3.5 miles each and I loved both runs. I walked a bit with each but they were so great and I came home pretty much loving life. I did some strength training both days also so I no longer feel like a COMPLETE marshmallow but I still feel the need for lifting.
    This weather has been amazing and anytime the weather wants to stay down here in the 70’s I’m totally in thankyouverymuch. Tomorrow is going to be 84*. I won’t complain. It’s going to be in the mid 90’s in Virginia. I’m SUPER excited about that. I’ll add in that humidity and damn..life is good.
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    I think this is so true. Not just physical energy but emotional and spiritual energy, too.
    Just had a few thoughts this morning when I signed into my account and was  overwhelmed/stressed knowing how many msgs I have to reply to but then shortly followed with gratitude knowing that I am lucky to have you guys choosing ME as your stylist Surround yourself with people who push you towards greatness. Surround yourself with people who motivate you and lift your spirits. Surround yourself with positive people because THEY will make you feel good about yourself because they feel good about themselves. I solely believe that we run off our own energy and the people around us. "Most will say youre crazy to try. Find those who say youd be crazy not to." by thingsbytams
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The next day.

Yesterday was Mother’s Day, obviously, and I heard from all three of my kids and that’s a win in any book  because I love them and they are all adorable.
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MT (thekidnotthestate) called first to say for Mother’s Day he was not going to ask me for money. After I laughed I asked, “why would you?”..MT never asks for money. When he went to VA he was supposed to start or “pick up” class right away. Instead there was a glitch so he has been hanging out for 8 months waiting for the next class cycle. He just picked up class this month. But the Marines think he graduated per his previous “pick up” date and is now a reservist and thus…no longer active duty. So no more pay for you, Sir. They did figure it out and started the process to fix it but meanwhile…it’s gonna be a light month. The wheels of the military grind slowly.
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I googled ~hurry up and wait gif~ and I got Cookie Monster. Not sure how I feel about that. #conflicted

Alex Michael came over and built me the most amazing table for my garage in a ridiculously short time…

That sucker is six feet long. He was going to make it eight feet but I ran out of garage.
Now…check out the quality of that photograph. This is the reason for the new phone. Pretty spectacular, right?
yep. Yes, now that you ask, that IS the only photo I got yesterday. I don’t ask the kids for pictures anymore and I totally forgot theboy. More on that later, I bet you could guess though…

In case you’re wondering, that splotch is paint from 1999 thereabouts. Yes I’m that old. Shut up. Just one of many. This garage tells stories…

Shaughnessy and Adam and theboy came over and brought me flowers (gorgeous flowers!) and hung around and chatted for a few hours and then they escaped to their own house. Sean had something to do very late last night out of town and I didn’t want him going alone, it was a long drive. So I went with him. Don’t worry, it wasn’t illegal. Probably.
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I’ve been battling a migraine for a week and I’m pretty over it (hence no photos…). Today is eat what I want. Do what I want. Sleep when I want. Usually this works itself out fairly quick I just have to shut out the world and take care of me so that’s what I’m doing.

I love my kids so much and I LOVED seeing them yesterday. However, the highlight of the day had to be realizing our neighbors had moved after ten years. They had two of the worst small dogs ever and they barked nonstop. I’ve had people over that love dogs WAY more than people and by the time they leave they are spent. Exhausted. Weary from the noise and considering canine murder (just kidding…mostly). We did try and deal with it and it was not as successful as we would like. I cannot tell you how bad the noise was. Barbecues, backyard events, anything we would want to do, those dogs barked the entire time. You could hear it with our doors closed or open. It was awful. We had one neighbor on our side, we’re thinking we’re going to take her a celebratory pie later. Party on.  I cannot explain to you the peace that is taking over my soul in the quiet of my life right now. It’s so silent we heard a bird. I nearly cried this morning just thinking about it. I am not exaggerating in the slightest. #itsthelittlethings #thiswasabigthing

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Don’t talk to me right now…I’m busy dancing…
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Explore the world and love your family.  As Shaughnessy said yesterday, holidays should definitely be celebrated and with so much joy!

I’m running today. I’m also doing some strength and I’ll tell you what I did tomorrow when I figure it out. ha.

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While you were sleeping…

Michelle and I were supposed to go hiking yesterday afternoon so before I did I made sure to start the morning with the yoga stretches from yesterday’s post to make sure my legs were completely ready to cooperate.

We chose Matthew/Winters Park which is, as you may remember, one of my favorite standbys to hike at. Just enough technical and just enough to distance. Not too busy but enough people I’m not going to get mugged and it’s just so pretty. 

Of course, I didn’t take the photo with my phone, Michelle did. Hers is a much better piece of equipment. Dammit. Next time…a selfie. Sorry. I swear we’re out there hiking together. I promise.

We got great mileage in, we worked out little butts off and avoided the rain and narrowly missed death by electrocution via lightening. p.s. Michelle is a tad bit afraid of this.
Lunch was all the salad all the time. And I liked it.
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While I was home I got a surprise visit from this guy…

He looks pretty excited there, doesn’t he? He was way more excited. This photo is at least six months old.
He stuck around and visited with me and it was so good to see him! I mean I  know he was totally just using me because he stopped to get stuff but hey…as long as he’s there he has to talk to me because it’s in the mom rule book. You HAVE to talk to your mom when you stop at home.

Want to know what he told me? He said that last week when I was sleeping off a migraine in the middle of the week he came home and came upstairs INTO THE BEDROOM and I still slept. Me. The world’s lightest sleeper. And the puppy who barks at the flags that wave on the street and people that may be even THINKING about walking past the house. Nothing. Silence.

I was a little freaked out.
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Note to all of you: don’t google “that’s creepy gif”…nothing good will come of it.
People.com just did a spread on They Woke Up Like This: Celebs’ Best Makeup-Free Selfies and seriously these women look so beautiful. Gwyneth Paltrow, though not really my favorite person, looks amazing. And let’s not even talk about Salma Hayek and Carrie Underwood (who I think is everyone’s idol…good Lord that girl is a rockstar ~her legs!~. Wait…I think she’s actually a country star but either way…she kicks ass and she looks amazing doing it). I swear, they are gorgeous.
I have taken to spending at least half my days makeup free except when I absolutely have to because my skin loves it so much….it thanks me for letting it breathe and I can totally see the difference on the days I go without. That and a good workout and I am pretty sure I take five years off.
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I’m in prime ~take care of my legs~ mode so I headed to the chiropractor to get an adjustment. That was interesting. And from there I came home and walked the slowest puppy in the world. What the hell?

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please note: this looks accurate…with occasional stops in between.
I got 17000 steps in yesterday so that’s a lovely amount. Today I have….::consulting my workout plan:: 3 miles on the plan and some strength because I want to.
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It’s pouring rain/snowing so I’m not sure if that’ll be a treadmill run or what but there you go. Also, much organizing to be done because hey…That’s my job!
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"You are never too old to set another goal or to dream a new dream." - C.S. Lewis:

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the cliche of life.

I first have to send love to my friend. She knows who she is. She lost her significant other two days ago and though they weren’t married they were as close as they could have been…living together, having a child together and being a family. He was young and she is broken. I am broken for her. His parents lost their son…such a loss.
I went to see her and I found myself flitting back and forth between practical mode ~looking absentmindedly for the hairbrush for the baby’s hair ~ and hugging her because that’s really all I want to do. I want to sit on the couch and hug her and let her cry as long as she wants to. The practical in me totally takes over and I don’t know how to turn it off. But the house filled up and she had things to do so I left because at that point I was just in the way. I’m good when no one else is there I think…

I hope she’s okay. She has a big job ahead of her but a lovely support system from what I saw today and of course, she knows I’m a message or a text away any time. My phone is always on. As long as she forgives me my verbal gaffes. I’m sure there are many.
I love you, Friend. Hope you’re okay today.
I bought one of those stability balls and I got my workout in just blowing the damn thing up. I was exhausted and by the time I was done I didn’t have the energy to workout. I read the instructions (I know, right? Instructions? To blow up a ball? This should not require instructions…I was seriously doubting my ability to function as a human being if I needed help with this) and it told me it wouldn’t be fully inflated until tomorrow. I don’t know why. Today it would only partially inflate. Tomorrow it would inflate the rest of the way. This seems like a lot of work for a workout I’m not even sure I’ll like.
I had one of these before but I had kids at home then and I don’t workout with kids so I ended up donating it because I never used it. Trying again now. It’s supposed to be great for your abs. My abs need all the help they can get.
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The Gilmore chronicles
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you know some men retire...”~ Emily
yes, and some men tattoo their mother’s names on their biceps...” ~ Richard, Emily’s husband, a line I appreciate and smile at as I fondly think of my son…with “Mom” tattooed on his bicep. LOL (shout out to Alex Michael)

I think it is really important to take a moment to recognize what you have. Appreciate it and thank the universe.

We can’t always “appreciate every moment”. It’s incredibly unrealistic and I don’t like cleaning the toilet, talking to the car mechanic, having the flu and I really really don’t like pulling weeds…sorry Mom. Never have and I’m a little bitter about the memories. Bugs. But I am a HUGE lover of life and all the little things. I am the person that appreciates life for all those stupid little things that people make fun of me for.

  • I love the plant I haven’t killed yet that’s still sitting on my counter (Megan asked if it was real..she obviously knows me…LOL)
  • I love that my husband is ridiculously happy playing this game (he just left again tonight…he’s so happy…my husband is happy..he’s a very subdued introvert, that’s a big deal)
  • I love Netflix. What a brilliant idea Netflix was
  • I love strength training…I KNOW> can you BELIEVE IT???  Yep. That happened after my surgery kept me from it
  • I love great restaurants that are gluten free (so much)
  • Podcasts. joy.
  • I love running so SO much. I can’t wait until it’s not so much work. SOON. I’m holding my breath. Not really I would totally be dead.
    Can you imagine if I actually put real thought into this list? This took me like 4. 6 seconds.
  • The gist is…life gives us surprises every single day. kiss your family. 


Today I did a half ass workout due to my day being out of whack. Friday is supposed to be a rest day so I’m swapping and doing Thursdays workout on Friday.

I’m going to run and I have a strength training workout that includes the stability ball. I know you’re shocked.

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Run on…


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Sixty Five Thousand Dollars. SIXTY FIVE THOUSAND DOLLARS. Gasp.

I took my car to the shop and they said they’d call in about an hour with the diagnostic. That was five hours ago so I’m super excited for how long they’ll have my car.

I got a ride home from the shop from a sketchy guy in a van with no windows.

Okay, he was a lovely (slightly) older man who was driving  a company car from the dealership and he had lovely taste in music (Springsteen thankyouverymuch). It was only mildly uncomfortable.
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update: they never called. Does this mean I get a free car?
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So now I’m home trying to get all my “home projects” done and I’m half successful and half not. There were more work projects than time. Where is my time machine??
Note: If I had a time machine would I use it to do my projects?
I really really hope not. #travelmuch #kidadventures #kidtime #love #husbandtime #notakebacks
I was looking up some medical bill stuff to file and I came across hospital bills that came in late. My hospital bill for my surgery was actually…

brace yourself…

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That is ONLY the hospital. That is bandages, etc. That is NOT for my doctor or my anesthesiologist or anything else. Just the hospital.
There are actually two bills, one for $55,000 and one for $64,000 and change and I can’t tell if one is getting ready to be cancelled out by an updated one or if there are actually two. But seriously...$65,000!

That is half of my house…when I bought it twenty years ago but STILL>

Shaughnessy sent me an email this morning and I realized that writing a post late at night makes your brain not work correctly: I have edited this post to say…I did not have to pay this. We purposely waited until January to schedule the surgery so my insurance year would be new and my deductable (which is in fact, ridiculously high) was paid already from previous issues and the surgery was completely paid for. I recognize every day the privilege I have and the grace I have been given. The year I had was miserable and it wasn’t life threatening it was soul threatening. I can’t imagine people that live without basic medical care every day and don’t have even basic needs met. I have immediate family members that have felt this and it’s frightening to think of their every day and their future. Things we take for granted as a simple “just make an appointment” they do not have that luxury.

I think everyone has projects they have their hearts devoted to. My heart is well devoted to health care for everyone.   I’ve been given so much. I want everyone to have the same basic needs met.

I bought jelly beans. That has nothing to do with the hospital bill. I’ve moved on now. Stick with me. I missed the entire Easter event and bought no candy. So I grabbed jelly beans at the store and I am a fan of the original Brach’s. Also, they were out of Starburst. Sadly. I do not enjoy the black licorice, those are the devil. So I separated all the beans by color, threw out the ones I didn’t like, ate all the white ones (I LOVE those) then started in on the red ones of which there were three. THREE. I felt so ripped off. On to the pink ones and YUM those are way better than I remember! When I finished those (don’t judge me, Brach’s jelly beans are HUGE and that bag is small. It’s not like I ate 807 jelly beans. Shut up. I totally heard that.) I was stuck. What to choose next? Well, it’s not really a choice. All that is left is orange, yellow and green and I’d have to be hung upside down and starved to eat the yellow and green. So I ate the orange. Eh. It was okay. I didn’t really like them. I left the rest for Sean and when he gets home from work he’s going to look at the bowl and think…

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I’d be happy to buy you your own bag of jelly beans next time. Don’t pick on me.
*for the record he came home from work and didn’t even flinch at the candy bowl of green and yellow jelly beans. I totally have him trained.
I bought new running shoes…and then I immediately wore them and got them muddy and wet and gross. I know I’m not supposed to wear them hiking but I’m a rebel and I do what I want.
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Also, my hiking shoes just don’t love me as much as my running shoes do and it’s really all about the love. So I don’t have a photo…maybe tomorrow. I know you’re on the edge of your seat about it.
There were some not so friendly colors available which made me very sad… but I love orange and pink and you can’t go wrong with black so I warmed to these pretty quick. I mean, in a perfect world they would be all black. We can’t all have what we want. I run in Brooks Adrenaline so this year I bought the 17’s. I had to buy the current year because the 15’s and the 16’s got terrible reviews and I don’t want to take a chance on screwing myself up so I skipped from the 14’s straight to the 17’s. There you go. The price you pay.
How I feel when I get new running shoes!

Today the weather is 80% chance of rain and a high of 60*.  That’s a pretty good chance of rain right there but it’s going to hold off until the afternoon so I can walk the dog in the morning and get a run in maybe. (yay). Perfect weather for it. Then I must attempt to lift something as I haven’t lifted anything at ALL for three months. Milk has become even heavier. It’s quite embarrassing.

Always make time to run. Get outside, feel alive.
Run on…


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I am DONE…

….talking about Valentine’s Day!

I know how happy Ya’ll are about that.

  • I got more than the average ~recovering from surgery so I’m a complete sloth~  amount done today. That’s not saying much but I’ll take it. I managed to get some business done. I got my blog done (hi Guys!). Sean and I got a TON of recycling cut up and stacked for recycling day tomorrow. I made dinner. Yay me.  I finished a few over the phone “errands” and I did a ton of reading …nothing fun. All political. The need to stay informed is sucking the joy from my life. I also talked to MT and that is keeping the joy in my life. One must have balance.
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  • I walked the dog and since he is slower than…well I have no comparison. He’s really slow. We walk two miles and it’s slightly excruciating. So I came home and dropped him off and went back out and walked another 3.5 miles sans the dog. It feels SO GOOD to get moving.
  • I have an acquaintance who felt the need to lose a little weight to run. Let’s say this, if she needed to lose weight, my gosh it’s shocking I ever was allowed to buy running shoes. Ever. But she followed a very clean diet (something I mostly do ::sheepish look) and she works out and strength trains a LOT and her results are nothing to sneeze at. Damn. Here’s the gist. I have been sick for more than a year. A YEAR. I missed a year of my life. I fought for six months+ just to get someone to listen to me (kind of wrong after the whole fighting for the Celiac thing) and then I had to wait for the surgery for 6 months. It feels validating to know I wasn’t making it up in my mind and also to know I already feel so much better since the surgery. So if I can work hard and feel good I might be able to get back to feeling strong again.  I miss it. That’s my goal.  So I’m sad that I missed that time but I’m beyond grateful it wasn’t longer and I feel so much better already.
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  • So I wrote that last night, right? This morning I was doing my ~how am I feeling this morning~ inspection. And check this out… I don’t have cankles anymore. I know I know…weird right? No joke I had the fattest freaking ankles EVER and I just figured I had gained SO MUCH WEIGHT I couldn’t even control it anymore. This morning I thought…”hey ankle…I missed you. There you are”. And on Valentine’s Day I was wearing my mother’s wedding band. I wear it on my ring finger because I don’t have my own so I swap out lots of different rings. Anyway, it’s a really wide band and it fits me really well. Some days it’s been tight. I haven’t worn it in forever because it fits justright so it can feel a tad uncomfortable at moments. Yeah…the sucker flew right off my hand. Twice. I took it off and put it away. God forbid losing THAT (and thus you have the reason I don’t have my own band).
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  • Is anyone else completely overwhelmed with all the politics and what issue to I stand up and scream about today? Because I need to know what’s most important. Seems to me it’s the immigration issue today but I also want to make sure it’s not a smokescreen while they slide something under the damn radar. Meanwhile…I really hope the immigration walk out is a raging success and people can’t get what they need because hello…this country is run by immigrants.
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  • I think the United States Marines and the Airlines are in cahoots because MT asked for 10 days leave for March since he’s not in school until April and he’s just sitting around. He asked for this right after he got back in January. They’ve been sitting on it forever and it just got approved today. TODAY. Now that plane tickets are $700. I could fly to Paris for $700. Ridiculous.
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That’s totally wrong. Everyone appreciates my sarcasm. Except my sister. They don’t do sarcasm in her house. bahahahhahaa. Whatever. 

It’s a REALLY beautiful day and I am off to enjoy the sunshine. 70*!!!!

Note to self: None of us are getting out of here alive... Walk in the sunshine. Jump in the ocean. Say the truth that you're carrying in your heart like hidden treasure. Be silly. Be kind. Be weird. There's no time for anything else. Positive quotes & sayings #inspiration:

I have officially done ALL of these things…to the mild irritation of my husband…hahhaa. Sorry Babe.

Run on….and have a beautiful day!

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The workout of the weak Celiac

Don’t get me wrong…I’m positive there are strong healthy Celiac’s out there who aren’t having these issues. We’re all working on our own thing. This one seems to be mine. Took me forever to figure it out. I just thought I was lazy.

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Ria sent me a 10 week workout and I’ve been trying to stick to it as much as possible. I did have to miss a week when I had the migraine so my dates are off. But otherwise…I’ve been working on it. Yesterday’s workout was 4 miles running and strength training.

Ria’s strength training workout is pretty basic for a normal person.  I’m relatively certain most people could complete it with great success.

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So I took one look at it and laughed outright.

I forgot to tell her.  Yesterday when I worked on it again I thought…damn…I really need to remember to have a chat with her about strength training and my serious lack of …well…strength.
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Anyone who has been to yoga or who does an exercise DVD knows there are “modified moves” for those people who aren’t prepared to do the full workout.

That would be me. I am not prepared to do the full strength workout.

Ria has me working on the following:

For each move start with a medium weight (8lbs) ….skipping ahead perform same move with slightly heavier weight (approx 10lbs)… moving on to heaviest weight yet (approx 15 lbs) and then down to the lightest weight (3-5lbs)

Obviously I skipped what to do with the weights and all the moves but what’s important here is the weight itself.

Yep. The weight. I have no upper body strength, first of all. And second of all I’m Celiac. So building weight is really difficult. I can lift the 3, the 5 and the 8 and even occasionally the 10lbs depending on the move I’m doing (anything over my head…nopenopenope).  But there is no way I can do the 15lbs. Nope. No way. And as I lift, my heart rate races ridiculously and I have to do it slowly so as to hold off a migraine and or passing out.

Yep. That happens.

And squats…don’t get me started. They’re my favorite. I love squats but oh do I have to be careful. I can lift way more with squats but my heart can’t take too much. Don’t panic, Mom, I’m not going to have a heart attack. But I’ll totally pass flat out. I can feel it. And a migraine is about 12 seconds away. So as much as I want to push the weights and lift a little more and kick a little ass strength training…I have to go excruciatingly slow. And with the world’s lightest weights.

So instead of the weights she asked of me…I lift 5, 8, 8 and 10 (sometimes if I can take it) and then back down to 5. Still with the lighter weights my heart pounded. My head pounded. I was dizzy. It was unsettling. It’s not the usual “pushing yourself to lift” situation. It’s more…watch yourself so you don’t pass out situation.

These are exciting times in my house.

A few years ago I had Alex take me to the gym to train me. He tried but did not have much patience. This is why. I had to go so slow and I got really dizzy. Now we know why! I’ve learned so much in the last two years.

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I’m still working out. I’m still running. I’m still following the plan as much as I can and I’m hoping for a good outcome. I just have to remember it’s going to go slower the way I do it and I have to not get discouraged.


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Run on…

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